tiring for me to complain. but i still shld.
wad is learning? is learning all in ur school notes? apparently, i believe, not. sorry to those ppl who can only absorb info which are approved by the moe, the school, etc. u muz understand learning and getting an interest in the stuff u do is not only about getting good marks. u tink u are a good student by getting the best result here and there? u are good only if u add the passion and depth criteria into ur that particular subject. that's all i can sae.
millions of ppl achieve 4 As in their a level. but do they hav a passion in any of these A subjects? to a great extent, most ppl study to get the A, not for the subject. which i feel is quite a disappointing thing. i rather u get less A and focus sth u like. this gives u more direction. true, As in ur A level gives u more cash next time, but is cash so impt? haha.
but at the end of the day, i can't discourage ppl from juz studying wad is required of them. so, it's ok kids. carry on wif ur life. be innocent. and stop being an idiot. and then life will be good. hahahah
Thursday, May 28, 2009
cjb. wa eh jiu 差不多要被我敲坏了。
cjb. sorry. u are under a person who is possessive. when that happens, u watch out. i wonder, whether my left hand is fractured already? maybe i am like this. i like to makan everything. juz tink about it, when i get noodle, 加加面，where does it all end up? in my stomach. as a matter of fact. it juz vanishes. same thing. aiya. wadeva. 在这里讲东西，太危险。
为何危险？简单。因为这世界充满虚伪，愚笨，被控制的人。 fkin hell. u tell me, which person is not being controlled by another, until he/she realises the truth? many ppl delude themselves, and stick wif others. this is called insecurity, worry, lousiness. heh. as a matter of fact, if u can't survive on an island urself, assuming food is delivered and all basic needs fulfilled, and then u find that u rely on ur frens excessively to survive. u are not of much worth. this is to a great extent. those nub jb, u tink u are in control u dua jiak ar? come la. ai pia zui? i may lose. but it's ok. u noe why? i lost on the societal level, but i never lost on the conscience level. and on the thinking level. and on the depth level. u did win on the surface, but sorry, my missile was probably shot from the peru trench, while u only attacked the surface of micronesia. my nuke probably would rock ur fkin continent, u destroy only the top of a puny, poor island.
not so much time to waste on ppl i shldn't waste my time on. hahhahahahahhahaa. funny. sometimes i tink about it. it's quite funny to see ppl live superficially, and think that it's not superficial. interesting. the more interesting it is, i can predict a rise in my blood pressure. i nearly got a heart attack in the past few days, hours.
cjb. sorry. u are under a person who is possessive. when that happens, u watch out. i wonder, whether my left hand is fractured already? maybe i am like this. i like to makan everything. juz tink about it, when i get noodle, 加加面，where does it all end up? in my stomach. as a matter of fact. it juz vanishes. same thing. aiya. wadeva. 在这里讲东西，太危险。
为何危险？简单。因为这世界充满虚伪，愚笨，被控制的人。 fkin hell. u tell me, which person is not being controlled by another, until he/she realises the truth? many ppl delude themselves, and stick wif others. this is called insecurity, worry, lousiness. heh. as a matter of fact, if u can't survive on an island urself, assuming food is delivered and all basic needs fulfilled, and then u find that u rely on ur frens excessively to survive. u are not of much worth. this is to a great extent. those nub jb, u tink u are in control u dua jiak ar? come la. ai pia zui? i may lose. but it's ok. u noe why? i lost on the societal level, but i never lost on the conscience level. and on the thinking level. and on the depth level. u did win on the surface, but sorry, my missile was probably shot from the peru trench, while u only attacked the surface of micronesia. my nuke probably would rock ur fkin continent, u destroy only the top of a puny, poor island.
not so much time to waste on ppl i shldn't waste my time on. hahhahahahahhahaa. funny. sometimes i tink about it. it's quite funny to see ppl live superficially, and think that it's not superficial. interesting. the more interesting it is, i can predict a rise in my blood pressure. i nearly got a heart attack in the past few days, hours.
Sunday, May 24, 2009
let me touch on a controversial issue hehe. it juz appeared in my mind for no reason.
u c, artists as in those ppl who draw some of them like to say, cheh, write story is not art. but are we so sure that literature isn't a form of art?
