many a time, happiness is a zero sum game for oneself. if sth goes out well, sth will go out wrong. tink about it. if i hav 2 frens, if i were to b friendlier wif one of them, i will have to be less frinedly wif another. i increase happiness oneside, and decrease happiness oneside. on a more practical level, let's sae u are interested in both soccer and basketball to the same extent. but only hav one afternoon to play. u hav to forgo soccer for baseketball or vice versa. if u go do both, u will probably lose out since u cannot hav the enjoyment of playing soccer/bball for 2hr straight.

so wif a screwed mind, i bowled a fully closed game during training. //XX/XX///X.

well done. keep up the form man. technique getting more feel oso. good for health. but bad for mental health. see? pareto efficient HAHA

hey, glaucoma-ed old man, pls dun act like some young, no manners kid. u tink cos u are old, and i'm juz another student, and u're drinking tiger one stick, u are big?

sorry, u're not big. but not bad, u can chase me off my table by disgusting me. for the sake of ur health and financial health, seriously, stop smoking and drinking at the freakin same table as me. out of sight out of mind plz. if u wan to chase me off, at least ask me whether can sit nicely 1st, instead of complaining abt my balls, my bag and me taking up too much of space. i will giv u the table willingly if u ask me.

well so i made off to kfc juz to fiddle wif more newmans, chairs and resonating pictures.

wrt bowling, still nid to make more improvements. basic muz keep, then progress with some other small details esp timing and swing and step.

duno. was a good day for some reason i duno hahahahhaa

so far everything not so zai. let's turn it around!

1st muz up chiongster. 2nd muz up bowling prac. 3rd time to start going back to gym, at least the legs. lacking my burst feeling again. and in case of injury oso. crucial to strengthening. call me humji, but it's a precaution which i tink is worth taking.

but muz always rmb in the process, muz gain talent. if u noe wad talent i referring to. HAHA!!

as i said previously, everyone has part to play. it's juz like ur body. ur hands, feet, stomach, blood system, nerves, all have their own impt portion to play. if ur the hand, dun try to become the blood. dun gey kiang. u hav ur own job, do that job, dun ka jiao. unless u got skills upgrading.

it's the same that ppl all are a part of society. some ppl are abit more marginalised, unfortunate, not there. some ppl lack recognition. some ppl are up there, achiever, popular, of good repute. but wad's the most impt? dun jealous or hav problem wif each other. do ur job, live with self-esteem. why u go and tink u're lousy or this person lousy?

some ppl hu dun talk much actually do hav great self-esteem and direction, although they are not the highest achiever or the best speaker. in fact, alot of ppl hu hav greater abilities usually hav a hollow within themselves. low self-esteem. the only reason why they are trying to achieve more, is to fill this hollow up, but unfortunately it juz gets deeper.

well my advice is simple - tell urself u're 赢者，强者，智者. if u did ur part to the best of ur abilities, did not gey kiang, did not look down on urself unnecessarily and believed in wad u do, ur are one good person alr.

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o ya which brings me to the point. when u hav self-esteem alr, and do not b an extra kia, it's good alr. for both less standing out, and more prominent ppl, wif good self-esteem it's not only good for urself. it's good for ppl around u. u'll hav greater capacity to b kinder, to treat others with respect, to spread care and love for others. this is a positive. one person's positive mindset and attitude will lead to others being inspired to be positive too. and then love and are will be spread. thus, dun 看扁 urself or others too easily. dun lose ur respect for urself. there's no point. it only leads to ppl being unhappy, juz like how love and care will spread. which shld we spread? sorrows? u can share ur troubles so as to seek help, but do not make everyone unhappy wif u or wif others or cause problems for others.

keep up ur good work, as it positively affects everyone!

when u're in the presence of imba people, do not assume u're imba.

yea sure, imba people are your fren. but do u hav to try to become one juz to fit in? hey c'mon, they are alr ur fren. u do ur small part. they do their big part. everyone's job is different. dun force fit in. u'll juz b shuffing a flag pole into a small minute hole in the wall. which obviously has no use and makes no sense. and if ppl see u doing that, they'll think u're an idiot. HAHA

si liao. fractionation.

