don't leave me lonely cos i need you.
(nice song, if u bother to find it. or do u even know the meaning of this?)
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
within s'pore, it seems like the easiest way to live is just by listening to the dua tao, listening to those above u.
go and consider. if u think too much, wad will happen to u? u find that studying is unimportant, apparently making good contacts, friends and ppl relationship is impt. suddenly u tink. why i study. why study and hav a good future, when apparently u dun hav other stuff? u may be promised of money. but does that determine ur happiness next time? it seems wad determines ur happiness will be people around u, or another factor. but most likely, studying is not this other factor which determine ur happiness. so u will start tinking that studies are irrelevant. and when that happens, u dun study, u lose out in society cos u hav no cash to survive.
so u can see our future is very much pre planned for us. go and get a good education, hav good porfolio and cv, get good grades, perform, and cash is urs. and CASH SEEMS TO SHUT PPL UP. it is the truth. ppl are contented wif earning 3k a month, in exchange of the loss of time to tink about their lives. well maybe u can sae cos ppl nid to work for their family. true. but they sure nid their own private time to tink about stuff do they? u tink they are wad? robots? well i really hope sth can be done about this.
it seems only gov't can solve this problem. everybody is preoccupied wif too many things. and all these things lead to money. and money shuts people up. i like to assert that most ppl are not happy. they are juz satisfied. satisfied wif the cash which will bring them survival, and apparently because of this, they dun voice their unhappiness about the lack of time for philosophical thoughts. that's why s'pore loses in art stream. cos we dun pay ppl to sit down and do nothing and think. or maybe we do. juz that they are no one heard of that type of thinkers. isn't it?
s'poreans are happy? probably not heh. 时间就如金钱。我现在特地抽出时间在这儿发表我的意见。这可偷了我可以用来做功课等事情的时间。i told u. we do not have time to think. that's why we lose out. it seems like it's time for something to change in this theoretically developing society, when in fact it's not. because everyone is juz zombified, working according to gov't plans for ur life. and because no one is thinking already.
well to be fair, maybe my above argument is a very big generalisation. because i have to give the benefit of doubt that ppl do think, philosophically. just that they dun dare to show it. why? cos later get ostracised, and ppl think u're weird thinking like this. and it doesn't conform to the POLITICAL NORM. isn't it? but sorry. when u stand firm to wad u tink, political norm will not be so relevant alr.
at the end of the day, though society may be lousy, pls everybody, juz fulfill ur basic societal responsibility. i may want more time for doing nothing and thinking vanity. but i still carry on studying. why? only by playing along wif the system, until u get to the top, then u can make a change. then u can start fiddling alr.
go and consider. if u think too much, wad will happen to u? u find that studying is unimportant, apparently making good contacts, friends and ppl relationship is impt. suddenly u tink. why i study. why study and hav a good future, when apparently u dun hav other stuff? u may be promised of money. but does that determine ur happiness next time? it seems wad determines ur happiness will be people around u, or another factor. but most likely, studying is not this other factor which determine ur happiness. so u will start tinking that studies are irrelevant. and when that happens, u dun study, u lose out in society cos u hav no cash to survive.
so u can see our future is very much pre planned for us. go and get a good education, hav good porfolio and cv, get good grades, perform, and cash is urs. and CASH SEEMS TO SHUT PPL UP. it is the truth. ppl are contented wif earning 3k a month, in exchange of the loss of time to tink about their lives. well maybe u can sae cos ppl nid to work for their family. true. but they sure nid their own private time to tink about stuff do they? u tink they are wad? robots? well i really hope sth can be done about this.
it seems only gov't can solve this problem. everybody is preoccupied wif too many things. and all these things lead to money. and money shuts people up. i like to assert that most ppl are not happy. they are juz satisfied. satisfied wif the cash which will bring them survival, and apparently because of this, they dun voice their unhappiness about the lack of time for philosophical thoughts. that's why s'pore loses in art stream. cos we dun pay ppl to sit down and do nothing and think. or maybe we do. juz that they are no one heard of that type of thinkers. isn't it?