1st. how do u define art. i like to sae sth aesthetic is alr art. but wad is aesthetic ppl wld sae. i wld like to use wiki's definition, it's quite broad. quite along wif my line of definition of aestheitcs. Aesthetics (also spelled æsthetics) is commonly known as the study of sensory or sensori-emotional values, sometimes called judgments of sentiment and taste. More broadly, scholars in the field define aesthetics as "critical reflection on art, culture and nature." so u c, there are many forms of art - it can take picture, scribbling, doctor handwriting, music, even writing a poem and a story. thus i would consider literature is an art.
but i wld sae, literature is a more cheem form of art. u look at drawing, and playing a piano. it doesn't require u to know anyting do do these. to play the piano very pro, u dun have to be a diploma, lrsm, wadeva qualification. juz nid either talent, or lots of hardwork. u dun even need to know key signature, treble cleft, major minors to play good piece, although u may need those to communicate with other ppl who play piano. also, tink about drawing. it doesn't require u to be in aep to know how to draw isn't it? but do need to know texture, 3d, dimensions, background foreground etc. to be able to communicate in same lingo as other artists.
but for lit. it sort of different to me. cos to write great literature, u need to be of a certain proficiency of a language to be able to do it. and being able to express ur feeling in that language. that is the difficult part. i am able to express myself by playing piano. but somehow. i dun seem to be able to write very well either in english or chinese. some ppl sae i'm lazy. ya, maybe, if i spent more time talking coherently maybe i wld be better off. but there can be talent involved. all art forms require some talent, mugged talent isn't the best. so literature does seem to be a difficult art form eh?
interesting. i wonder hu comments.
u c, artists as in those ppl who draw some of them like to say, cheh, write story is not art. but are we so sure that literature isn't a form of art?
1st. how do u define art. i like to sae sth aesthetic is alr art. but wad is aesthetic ppl wld sae. i wld like to use wiki's definition, it's quite broad. quite along wif my line of definition of aestheitcs. Aesthetics (also spelled æsthetics) is commonly known as the study of sensory or sensori-emotional values, sometimes called judgments of sentiment and taste. More broadly, scholars in the field define aesthetics as "critical reflection on art, culture and nature." so u c, there are many forms of art - it can take picture, scribbling, doctor handwriting, music, even writing a poem and a story. thus i would consider literature is an art.
but i wld sae, literature is a more cheem form of art. u look at drawing, and playing a piano. it doesn't require u to know anyting do do these. to play the piano very pro, u dun have to be a diploma, lrsm, wadeva qualification. juz nid either talent, or lots of hardwork. u dun even need to know key signature, treble cleft, major minors to play good piece, although u may need those to communicate with other ppl who play piano. also, tink about drawing. it doesn't require u to be in aep to know how to draw isn't it? but do need to know texture, 3d, dimensions, background foreground etc. to be able to communicate in same lingo as other artists.
but for lit. it sort of different to me. cos to write great literature, u need to be of a certain proficiency of a language to be able to do it. and being able to express ur feeling in that language. that is the difficult part. i am able to express myself by playing piano. but somehow. i dun seem to be able to write very well either in english or chinese. some ppl sae i'm lazy. ya, maybe, if i spent more time talking coherently maybe i wld be better off. but there can be talent involved. all art forms require some talent, mugged talent isn't the best. so literature does seem to be a difficult art form eh?
interesting. i wonder hu comments.
Thursday, May 21, 2009
i came, i loved. and i died. but i lived on.
wad keeps u going? some ppl duno. even i may not know. according to secular thoughts, most ppl duno why they are here. according to christianity, i am here cos some dua tao put me here for purposes. i may not understand the purpose, i may understand part of the purpose.
but at the end of the day, is life all about studying and ur job and ur cash? haha. some ppl may all juz chiong the art of succeeding. look at how many books are tuned to success. habits of effective learning, art of leadership, even men are from mars women are from venus, to even books of 易经 and 孙子兵法 tuned to how to succeed in the world. instead of their original uses which are philosophical strategies.
success. is it important to someone? i wld sae very much. succeeding is a good thing. but what is it that you want to succeed in? the most cash? haha. if u think u want the most cash.... well then u can go get the cash. it's not my business that you want the cash. but for me. well. maybe succeeding in sth else is everything.
again, thoughts getting too incoherent. dowan type alr.
wad keeps u going? some ppl duno. even i may not know. according to secular thoughts, most ppl duno why they are here. according to christianity, i am here cos some dua tao put me here for purposes. i may not understand the purpose, i may understand part of the purpose.
but at the end of the day, is life all about studying and ur job and ur cash? haha. some ppl may all juz chiong the art of succeeding. look at how many books are tuned to success. habits of effective learning, art of leadership, even men are from mars women are from venus, to even books of 易经 and 孙子兵法 tuned to how to succeed in the world. instead of their original uses which are philosophical strategies.
success. is it important to someone? i wld sae very much. succeeding is a good thing. but what is it that you want to succeed in? the most cash? haha. if u think u want the most cash.... well then u can go get the cash. it's not my business that you want the cash. but for me. well. maybe succeeding in sth else is everything.
again, thoughts getting too incoherent. dowan type alr.
