it's good to learn something here and there. and i feel it is especially fulfilling if u learnt sth by taking abit of precious time out of ur tight schedule to hav abit of sharing wif other ppl. many things we learnt in studies, it can be applied to our lives, in our games, in our sports, in our activities that we are needed to participate in. similarly, what u learn in ur cca or sport or music can be applied in life and other stuff too. it's interlinked one.

when u are tight on money, but u really want to perfect a skill, wad can u do? of course this is on the assumption u alr hav the basic starting materials, 1st wad u nid to do is learn and practice. and learn, does not only come by someone spoonfeeding. YES. stop getting someone to spoonfeed. it's useless. wad u can try? STEAL. steal. not as in, oh, u got great book, i steal and learn. it's watch other ppl, and learn. wad they practice, u do.

e.g. u wanna learn basketball. wad u can do? assume u hav a basketball and a ball pump alr. go to the basketball court, start shooting. start dribbling. hav a fren, even better. passing. but anyways, start practicing. during ur break, watch others. how are they playing? good? bad? good, den learn. they do stunt, try. it may help fake ur opponent. their standing pose when shooting, learn. their fakes when shooting, learn. see, u can steal so much from them.

of course, to accelerate this stealing process, u can always pay. then this is more of learning, u dun hav to go and trial and error. the process is shortened by learning, by paying a coach, joining a team, and u get to accelerate ur learning pace. generally, by quite alot. it's like piano. wif piano teacher, u learn so fkin fast. no piano teacher, all u wan to do is make noise out of that piano. HAHA.

learn something along the way of ur life. although i bluntly put it as stealing, it is a form of learning, juz that crudely put sometimes we hav to learn it this way. watch others, wad they learn from many years of paying and figuring themselves, and figure it for urself. this way, u can help to accelerate ur learning even faster. use ur brain more too. stop getting spoonfed by ur teacher only; do ur own proactive learning.

我看见自己写下的心情，把自己放在卑微的后头。等你等太久，想你泪会流，而幸福快乐是什么？

为何神经？哈哈。tink about it, mc not equal mr. for what? well, maybe it allow me to play songs abit nicer than usual, use abit more feel than usual, which may be a good thing. haha. but i duno. i wonder i wonder. maybe now i'm juz facing extra stressors in life, of which one is my hand muscle which doesn't allow me to bowl as well as preferred anymore. coupled wif the fact that i nid to catch up h3 stuff cos i miss 2 lesson 1 4got 1 too lazy go HAHA. den + normal sch work which now gonna learn new topics, i humji alr.

humji. term 2, got season, got SSC. heng i settled SCSF, nearly won, but din. nothing at all. another participation cert. how sad. seriously. 4 comp, 1 non-1st 2nd 3rd award. awwww.

我梦到哪里你都在，怎么能忘怀。

organic chem.

a very weird topic of study. wad we're studying now is juz theories. in fact, we can't see anyting at all. if one person were to come out an alternative theory to wad we're studying, which is rather accepted by most chemists, den... hehe. fun time!

blocks are tmr. as i said, believe, and there can be miracles.

interestingly, i'm pressured to perform a miracle this block test. will i do it? well, i will try to believe i can do it. HAHA.

come everyone, let's make miracles this time.

the less my hopes, the hotter my love.

the more lehman brothers is about to collapse and bankrupt, the more ppl came in to buy their shares.

humans love to gamble, do they? we invest in the wrong stocks. we put energy into the wrong things. we play too high stakes in gambling socially. rationality. isit gone so easily? can we be tricked so easily not to act rationally?

seems like yes. we can be tricked by many things. let's sae confidence trickster. he can trick u into giving him 100k of money. let's say the swimming pool. ur eyes see it as so near. u jump in, find that it's 3m and get a shock of ur life and it's a freakin diving pool. ur intuition tricks u too. u tink u can 13 weirdos in mahjong cos u alr hav 9/14. but in the end u get nonsense tiles. ur mind tricks u too. to recoup ur losses, u gamble even higher stakes in poker/blackjack, even though u very well noe the old adage of ten gamble nine losses.

by right, humans are rational. by left, heh. not so eh? let us stop being rational, and give in to wad we believe. if we believe we can, we can. if we don't believe, nothing works out. if i believe i can recoup my losses by stop gambling and going back to work, i will believe that i'd make big money by working my 1k a month nonsense job. rather than believing that gambling will help me. of course, i can always believe that by strategising better in the XR market, i will recoup my losses. believe. and juz do it. tink tink tink. believe and trust the changes and wad u do. dun be an inconfident person.

i support irrationality. else, this world will not be a interesting place to live in. it wld juz b a bore.

Celine Dion- That's the way it is

I can read your mind and I know your story
I see what you're going through
It's an uphill climb, and I'm feeling sorry
But I know it will come to you

Don't surrender 'cause you can win
In this thing called love

When you want it the most there's no easy way out
When you're ready to go and your heart's left in doubt
Don't give up on your faith Love comes to those who believe it
And that's the way it is

When you question me for a simple answer
I don't know what to say, no
But it's plain to see, if you stick together
You're gonna find a way, yeah

So don't surrender 'cause you can win
In this thing called love

When you want it the most there's no easy way out
When you're ready to go and your heart's left in doubt
Don't give up on your faith Love comes to those who believe it
And that's the way it is

When life is empty with no tomorrow
And loneliness starts to call Baby,
don't worry, forget your sorrow
'Cause love's gonna conquer it all, all

siao alr. come ar! u'll noe when u'll believe!!!

anw. hav a fun day making noise at a corner. tmr will b in the open alr, no more corner. yeah. time to make noise!!!