s'poreans are happy? probably not heh. 时间就如金钱。我现在特地抽出时间在这儿发表我的意见。这可偷了我可以用来做功课等事情的时间。i told u. we do not have time to think. that's why we lose out. it seems like it's time for something to change in this theoretically developing society, when in fact it's not. because everyone is juz zombified, working according to gov't plans for ur life. and because no one is thinking already.
well to be fair, maybe my above argument is a very big generalisation. because i have to give the benefit of doubt that ppl do think, philosophically. just that they dun dare to show it. why? cos later get ostracised, and ppl think u're weird thinking like this. and it doesn't conform to the POLITICAL NORM. isn't it? but sorry. when u stand firm to wad u tink, political norm will not be so relevant alr.
at the end of the day, though society may be lousy, pls everybody, juz fulfill ur basic societal responsibility. i may want more time for doing nothing and thinking vanity. but i still carry on studying. why? only by playing along wif the system, until u get to the top, then u can make a change. then u can start fiddling alr.
Thursday, April 23, 2009
is thinking too much something bad for a jc/poly/sec sch etc. student?
assume you have never seen the harsh realities of life, or that you have never thought about an abstract topic like love, death, religion, humans, knowledge. what will you think of when a person comes up to u and spams u wif his own view of such things? at 1st impression, most will start thinking this guy is probably mad. he's in his own world, retracted, excluding himself from the world, trying to impose on u his thinking, etc. but do most ppl go in to say, actually this guy also needs wad another random person needs. he needs money, he needs air, water, people to care about him. he may like stuff like another normal person too. he may like handphone, girls, money, food. u noe.
so i wonder. why are we so judgemental when we suddenly meet with a person who thinks alot, and probably seem to exclude himself from minute joys of life? students at jc/poly etc level nowadays like to stir trouble wif others, make a big fuss out of birthdays. but wad if this guy wif a different, mature, weird mindset does not do what most students do? does it mean that others shld exclude him? or view him as a person who does not want attention? or view him as an over-attention seeking guy? i duno. as i said. these ppl who think crazily, they need wadeva another random person needs. do u tink they like to be stuck in their own world? if they like to be stuck in their own world, why are they talking to u?
interestingly, most students prefer to go simple, looking at stuff from the surface. i dun mind that. i mean that is the norm. but i juz think that these politically perceived normal ppl shld treat the mad thinkers juz like another person, who needs someone to talk to, who needs someone to share his problems, who needs love. and these people also want wad most people want as well. spare a thought for philosophical people.
anyway a disclaimer. ppl who think alot DOES NOT MEAN THAT THEY ARE COMPLICATED AND VILE PEOPLE. philosophical ppl will not in any way mean that this person harbours evil intentions. they are different from complicated people, and people who do things for ulterior motives.
assume you have never seen the harsh realities of life, or that you have never thought about an abstract topic like love, death, religion, humans, knowledge. what will you think of when a person comes up to u and spams u wif his own view of such things? at 1st impression, most will start thinking this guy is probably mad. he's in his own world, retracted, excluding himself from the world, trying to impose on u his thinking, etc. but do most ppl go in to say, actually this guy also needs wad another random person needs. he needs money, he needs air, water, people to care about him. he may like stuff like another normal person too. he may like handphone, girls, money, food. u noe.
so i wonder. why are we so judgemental when we suddenly meet with a person who thinks alot, and probably seem to exclude himself from minute joys of life? students at jc/poly etc level nowadays like to stir trouble wif others, make a big fuss out of birthdays. but wad if this guy wif a different, mature, weird mindset does not do what most students do? does it mean that others shld exclude him? or view him as a person who does not want attention? or view him as an over-attention seeking guy? i duno. as i said. these ppl who think crazily, they need wadeva another random person needs. do u tink they like to be stuck in their own world? if they like to be stuck in their own world, why are they talking to u?
interestingly, most students prefer to go simple, looking at stuff from the surface. i dun mind that. i mean that is the norm. but i juz think that these politically perceived normal ppl shld treat the mad thinkers juz like another person, who needs someone to talk to, who needs someone to share his problems, who needs love. and these people also want wad most people want as well. spare a thought for philosophical people.
anyway a disclaimer. ppl who think alot DOES NOT MEAN THAT THEY ARE COMPLICATED AND VILE PEOPLE. philosophical ppl will not in any way mean that this person harbours evil intentions. they are different from complicated people, and people who do things for ulterior motives.