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
it's high time i taken a swipe at some ppl, and some stupid practices in place.
they sae, the young muz treat the old, and the old muz treat the young. tink about it. wad is treat? when u treat someone, u shldn't expect someone to treat u back. u tink wad? 你请人吃饭，他就欠你人情？？骗鬼啊！？ fren, ok fine, if it's an initiative from a party to treat another person, that is fine. but this person who treat the other guy shldn't expect anything back. this is a wrong value.
dun lie seriously. and if u ever force ppl to treat u, that is in my eyes extortion. i hav not very high expectation of what i being treated. u can juz buy me sth small. i'm alr happy. and i'll rmb. but u shldn't sae, o cos i treat u, u supposed to treat me back. it's the wrong value. pls, get ur heads right.
but anyway, wad's done is done, currently now i'm treating some people out of my own will cos i tink they shld be treated. but for those whom i dun tink shld be treated, what is the point of me treating them when they force me to treat them???? erpz. wake up ur idea.
they sae, the young muz treat the old, and the old muz treat the young. tink about it. wad is treat? when u treat someone, u shldn't expect someone to treat u back. u tink wad? 你请人吃饭，他就欠你人情？？骗鬼啊！？ fren, ok fine, if it's an initiative from a party to treat another person, that is fine. but this person who treat the other guy shldn't expect anything back. this is a wrong value.
dun lie seriously. and if u ever force ppl to treat u, that is in my eyes extortion. i hav not very high expectation of what i being treated. u can juz buy me sth small. i'm alr happy. and i'll rmb. but u shldn't sae, o cos i treat u, u supposed to treat me back. it's the wrong value. pls, get ur heads right.
but anyway, wad's done is done, currently now i'm treating some people out of my own will cos i tink they shld be treated. but for those whom i dun tink shld be treated, what is the point of me treating them when they force me to treat them???? erpz. wake up ur idea.
Saturday, May 16, 2009
Friday, May 15, 2009
do u want to become a thinker? or do u rather prefer staying simple?
it seems staying simple will give you a better life. being a simplistic idiot is wonderful. tink about it. the world requires a head, a propaganda, a brainswash person to tell other ppl wad to do. juz see it. let's sae person A propaganda until damn imba, doing sth according to what he wants will give u a reward, and going against him will leave u being seen as s2pid or sth. so as a normal human, most will listen to A. and then get the rewards for being his dog. but those who actually find that person A is doing sth stupid, immoral or somehow not the best, will be seen by the majority of followers as non-conformists, or even defying, or even worse - outcasts.
in some societies, it seems like the way out is to be a dog. but very sorry. i can't be a dog. why? i hav been taught that self-actualization isn't everything. fulfilling ur own potential may be a good feeling. but there are many things that can be fulfilled before fulfilling ur own knowledge potential, ur intelligence potential, aesthetic etc. ppl may tell me, hey u have a great potential to be a dog, u will earn lots of cash, u will earn many things. do i need many things? sure i can chiong my potential now. but. there is a void.
doing sth academic may solve most ppl's void, or doing sth good for the community, or gaining a new knowledge or a new skill. but for me. i dun see it. the freakin point is that no one sees that i am having a problem. cos they tink i hav everything that the society deems desirable for a jc kid. lame crap. why everything conform? gg. i hav a problem. if u tink u hav a solution, why not find me. before anyting drastic happen.
heh.
it seems staying simple will give you a better life. being a simplistic idiot is wonderful. tink about it. the world requires a head, a propaganda, a brainswash person to tell other ppl wad to do. juz see it. let's sae person A propaganda until damn imba, doing sth according to what he wants will give u a reward, and going against him will leave u being seen as s2pid or sth. so as a normal human, most will listen to A. and then get the rewards for being his dog. but those who actually find that person A is doing sth stupid, immoral or somehow not the best, will be seen by the majority of followers as non-conformists, or even defying, or even worse - outcasts.