3 main stressors as of now: hand muscles, bowling, studies. idiotic.

let's not scam ourselves.

有些事情就如咖啡。已经淡了，多放糖也很难有所变化。而在这种情况下，我们只有两个选择。逃避，或面对。两个都一样难做。但是，看起来，还是面对最好。可是如果一方想逃避，另一方想面对，那该怎么办呢？

haha. disappointment eh. alot of times, we are not able to find treasures. everybody want treasure eh? but unfortunately, some ppl are adept at finding treasure. others are not. see me, look twenty years, only found a radioactive polonium, nearly killed me. some ppl everyday finding platinum. 1 carat not enuff, find 20carat diamond. bloody hell.

but tink about it, wad do i hav? haha. nothing? actually, let's put it this way. no. i do not hav nothing. in fact, i do hav quite alot. it's juz that i may be doing bad investments. if u hav funds, wad can u do wif it? set aside some for safety in case ur investment failed. some funds for u to buy ur food. ur house. others u can go and buy duno wad sai. stocks, forex, car, buy ur alma mater. this is literal of course.

but see other funds. do u see wad funds are there? haha. put it this way. hai. my funds go wrong. but i still put funds. wad's this? Keyne's animal spirit? i really wonder.

wad is love? is love about animal spirits as well? to me, yes. juz look at ppl who are married long long time. wad isit about? madness. animal spirits. confirm, got some point of time, they are unhappy wif each other. but if they're mad enuff to sustain the relationship, it will work out, even if they hate each other. animal spirit is required.

but, the world tells me, no. the world gives me a multitude of reasons. it gives me reasons of money, power, status, it tells me friendship is needed, it tells me there is no love at first sight, it tells me it is about fate, it tells me it is about heng suay. i wonder which i shld listen to.

well. at least had a new pb of 6 game series. 1129. good try.

lessons learnt: standard. most ppl dun bowl well, why? bowling lousily, they tink of throwing the pin down. this oen still nvm, cos they usually hit the pin. but those wif not so high ball speed one, their situation worse. when bowl bad, they tink of basics. balance, follow through. BUT. alot of ppl make the fat mistake. tink balance never follow through. tink follow, never balance. u nid both. yuan yang. then can start bowling well again. why? make good shot.

bowling aside. hmm. better take care of health. cannot fall sick during such impt period of time. sian. jiak jiak, shld jiak more antioxidant stuff. 枸杞子？maybe maybe.

well anw, in life u can play 2 game. the cheating game, or the good boy game. both works, but if u wan quick returns it seems cheating game is far better. thus, all president scholars are cheaters. HAHA. actually not necessarily true eh. alot of them hard worker. but i not so sure. confirm got some scholar, those top one la, is play cheating game one. hehe. shld learn from the cheating game one.

DO dreams come true???

maybe they do. juz look at tom smallwood. look at kelly kulick. look at jason belmonte. many other examples. do dreams come true?

tink about it maybe to some extent dreams can come true. but for those with the opportunity or with the fortunate experiences, dreams do come true. believe.

anyone wants to do hydroponics stuff as a career next time? i giv u idea, u go and use in market.

張宇 - 趁早 (KTV)

true true

it's a very timely reminder. maybe.

bowled my highest 6 game series so far, 1111. good number. but juz when i tot i did get a result well enuff for top 4, apparently i end wif 7th. a very good parallel.

u tot u did well. but in the end, no. HAHA! true eh? sounds familiar? rather familiar to most ppl i guess. of course, we cannot deny that they're lucky asses out there hu tink they din do well but end up wif high scores and good results. but qn is, wad do ppl look out for? how do ppl judge others? how do ppl rank others?

the world is funny. are u hu u are? u are not hu u are. u are hu u are seen as, by a bunch of ppl hu may or may not identify wif u. do u hav the need to fit in? if u're below class, u'll need to fit in. wad a joke. if u're setting the social class, ppl fit in wif u and u feel powerful. the rest feel like dicks. but these bunch of social class high ppl, u duno wad the others feel. those below u. juz to get into the same status, the lower class ppl spend extra. do u noe that? HAHA. wad a joke.

similarly, looking from the lower social class perspective. do u hav to fit in wif the higher social class ppl? apparently yes rite. HAHA. funny. fit in wif them, at the end of the day they wun bother identifying wif u. thus, juz shuddup and die.

instead of spreading love we're spreading animosity. all the care and concern many are showing now, it's juz empty lip service, and sometimes it's juz to take advantage of others. in such a competitive world, the rich get richer, the poor gets poorer. exemplified in nearly every way of society.

the only way to turn it around, is not only love. it's unconditional love. or agape, u call it in greek. i hope u can find some of it in u. for OTHERS, not for yourself. pls.