Sunday, April 19, 2009
i wan to giv my comments on a small portion of the AWARE saga.
very interesting. my qn is, do we hav to openly admit that we tolerate homosexuality, and it is condoned here? use ur brain. u noe why at this time, our gahmen is making the good choice of not allowing homo on paper? tink about it. scarly i gay. i hav a gay partner. i adopt a child. then woudln't the child b growing up in a weird place? face up to ur consciences ladies and gentlemen. tell me. is gay and lesbian the way to go? personally for me, no. and i'm sure the majority will say gay and lesbian no. unproductive.
isn't it. think about it. when this child grows up, suddenly he find that he's telling his fren that hey, i have 2 fathers! so fun. i everyday see them gaying in their room, spewing ??????? on each other's faces. is that correct for a child? promoting such type of behaviour? if u condone it, then it's fine wif me. but i juz hope u dun go around and influence others to be like u and engage in this type of stuff. heh.
i wonder. i rmb there was this lady, she sae in the sense she thought the aware dua kia shld tolerate homo. pls la. if that dua kia dun like homo and she sae, u hav to accept her view wad. anw it's not like she dun accept u for being homo? never say anyting wad. so no personal attack ma. so why u feel so persecuted? erps. if u feel persecuted, scarly it means that u are actually guilty of being homo, but u b homo in name so that u dun 丢脸。
in conclusion lets be fair. if u homosexual, and u tell me. i may discourage u. but if u insist, wad can i do? everybody freedom ma. so freedom lor. i can't do anyting, although i personally may not like homosexuality in people. so u all wan homo then homo. i dun homo then dun homo. then peace.
very interesting. my qn is, do we hav to openly admit that we tolerate homosexuality, and it is condoned here? use ur brain. u noe why at this time, our gahmen is making the good choice of not allowing homo on paper? tink about it. scarly i gay. i hav a gay partner. i adopt a child. then woudln't the child b growing up in a weird place? face up to ur consciences ladies and gentlemen. tell me. is gay and lesbian the way to go? personally for me, no. and i'm sure the majority will say gay and lesbian no. unproductive.
isn't it. think about it. when this child grows up, suddenly he find that he's telling his fren that hey, i have 2 fathers! so fun. i everyday see them gaying in their room, spewing ??????? on each other's faces. is that correct for a child? promoting such type of behaviour? if u condone it, then it's fine wif me. but i juz hope u dun go around and influence others to be like u and engage in this type of stuff. heh.
i wonder. i rmb there was this lady, she sae in the sense she thought the aware dua kia shld tolerate homo. pls la. if that dua kia dun like homo and she sae, u hav to accept her view wad. anw it's not like she dun accept u for being homo? never say anyting wad. so no personal attack ma. so why u feel so persecuted? erps. if u feel persecuted, scarly it means that u are actually guilty of being homo, but u b homo in name so that u dun 丢脸。
in conclusion lets be fair. if u homosexual, and u tell me. i may discourage u. but if u insist, wad can i do? everybody freedom ma. so freedom lor. i can't do anyting, although i personally may not like homosexuality in people. so u all wan homo then homo. i dun homo then dun homo. then peace.
Thursday, April 16, 2009
wad's wrong wif life. suddenly i wonder. wasn't it better to go back to once upon a time. everyone going yu. everyone going nel, nelly, nella, ai. heh. now i see why. seriously.
sometimes, maybe it's juz me. i hav a too disgustingly complex view of life. juz like the iodine with starch. they will form this complext which gives a blue-black colouration. when u see life, but it is closed up by the molecules of starch. which is probably fat stuff, fat problems, fat headaches. it gives nonsense. wad u see in front of u probably make no sense at all, try to find solution u find more problem. very very weird. i dun understand sometimes. why must i be preoccupied wif all these unnecessary thoughts. why must i go and ponder ponder ponder. until i turn a little crazy. well ppl talk to me, okok lor. but somehow, i can feel it. why am i tinking more than a 17 year old?
