so i reckon there i hav my answer.

many think that religion is juz here to answer our needs, pacify our "religious" wants from a cruel, unkind world. to create a deception for ourselves to believe in.

really? is religion created?

if humans use religion, create a story for our own fun, that is so shallow.

today, i dun create my own fun.

ppl who choose to turn away from my god, they think humans themselves triumph god. their belief is in human.

i choose an unfailing god, the god who is and hence can declare he is the beginning and the end.

i hav confidence in such a god, and i wld hope many else will come to find god.

i live in a world of preconceived notions.

so much so that i have preconceived notions.

are they bad? more likely than not they are bad.

we can't rly prevent it.

but it exists. and when it exists, they may b against us very badly. in my situation, yea, yea, verily i tell u, it's against me.

but in spite of that, i know my beliefs (to some extent). and i am slowly discovering more.

and when someone point my mistake, i reflect. if i disagree because i am on right track, i will tell that person. we can live in disagreement. no problem.

i live wif alot of ppl who are in disagreement wif me. but do we fight every day? no. we each noe what we disagree about. but we never hate each other.

we will correct each other when we step out of line.

what is community service? clocking CIP hours, OCIP trips? getting into EXCO of CIP club? meeting ppl who do CIP? and at the end of the day, not understanding that one should give back to the society, but use it as an avenue to show ppl that our souls are cleansed?? or isit i've done so much for community hence i deserve a position where i am in authority to earn more money? i'm quite concerned wif who is policing the meritocracy today. isit ppl who bother about the society at large/ppl who want to contribute positively to society, or isit ppl who can perpetuate such a "price-signal", mammon-seeking society today?

sad.

humans are really of the world.

we can think of everything to hide ourselves from god.

god is searching for us, as he has searched for adam.

why are we hiding? learn from adam. adam confessed his sin.

if i am of beelzebub, why i work against satan?

for satan does not work against satan.

if we are of god, why we fk each other?

god shld not work against god.

but in matthew it teach me, if my brother goes wayward, i muz bring him back on the right track. if buay gam, bring few ppl raise up to see who is on the right track and correct each other from there. but if still buay gam and 1 side is wrong, and dowan to change, then let us juz b of different belief.

we seek the truth, but are we seeking the right end point? and are we using the right tools to see the right end point?

many ppl are using their home-made tools to reach their preferred end point, riding on "holy" objects for their backup.

we like to interpret things the way we want it to.

argument. what is argument? it is but a discourse intended to persuade. but many of us take it negatively, as it usually persuades us away from our comfort zone.

we hav, admittedly, a right to stay in the comfort zone. as long as it seems right to us, we wld definitely wan to stay there, than going somewhere else which makes no sense.

yup, i understand that totally. i can't bring someone else into my shoes, i can only try to make that person see how i am feeling in my shoes, and hopefully he wld giv it a try because it is good.

we are not the ones who save ourselves. we can't. we have no power.

many of us love to cleanse our souls by doing good deeds, positive deeds. but does that save us? doing more good than bad, gives u nothing. there's nothing good out of juz doing good. cos u will still do bad. the pursuit of good juz to feel good, is in itself, a problem. it's already like perpetuating ur ego.

we do not become holy by our own means. u show me if u can.

he that hath ears, let him hear.

having reflected as a soldier, some words of stupidity i muz sae.

some things once lost, always lost. there is a need to uphold, value, treasure certain things which are close to our heart. never take these things for granted. who knows what may come tomorrow?

we are usually self-centred. it's impt that our own agenda should not drive our lives too much, as it's gonna cause problem for poeple around u.

but as humans we hav these tendencies, worse still when we dun realise it.

the self is fragile, yet we like to believe in it.

many a time two heads are better than one, but we like to neglect this synergy whenever we are striving for the fame, power, money, glory.

haha...it's never too healthy.

lord we are sinners.

i admit i'm one. it's only thru ur son's sacrifice on the cross for our sins that we are able to live, eternally. and also it's through ur grace that we are saved.

not anything else, not anything we do. but only through ur grace we are saved...

lord thank you for this precious gift, precious gift of life.

i pray that many else will receive it as well. pray that u will open others' hearts unto ur spirit...

that they may live eternally with u and have communion with u. pray that they will not b separated, apart from u due to sin, sin from lust of the flesh, lust of the eyes, and the pride of life...

lord, humble us, that we may continually see we are but sinners which only can be saved through ur grace.

pray that u will deliver us from evil.

for thine is the kingdom, the power and the glory for ever and ever... i pray in jesus' precious and holy name, amen.

funny.

so they decided to "ration" seats.

the gospel has always been for all to hear. not for exclusive lot.

not for rich lot. that's the only reason y it is made for any disgusting fella...
u tink when u're rich god bless u? i tell u possibly god blast u oso. giv money to those who can't handle the money is as gd as god blast them.