in some societies, it seems like the way out is to be a dog. but very sorry. i can't be a dog. why? i hav been taught that self-actualization isn't everything. fulfilling ur own potential may be a good feeling. but there are many things that can be fulfilled before fulfilling ur own knowledge potential, ur intelligence potential, aesthetic etc. ppl may tell me, hey u have a great potential to be a dog, u will earn lots of cash, u will earn many things. do i need many things? sure i can chiong my potential now. but. there is a void.
doing sth academic may solve most ppl's void, or doing sth good for the community, or gaining a new knowledge or a new skill. but for me. i dun see it. the freakin point is that no one sees that i am having a problem. cos they tink i hav everything that the society deems desirable for a jc kid. lame crap. why everything conform? gg. i hav a problem. if u tink u hav a solution, why not find me. before anyting drastic happen.
heh.
Thursday, May 14, 2009
我总是心太软。
it seems the only way to succeed in s'pore is to be a good boy.
read 2day's straits times review page, on pragmatism. and u'll see.
tink about it. when will ur new idea be accepted into society? only when it is deemed econmoically sustainable, can niao yalamsia or not, or any other prgamatic means like helping students out of depression so that they can study better.
it seems the only way to succeed in s'pore is to be a good boy.
read 2day's straits times review page, on pragmatism. and u'll see.
tink about it. when will ur new idea be accepted into society? only when it is deemed econmoically sustainable, can niao yalamsia or not, or any other prgamatic means like helping students out of depression so that they can study better.
Monday, May 11, 2009
well. life is quite hectic now considering this that this that.
but for the time being, let's hope for a miracle
i behave like a freaking old idiot. shit. hu can restore my youth? 1st. i drink kopi-o gao. hu drinks that u tell me? which 17 year old? 2nd. i like hokkien songs, ancient chinese songs. isn't this a 1960s thing? and i freaking like stuff like abba. stand by me. that sort. 3rd. i talk about things that little students would talk about. they may consider it. but they keep to themselves for fear of showing that they are old. but i freaking can't keep such thoughts to myself. i discuss them. and ppl will see me as an idiot.
hu's fault? society? or me? idiotic. i wonder wad our dear system is doing. producing obedient ppl, or thinking and discerning ones? HEH.
but for the time being, let's hope for a miracle
i behave like a freaking old idiot. shit. hu can restore my youth? 1st. i drink kopi-o gao. hu drinks that u tell me? which 17 year old? 2nd. i like hokkien songs, ancient chinese songs. isn't this a 1960s thing? and i freaking like stuff like abba. stand by me. that sort. 3rd. i talk about things that little students would talk about. they may consider it. but they keep to themselves for fear of showing that they are old. but i freaking can't keep such thoughts to myself. i discuss them. and ppl will see me as an idiot.
hu's fault? society? or me? idiotic. i wonder wad our dear system is doing. producing obedient ppl, or thinking and discerning ones? HEH.
Sunday, May 10, 2009
Saturday, May 09, 2009
the state of self-consciousness. is that a good thing? to the simple, it is not. why tink about urself so much? why care? the simple will say, keep everyting laxing, easy, and no problems will find u. are u sure? of course, innocence is a good thing. u are kept away from any problems in the world.
but hav u really given a damn to people who really bother about themselves? many ppl sae, when u are young, u shld go and do everyting u wan. and many ppl go and interpret this into "hey, stop ageing, stop tinking mature, be young, be sexy, be bitch". tink about it. are u like this? idiotic ppl. bunch of s2pid ppl who embrace the art of econs - maximise personal gain.
then they will come and tell ppl who tink deep - hey, brother, why u caught up wif the problems of life? enjoy it while u can. heh. not easy to enjoy when u hav seen through everyting. this is when u will cherish wad is enjoy life. but at this point of time, it is the point of no return. HAHAHAHA. u are gg. u can't go back and go innocent. u hav realised the amplitude of every action, every word u spout.
wad can i sae? if the world was filled wif more ppl who are idiotic philosophers, i believe it would be a more wonderful place, much less simplistic and on the surface, and deeper and more insightful than now.
anw my thoughts too disorganised can't be bothered to type anymore.
but hav u really given a damn to people who really bother about themselves? many ppl sae, when u are young, u shld go and do everyting u wan. and many ppl go and interpret this into "hey, stop ageing, stop tinking mature, be young, be sexy, be bitch". tink about it. are u like this? idiotic ppl. bunch of s2pid ppl who embrace the art of econs - maximise personal gain.
then they will come and tell ppl who tink deep - hey, brother, why u caught up wif the problems of life? enjoy it while u can. heh. not easy to enjoy when u hav seen through everyting. this is when u will cherish wad is enjoy life. but at this point of time, it is the point of no return. HAHAHAHA. u are gg. u can't go back and go innocent. u hav realised the amplitude of every action, every word u spout.
wad can i sae? if the world was filled wif more ppl who are idiotic philosophers, i believe it would be a more wonderful place, much less simplistic and on the surface, and deeper and more insightful than now.
anw my thoughts too disorganised can't be bothered to type anymore.