most 17 year old only bother about studies. bother about their cip. bother portfolio. nothing more than that. maybe money. other than that probably not yet. future? most ppl their future are taken care of. due to hc brand. but wad about not only near future. far future? ur job? ur status? ur family? whether u hav wife? whether u hav husband? whether u hav children? whether u can even find a za bor? whether u can even find ta por? whether u can fight against fkin power holders who are losers? hmm. maybe i shldn't scare other ppl. but well. it's the truth.
it's good not to face all these problems 1st. it's good seriously. i always hope i can become innocent again, running at the playground, playing soccer wif muds, supporting man utd like an idiot. why must be opened to all these lame shit problems? now aren't i supposed to juz do wad. study. like a dog? haha well it's the truth. u juz chiong studies for now. that's wad everyone tells u. but is that wad i'm looking for? my studies seem quite ok. problem is. with studies only, i feel as if there is something missing. something missing. i join a few cca. i'm quite packed. but my life still feels as if there is something leftover inside there. to fill up. a void. very weird void. fill it wif studies, not enough. fill it wif fun, maybe for a while. assurance about wadeva comes after death hav already. but there 1 thing lost. for some reason that i'll never understand. and maybe at this point, i shld not bother understanding too. haha.
giv maslow's hierachy of needs a bit of respect and look at it carefully. and u'll see wad i seem to be lacking. i tink it quite refers to the situation of my life now.
but of course everybody, dun be discouraged. look for the simple pleasures of life. makan for me is wonderful enjoyment. i wonder why no one gave me chilli padi for birthday present haha. it's ok. look for cheap entertainment, of course not at the expense of others. dun b an idiot. for example randomly playing games. randomly reading fml. if u ever see it b4. it gives cheap humour. do sth that u will enjoy, that can suddenly take ur mind off problems. or go and 发泄。不管是去厕所或什么地方，偶尔发泄可能对身心有益。不要把问题藏在心里，免得一旦发神经。
sometimes, maybe it's juz me. i hav a too disgustingly complex view of life. juz like the iodine with starch. they will form this complext which gives a blue-black colouration. when u see life, but it is closed up by the molecules of starch. which is probably fat stuff, fat problems, fat headaches. it gives nonsense. wad u see in front of u probably make no sense at all, try to find solution u find more problem. very very weird. i dun understand sometimes. why must i be preoccupied wif all these unnecessary thoughts. why must i go and ponder ponder ponder. until i turn a little crazy. well ppl talk to me, okok lor. but somehow, i can feel it. why am i tinking more than a 17 year old?
most 17 year old only bother about studies. bother about their cip. bother portfolio. nothing more than that. maybe money. other than that probably not yet. future? most ppl their future are taken care of. due to hc brand. but wad about not only near future. far future? ur job? ur status? ur family? whether u hav wife? whether u hav husband? whether u hav children? whether u can even find a za bor? whether u can even find ta por? whether u can fight against fkin power holders who are losers? hmm. maybe i shldn't scare other ppl. but well. it's the truth.
it's good not to face all these problems 1st. it's good seriously. i always hope i can become innocent again, running at the playground, playing soccer wif muds, supporting man utd like an idiot. why must be opened to all these lame shit problems? now aren't i supposed to juz do wad. study. like a dog? haha well it's the truth. u juz chiong studies for now. that's wad everyone tells u. but is that wad i'm looking for? my studies seem quite ok. problem is. with studies only, i feel as if there is something missing. something missing. i join a few cca. i'm quite packed. but my life still feels as if there is something leftover inside there. to fill up. a void. very weird void. fill it wif studies, not enough. fill it wif fun, maybe for a while. assurance about wadeva comes after death hav already. but there 1 thing lost. for some reason that i'll never understand. and maybe at this point, i shld not bother understanding too. haha.
giv maslow's hierachy of needs a bit of respect and look at it carefully. and u'll see wad i seem to be lacking. i tink it quite refers to the situation of my life now.
