i don't rly know what to write sometimes.

i come here with a blank mind and just type what is on my mind. but many a time i come here because i just need to document down my feels.

i don't know if this is how God views a prodigal son, or someone who has turned away from Him, from His presence. i can only empathize a small little amt as to how He feels when he sees his creation turning away and not willing to see His glory and get back in communion with him.

honestly, i m still available, and as of today I want to wait for u. i don't really know what's the wisest way to show u or prove to u. it's not rly common sense to me, but the world will tell me to move on. move on what? if God puts a burden in my heart i m going all out. i don't understand the world's wisdom of give up. sometimes it is a choice that i make. i can of course go on pain minimization and self-glorification. but that never made sense.

when was love easy? have we all shouted back at our parents? millions of times.

i don't rly know what u see. but i do pray for someday that u may be somewhere with me. and thanks for bearing with me. i know it was never the most fun thing to do...