nehneh. 老爹何时会发怒？你够厉害。不错嘛。那么老的人也要得罪？以年轻来欺负又老又弱的老爹。也要欺负其他小朋友。不错，不错。但是小心。

i dun like to curse alot. but it seems that u already have the potential to make me curse more than usual. hahahhahahha. we'll see. let's hope everything ends up nice.

为什么生命要对我这么残忍？我何时得罪了别人？还是我做了伤天害理的事情？

do i have to live in the realms of unhappiness and sorrow? haiz. i tink if this is so very soon i'll follow in tieu's footsteps.

agape. some people may want to go and think about this word. i duno wad origin. i tink greek or latin or hebrew.

anyways, i think jc is fatiguing to a large extent. hwachong spirit is something true. heh. u muz refuel with the hwachong spirit. but unfortunately, hwachong spirit is not always around one. they propaganda us one hwachong. but ppl go around aiya athena sux, artemis sux, ares cb, apollo only got 1 shuai ge. is this one hwachong? i duno. but personally, i stay out of this type of meaningless suanning. what is the practical use? does it help u in ur cca, ur study? maybe get into council yes la. heh.

我能说什么呢？做东西，出发于衷。但是如果你的价值观已经是那种不正确的，那我就无话可说了。

tieu're beautiful it's true. but it's time to face the truth. but i still duno the truth. will i ever be with tieu? i have no idea.

anw i hope there aren't so many lame ppl who like to play lame games. u tink u playing yugioh? not so easy. yugioh nid cash then can play one leh. but if u're poor, u can make the best out of nonsense cards.

looks like my prophecy is correct.


nel cca and study and interests, and feel fulfilled.


socialise and dun care study, and fail study.


and lastly, i want to point out sth. cos u are in hci, u do more socialising, it doesn't give u the right to dao ur family. idiotic ppl. i notice at this rate, most ppl do not maintain a proper relationship wif their family. take money from mother and father, treat them like atm. brother and sister treat as not there. maybe it's juz my assumption, but i really have this feeling some ppl dao their family or u noe, lack interaction wif their family due to socialising or studying extra extra hard.

有些人比老爹还神经病。明明知道自己没有用，笨蛋，愚蠢，竟然还要当什么大的东西。你以为你是谁？照照镜子吧！不要说老爹坏，这是每个人对你的印象。对不起，但是你要面对这个事实，不然你永远不会睁开眼睛。可能你不懂，但是坦白讲，我不忍心在你那张无辜的面子前讲你的坏话，我怕死你去投诉我，说我诽谤。讲真的，你需要知己。不然人们都会以为你不自量力。

u may sae i backstab, i behind badmouth u. but it's the truth. 等一下讲出来你精神病爆发，把我当场 manslaughter...

i never knew dealing with people like this was the worst thing to do. it's the most difficult task i ever met seriously.

perplexing. since coming over to the other side of the school life has become complicated.

now it's time to discuss sth impt. shld i do h3? esp the type go attach to outside one.

heh. sounds like a simple qn to many. yay h3! shld go wad. look zai on ur portfolio. ya i'm sure. if my thinking was so simple, i would. erpz. but no. no. noooooooooooooooo.

there are many factors to b considered. 1stly, i probably will hate being the professors dog. true, outside sch there may be better facilities, other methods to do a similar proj, can generate more discussion and results. but later is the prof trying to do proj using u. that doesn't feel very good. 2ndly, u may not have the final say in ur research. scarly sign up liao then the prof is totalitarian, he treat u like slave and then he is master and ask u do this do that. then the research is not urs, u writing a research paper about something that u dun feel is your own. isn't that very degrading on urself?

yeah i noe some people like it this way. but i'm not sure. i'm a little more hesistant. to add on this, i actually wan to do h3 study one, chemistry probably. but then doing h3 research looks not bad oso rite? haha.

well. dun tell me anything now, but the conclusion from this is that the side of the sch i'm in now is relatively screw up. cos i wan find out info, duno hu to contact. smart. and i wan to do research and join comps and win sth. heh. human pride and idiocy.


anw let's get it straight. i'm not here to apply for everything i can get. i apply for everything i want to do according to my interests, and not my portfolio. dun be lame and apply for stuff for portfolio. if u do that, i can't stop u. u may juz think that i'm stupid not to do things for portfolio given the ability i have. but sorry, i prefer to invest the time and effort in my interests.

constantly upgrade urself..

anyways a disclaimer: this blog is for people who do not want to read about typical life stories. 2day i wake up i do this and then i go there i saw this and i talk this i eat this. this blog is about weird thoughts. geddit straight. haha

i want to break free. 我要脱离苦海。

but there are only 2 methods. and both are as difficult. heh. okla choose the easier out of the difficult one.

anw, 其实老爹在此时很想狠狠的发出心理攻击。but i decide to be nice.