but of course everybody, dun be discouraged. look for the simple pleasures of life. makan for me is wonderful enjoyment. i wonder why no one gave me chilli padi for birthday present haha. it's ok. look for cheap entertainment, of course not at the expense of others. dun b an idiot. for example randomly playing games. randomly reading fml. if u ever see it b4. it gives cheap humour. do sth that u will enjoy, that can suddenly take ur mind off problems. or go and 发泄。不管是去厕所或什么地方，偶尔发泄可能对身心有益。不要把问题藏在心里，免得一旦发神经。
do you believe in love, the way that i do?
well. tell me one more time, why your heart cannot be mine, look into my eyes and say, that love has gone, and i'll be man enough to walk away. why. it's the truth. but unfortunately, some ppl like in the middle. it's good for health eh? maybe i shld play the game of in the middle and being unclear and idiotic wif certain ppl. since many ppl enjoy it.
well. tell me one more time, why your heart cannot be mine, look into my eyes and say, that love has gone, and i'll be man enough to walk away. why. it's the truth. but unfortunately, some ppl like in the middle. it's good for health eh? maybe i shld play the game of in the middle and being unclear and idiotic wif certain ppl. since many ppl enjoy it.
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
Gareth Gates- Say it isn't so
i dun like his gay face. but the song is nice. hahahha. dun worry. i liked such songs since young
Monday, April 13, 2009
wad about the life that i've been fighting for? probably it's all down the long kang. wad's the use? everyday sit down there. u tink wad. i observer ward? juz look at ppl and feel happy? sometimes u tink about it. observer ward one day oso want to become death ward. at least a serpent ward.
no one seems to be able to tink like me. why? ppl will blame me for tinking too deep. it's ok. tink deep better than certain shallow ppl. i mean. it's ok to be shallow. it's a good state of mind. if i had the choice i would rather achieve the simple state of mind. u will see life like the korean brand. life's good.
but i tink. some ppl shld start painting sth that is a picture of a thousand sunsets. a freedom of a thousand doves. a collection of a thousand stories. bla bla bla. ppl england bad. dun laugh at others and sae they useless bastardo. everyone does that. cb. u tink wad. aku cannot speak good england, u come find me fight and put me to court isit? juz cos u tok better english?
wadeva. come babies. think that i have 走火入魔。and accept that it is a great state of mind.
no one seems to be able to tink like me. why? ppl will blame me for tinking too deep. it's ok. tink deep better than certain shallow ppl. i mean. it's ok to be shallow. it's a good state of mind. if i had the choice i would rather achieve the simple state of mind. u will see life like the korean brand. life's good.
but i tink. some ppl shld start painting sth that is a picture of a thousand sunsets. a freedom of a thousand doves. a collection of a thousand stories. bla bla bla. ppl england bad. dun laugh at others and sae they useless bastardo. everyone does that. cb. u tink wad. aku cannot speak good england, u come find me fight and put me to court isit? juz cos u tok better english?
wadeva. come babies. think that i have 走火入魔。and accept that it is a great state of mind.
Sunday, April 12, 2009
Friday, April 10, 2009
fail. it's time to disappear. i wonder. was it a good use of time? or juz a waste of time since i could hav use it on other tings? maybe not. maybe yes. i duno. 真奇怪。
sometimes they sae ppl conceal their problems better than others. but tink about it. is it good to conceal ur own problems? of course, u happy, ppl around u are happy. u not happy, u will spoil other ppl mood. but is that necessarily true? u go to the psychiatrist, u not happy. the psychiatrist do wad? everyday sad is it? somehow it seems psychiatrists do not get sick of their job. weird ar? let's hope some of my fren become psychiatrist. hahahhahah.
they say. love is one big illusion i shld try to forget. but there will be something left in my head.
sometimes they sae ppl conceal their problems better than others. but tink about it. is it good to conceal ur own problems? of course, u happy, ppl around u are happy. u not happy, u will spoil other ppl mood. but is that necessarily true? u go to the psychiatrist, u not happy. the psychiatrist do wad? everyday sad is it? somehow it seems psychiatrists do not get sick of their job. weird ar? let's hope some of my fren become psychiatrist. hahahhahah.
they say. love is one big illusion i shld try to forget. but there will be something left in my head.