張學友-咖啡

good use of metaphor

na bo pi li eh sio sa, ya bo kin li eh bi ai.

hav a happy chinese new year everyone! 祝大家平平安安，吉祥如意！

if the words won't come my way, hope you still know what my heart wants to say.

got much hw to do nowadays.

i c. 没有棋了，没有棋了。

getting scammed long term is bad for health. seems like coldness is running around.

we shld hav less hanky panky. and start studying
HAHA

today, i hav gained inspiration.

i have a new choice to my open mind. it's called acoustics engineering. i have always been interested in instrument, though i can't play all. heh. i hope to play all. but no time/too lazy/no cash for a fkin trombone/dbl bass. HAHA. and u tink i noe how to calculate the sound in a theatre? HAHA. but nvm. it's an interesting choice. and i may like it.

and if thomas is my no. 1 partner, since he's an addict of this acoustics stuff. hehhehehe.

on a less optimistic tone.... well some tings weren't planned for 2day. wad can i sae? it muz hav pist some ppl off. i'm not fully agreeable. i hav not much to stop it. but it seems wad's done is done.

mixed tinkings about this. father plz forgive me for i know not what i do.

maybe god takes care of u, seriously. god has many ways to do tings eh?

well it seems, i nid to really look out of the window and watch out this year. many things to be careful, be mindful of. the environment may hav shifted here and there. i may hav to make changes. when oil change, wad i do? usually i go in. but if shift in liao can't work, looks like i hav to use hand amplitude change. if this doesn't feel good, den it's ball change liao.

at last resort, loft change.

yea loft change. HAHA. i never practiced it anyway, on the assumption that i wld juz ball change in desperate circumstances.

knowledge. is knowledge power? how about money? how about status? are they good measure of power?

i'm not so sure. let's evaluate knowledge. wad is the most practical worth of knowledge in this world? knowledge here encompasses iq, eq, streetsmartness. all those things that you may attain through ur years of interacting with ppl and schooling. all these giv u a worth of money. with better knowledge, u'll be able to rise up fast fast until u're the boss and get a $10k per month, $100k/month. this is the most practical use of knowledge - to giv u money. but when u're not earning, knowledge gives u that potential to money, and the ability to impress ppl, by what and how much and how deep you know of sth. so because of this ability to impress others, u'll gain power - u are able to show others u're good, u hav the potential to be the big man.

next. how about money? HAHA. money is like 1 step above knowledge. with money, u are already the man. the power is urs. u can buy over professionals. u can buy over lawyers. u can even buy the government position. with money, u can influence the stock market. u can impress ppl by sheer number - u nid this car? I GIVE YOU FOR FREE, cover rd tax, cover parking, cover insurance. impressive eh? with money, it's as good as instant power - ppl flock to u cos u hav money, u're well liked, and then the cycle goes again. ppl see you being generally well-liked (as long as u dun be an asshole), u will be attractive to others, then ppl will talk to u. automatic have power, buying and attractive power in the society.

how about status? heh. status is great too. i'm the son of the pm, give me a place in ur sch and ur sch will be known as the school that educated the pm's son. wa. the school auto wan u. another way. i'm a businessman/nobel laureate/rich man's son. i give you money, you be my dog. ok deal set. status is good eh. it gives u auto recognition and the assumption that u're good. u can hav power quickly. look at how many of our minister's sons are in good schools, then proceed on to ns in the OCS. plz. ok to put it fairly they may hav performed generally well, but there's the bunch that did not buy still in ocs anyway. status is good eh? it gives you power - the power of name, and that ppl are tempted to give juz for that name.

so after evaluating them, which is better. i'm not so sure, but i'm sure that knowledge comes last priority. this is cos knowledge only gives u potential. the money and status.... they give u auto recognition of power. not potential power. the power is already there. HAHA.

what am i? according to this biased viewpoint, i'm a noob only. i only hav a teeny bit of knowledge. i'm not even a wonderful overperforming student. nothing. juz look at others. they may hav even lower knowledge than me. but they have the money. wa. already auto attractive than me alr. den there are some with money, and much higher knowledge than me, by hook or by crook. wa. already much more powerful than me already. then there's those sons of big ppl, wa. i lose already. HAHA.

so in this world, what are many of us? losers. juz like me. no knowledge, no status, no money.

i hav to admit it. i can't beat these got social standing ppl out there. the only way for me to win now is to get either money, status, or knowledge. status, i can't. money and knowledge can. looks like my faster route to success is through money then. HAHA.

有钱能使鬼推磨！！！！ lose to the truth, world!

as much as we tell ourselves, we humble ppl here, tell ourselves we are confident, how far can it help us? it can help us build a long term thing. but in this world of instant noodle tastes best, i wan to see instant gratification and satisfaction, long term is wad? HAHA. it's like eating wolfberry everyday but u'll live a healthy 200 years old, instead of eating instant noodle and living 80 years old.

i lose. let's go generate money!!! and status!!! and some knowledge that can make u swindle better and win ppl over!!! this way u can get anyting u wan in the short run!!!!!! HAHAHAHHAHAH.

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tell me i nid a psychiatrist. HAHA

cry la. finger spoil. sprain.

can't bowl, can't gym arms, can't pull up, can't dips. yea sure. u sae all these not related to study. yes study. CAN'T WRITE PROPERLY OSO.

hu to blame? HAHA. maybe myself. maybe others. maybe the sport. it's ok. blame me. i never take enuff care so i tio. it's ok. my bad. HAHA.