Thursday, May 07, 2009
(you know ben, i’m sian. why are you sian? i’ll tell you)
i try to cook but got burn by the frying pan
MRT door tu tu tu nearly kena my hand
all the girls that i know say only see me as friend
nabei lift at my block just break down again
chorus
i wake up in the morning and i dunno who i am
i am sian….sian…
i’m not happy i’m not sad, but i sure know where i went
i am sian….so sian…
i’m just walking down the street and i dunno wad to eat
i am sian….sian…
every second every minute every hour every day
i am sian….sian…
how did i get so sian
got a job interview but got hole in my pants
go see show but the fellow in front damn tall can
my PC kena virus and the toilet flush spoil
my brand new handphone kena drop in cooking oil
chorus
ahhhhhhh i’m so frus(trated) (X4)
sunny in the morning and its raining in the night
i am sian….sian…
the weather cannot change and neither can my life
i am sian….sian…
i’m talkin to myself cos theres really no one else
i am sian….sian…
i may think i have a choice but i really have a voice
i am sian….sian…
how did i get so sian
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quoted from mrbrown show one of the podcasts.
i try to cook but got burn by the frying pan
MRT door tu tu tu nearly kena my hand
all the girls that i know say only see me as friend
nabei lift at my block just break down again
chorus
i wake up in the morning and i dunno who i am
i am sian….sian…
i’m not happy i’m not sad, but i sure know where i went
i am sian….so sian…
i’m just walking down the street and i dunno wad to eat
i am sian….sian…
every second every minute every hour every day
i am sian….sian…
how did i get so sian
got a job interview but got hole in my pants
go see show but the fellow in front damn tall can
my PC kena virus and the toilet flush spoil
my brand new handphone kena drop in cooking oil
chorus
ahhhhhhh i’m so frus(trated) (X4)
sunny in the morning and its raining in the night
i am sian….sian…
the weather cannot change and neither can my life
i am sian….sian…
i’m talkin to myself cos theres really no one else
i am sian….sian…
i may think i have a choice but i really have a voice
i am sian….sian…
how did i get so sian
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quoted from mrbrown show one of the podcasts.
Wednesday, May 06, 2009
many ppl suffer from unrequited love. many. apparently it drove some ppl to suicide.
ppl sae, then dun do unrequited love. that's wad they sae. it seems that it isn't as easy as said. hahahhahahahaa. juz watch out.
problem wif society, problem wif life, problem wif everyting. when will i escape problems? looks like the only answer is when everyting has ended, then there are no problems. wonderful. so we shld make full use of our problems isn't it. but there isn't anyting up for grabs at the end of the day isn't it after u make use of ur problem to make urself supposedly a better person.
i give up. just like how pete weber gave up when he played osku palermaa.
ppl sae, then dun do unrequited love. that's wad they sae. it seems that it isn't as easy as said. hahahhahahahaa. juz watch out.
problem wif society, problem wif life, problem wif everyting. when will i escape problems? looks like the only answer is when everyting has ended, then there are no problems. wonderful. so we shld make full use of our problems isn't it. but there isn't anyting up for grabs at the end of the day isn't it after u make use of ur problem to make urself supposedly a better person.
i give up. just like how pete weber gave up when he played osku palermaa.
Monday, May 04, 2009
Saturday, May 02, 2009
game over. there is no hope.
some people are walking dead. i noe of some of them. it's a very weird situation. u're alive, but juz that probably u're better off being cut off from everyting. there is no hope for them. they see no hope. no hope, means no optimism. no optimism, means there is nothing to look forward to. interesting.
some people are walking dead. i noe of some of them. it's a very weird situation. u're alive, but juz that probably u're better off being cut off from everyting. there is no hope for them. they see no hope. no hope, means no optimism. no optimism, means there is nothing to look forward to. interesting.
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