Wednesday, April 08, 2009
wad is the use of being successful to this s2pid society, when u cannot achieve and get something that you want? wad's the point? i dun see it.
and i wonder how other ppl can think they are so happy. maybe i am too fast a 老爹。probably this is the reason. other ppl are still enjoying their teenage years. i somehow am seeing stuff from a perspective of a 100 year old idiot.
and i wonder how other ppl can think they are so happy. maybe i am too fast a 老爹。probably this is the reason. other ppl are still enjoying their teenage years. i somehow am seeing stuff from a perspective of a 100 year old idiot.
Saturday, April 04, 2009
it is time for a rebellion to start. i hate communist-ideology organisations. and apparently, this organisations oso refer to educational orgs. i will start the rebellion. i have a dream. a dream that all communist leaders in many organisations to be removed from power, and those that care for the community to be installed
Thursday, April 02, 2009
胡思乱想。or isit tinking about philosophy? hahahaha. i wonder
am i wondering about stuff for no reason? some ppl say yes. some ppl say no. some ppl say stop dreaming. some ppl say continue pondering. we never noe when the problems will come in boy. u c. a lame example. juz tink about it. u tink, o i no prob finishing all the assignment la test probably shldn't b much business. but suddenly, aiya, test get only pass. or fail. or no marks. problem will come for no reason.
murphy law ma. somehow u cannot defy one. heheheh. we shld start a level subjects on such crap theories. u noe there is a level h2 for arabic and islamic law? i wonder why there isn't for hebrew, christianity, judaism, sanskrit and buddhism and taoism and hinduism. interesting eh? maybe not enough demand for these bah.
am i wondering about stuff for no reason? some ppl say yes. some ppl say no. some ppl say stop dreaming. some ppl say continue pondering. we never noe when the problems will come in boy. u c. a lame example. juz tink about it. u tink, o i no prob finishing all the assignment la test probably shldn't b much business. but suddenly, aiya, test get only pass. or fail. or no marks. problem will come for no reason.
murphy law ma. somehow u cannot defy one. heheheh. we shld start a level subjects on such crap theories. u noe there is a level h2 for arabic and islamic law? i wonder why there isn't for hebrew, christianity, judaism, sanskrit and buddhism and taoism and hinduism. interesting eh? maybe not enough demand for these bah.
Wednesday, April 01, 2009
some ppl sae be happy. hahahahha. well u can choose to see it in the angle that i am very pessimist. and some like to see that i am sad everyday.
but well i hav to agree with the fish in this aspect. being pessimist sometimes is being optimistic. it means that everythign that does not happen according to this pessimistic viewpoint is a wonderful thing. which has actually happened to me randomly, here and there.
another point is that u muz face up to all the difficulties in life, instead to run away from them and smile. many ppl do that. run away and smile. and then wad happen? they live superficial life which basically feels useless to them. wad will these ppl rmb? going through the motion. rather than doing something fulfilling inside. and i mean inside. i respect those ppl who are doing things which is not superficial. because there are many ppl who do things superficially. too bad. the world is like this.
but well. i shall not b an idiot and run away from difficulties and do something that i feel does not fulfill my soul and fulfill my job in society.
and kids, 老爹所说的 not april fool joke. heh.
but well i hav to agree with the fish in this aspect. being pessimist sometimes is being optimistic. it means that everythign that does not happen according to this pessimistic viewpoint is a wonderful thing. which has actually happened to me randomly, here and there.
another point is that u muz face up to all the difficulties in life, instead to run away from them and smile. many ppl do that. run away and smile. and then wad happen? they live superficial life which basically feels useless to them. wad will these ppl rmb? going through the motion. rather than doing something fulfilling inside. and i mean inside. i respect those ppl who are doing things which is not superficial. because there are many ppl who do things superficially. too bad. the world is like this.
but well. i shall not b an idiot and run away from difficulties and do something that i feel does not fulfill my soul and fulfill my job in society.
and kids, 老爹所说的 not april fool joke. heh.
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