kids. when u go to the piano, what do u do? be controlled by feelings, or be controlled by the scores? or be controlled by your memory? hahahhahhaha. difficult choice to make eh.

well of course i sympathise with those who need scores then can create sth, and it is somehow limited by what the scores tell them. cos somehow they are not able to express true self. they are expressing the composer. which is so boring. isn't that like acting, instead of showing urself?

that's my problem with orchestras. for those in orch, or band, good for u. u can embrace that type of culture. somehow i not this type. listen to orchestra, i ok. cos i not inside. but if i inside orchestra i will feel bored.