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yay i'm gonna b in depression. cos many musicians have ended up like this. either depress or kee siao. i choose depress.

while some people like to b exclusive, creative and etc, i tend not to for certain things. esp being cute for a whole school. seriously, it is too cute alr. u tink very cute? fine. but i tink u throw ppl like me into confusion, without very clear headlines. rather, they are so flamboyant until u dunno wad they are toking about. i tell u, newspaper headlines even more easy to understand although they tio scatter around whole ting.

siala, maybe i shldn't b too pessimistic. maybe u sae, 老爹 tak boleh tahan, but i believe there are people like me thinking some parts are very cute. true, i hav to admit this is one of the better places to be in at this point of time. but unfortunately, if the changes are so great until u duno wad is going on, i feel it is unhealthy. and i reckon both sides of the sch are going through this. we love change and uncertainty.

that's wad it takes for us to become mo(l)e's cute idea.

ghastly. worse than the pokemon seriously.

看好戏。

ccb. complain wad. i hav nothing to complain. as quoted from one of my teacher, is life fair? haha. when life gives u a shitty situation, very easy. u hav 2 choices. make the best out of it, or try to avoid. heh. avoid isn't easy. so i tink people will choose to do some miracle out of the situation. that's the least u can do alr rather than trying to convince urself that oh it's so wonderful or trying to run away from the problem.

when was lao die so cliche? i oso duno. to a certain extent, things that are cliche are true. but there are of course certain minority situations where cliche do not apply. e.g. they sae work hard and get ur reward. there's a little point to note about this. it is true, u work like a dog, u get paid for the work. but that is only if u meet the right people and do the right things. that require a little luck, a little brain, a little of everyting. blah blah. i hav enough. it's time to convince myself my life is wonderful. cos of sth. cannot mention here, cos later people will sae i'm radical.

it is time to destroy my string and get new ones. even though they are still in ok working condition. and this is the 1st time my strings have not snapped for 6 months. so happy right? but sorry, they shall b smashed. cos the steel ones hav become rusty and it seems damn shitty.

do u prefer eccentric people or consistent people?

some people do like the eccentric. they are mad. juz like goalkeepers, suddenly doing a scorpion and scaring everybody. but some prefer the normal. they dun do things that are extra, make them stand out. but they can be as good as the eccentric people in terms of thinking, caring etc.

the special or weird or wadeva quality makes u stand out. but is standing out extra impt? i duno. but in this world, esp for the young kids, standing out seems very impt.

there is no freedom. anw.

discreet + benefit of doubt.

o, those in perverted faiths. but again, i have no right to comment.

nbccb 老爹不常用这种恶心的语言。真是欺人太甚。but it's ok. when was life good? maybe except for the korean brand.

lj field worker. chao lan jiao bin. buti oso hav no 资格 to call u dat. it is theoretically not ur fault. ccb. i dun care anw. life still goes on. hahahahhahahhhaa

send someone to love me, i need to rest in arms, keep me safe from harm in pouring rain. give me endless summer, lord i feel the cold, feel i'm getting old, before my time.

wad is the philosophy for 2day? i duno. i'm juz stuck between loyalty and kala theorem. i noe. b4 water parade. the saf 7 core values are: loyalty to country blah blah. loyalty to ppl need or not ar? i mean, as a fren muz loyal. but loyal to which extent? later become dog. or following dog.

somewhere out there by James Ingram feat. Linda Ronstadt

Somewhere out there
Someones saying a prayer
That we'll find one another
In that big somewhere out there

Somewhere out there
If love can see us through
Then we'll be together
Somewhere out there
Out where dreams come true...

i feel as sick as a shit. let me b pessimistic 4 2 weeks, and let's b optimistic for once after that. after that, no mercy. anw, i will get round this democracy shit, give me 30 years. i will b back for u.