believing in god is not making all ur material wants be fulfilled, ur emotional craving, not even ur family.

believing in god is submitting to His will, humbly. u humbly accept wadeva shit or good shit god has given u. u dun believe in god cos he will give u wad u wan.

hello. if u can't accept the bigger will, u're missing the picture altogether...

so they say, it sexism, feminism.

sexist or not? up to u to see. wad is natural and instinctive to me?

women carry the child for 9mth, men gotta find a woman to copulate before that can happen.

women's strength are more emotional, caring for the child. men, generally more task oriented. GENERALLY. definitely, there are women who can be task-oriented, there are woman who can set directions and drive operations.

but how i see it, never never advisable for ppl to usurp power from each other. and never go against the flow of nature.

nature has dictated for women to tend over to caring for the young and the family, and men to drive in terms of other issues like money, security. if the women are left to do this, u can sae society evolve women can now do the same. how about play by violence? women are generally more vulnerable than men to violence.

so what does the world nid to do to us? once upon a time it's already dictated to us, how things are being made. world tells us, equality of sexes. use ur eyes. equality? what equality. men get caned women are not. rape cases women are protected over men. equality much? showing women are naturally require more protection even by law. let us face up to it.

what happen when women lead the house? the more portion of the time this happen around me, i see an aunty running the show. u noe, that typical aunty. kiasu, gotta hav the best, cannot finish last, ungracious in competition.

that's fine. but have u ever seen women when they wan to grab power for nothing? like even in church and religious organisation? o baby. things get ugly. they juz cause whole ting to topple wif their extra flamboyant and unstable style. as gd as setting off bad free radical reactions.

if a woman has ability, let her take responsibility, that's fine. but when it is time for the man to be responsible, and he lets the woman do it, he is being an idiotic person, shunning his duties. never the way to go.

it has to go both way - the man nid to know when to lead. but the same time, he cannot suppress women who are capable, even more so become that "indian husband" thingy - gamble, sex outside, beat up wife. no, not like this. but love their wives and respect the other sex. women, never steal the power of the men neither CRAVE like mad for power, but work in synergy wif the man.

juz thinking aloud. it's not meant to b any much intellectual since it's so lousily articulated.

thinking aloud...

to a brother within my class,

if u're still reading this blog, rly la. juz can't forget u.

i dun see that u're a bad guy. but... y u nid to b so selfish?

we work not for societal status. we work not just to earn money. these things are but a passing by. u understand, this world is not our home. if our treasures are laid up in heaven, u will understand it. if we work on that, we probably get better result.

plz. don't forsake selfish wants for the kingdom of god. let's also work to bring them in.

my frens around me... many are not saved, many are not believers.

sometimes i'm disappointed. i probably can do more. y am i powerless? y i juz let them go and turn away from god? this isn't wad i shld b doing, eternal separation from my frens. haiz.

well if u c this, u may wan contact me and ask me about it.

since there is no god, there is no demon.

why don't we all go for satanism?

scared rite, esp those who believe there are no spiritual realm?

if u're not scared, practice it.

the unexamined life...

ppl love it. it's so lovely. so beautiful. so tempting.

it's like drugs. money. money is a drug, legalised version. see how many ppl made their personal missions to earn $1m? haha. how honourable is that? it's juz another benchmark.

$1m alot? good example is those idiotic football players asking for money. wad is money to them? can they play better than paul scholes? scholes always ask for lowest money. same for damiano tomassi who requested 1.5k euro per week compared to idiots like totti. do they make any MUCH better footballers?

making money. so tempting. so so tempting. ooo. the sound of cash, the look of number of digits on the bank account. woots.

den i ask u, at the end of ur life, wad did u dedicate ur life to? moneh.

that sounds so damn noble. i dedicated my life to moneh.

selfish bastard.

i hope no one works towards juz making money juz for themselves.

if god had not intended for some things to happen, there muz b a reason.

god is inscrutable and his ways... if u faham, u muz b joking.

the word agape. a good try at translation tells me it's unconditional love.

mayb it's supposed to b abit mad.

sth like, i'd probably give u love, even if u are not gonna reciprocate and even if u didn't earn it.

it's not too bad an example to me.

but if today, someone has chosen not to, i as the giver of love, i probably hav a right to direct it elsewhere.

i probably should.

haha... but they that hath brains, let them guess.

the reason y ppl hate to talk to ppl of a higher societal status than them is cos they are scared. but these same ppl can trash a person they think of the same status to nothing.

they can't talk. by talk i dun mean employing cheap rhertoric. by talk i mean having an intellectual conversation.

these ppl hav a lack of substance.

haha.

i always treasure my chances to talk to ppl of higher societal status. there's much to learn from them. as much as they enjoy their vanities, they know that they are on earth to do more than their vanities. and that's wad ppl dun hav.

they lack the patience to do more than vanities. vanities provide cheap satisfaction. that's all. that's not enuff for me.