God give me faith to be able to be open and not put up a show.

u know what my intentions are. now, Lord, give me the honesty and the courage to be able to speak these without distorting it so as to generate some sort of reaction from others...

Lord, i think the masks and veils i have set up to make myself look better... they are the things that are destroying the relationships i have with people... help me to conduct myself in the way that you have made me to be, and not try to put extra things to look better. Lord give me the courage to do so. and Lord in doing so i know i will be vulnerable. but i believe your love will cast out all fear.

today i just ask God that u forgive me for not being able to bear the load so well myself and do what you want to do through me. Lord just pray that your Spirit will strengthen me to rejoice with those who are rejoicing and not let the smaller issue overshadow the greater joy that you are giving to me.

today i m learning... to be thankful even in this situation that i am not getting what i desire.... no surprises from God, and it is not too unexpected. but i m still saddened by this whole thing. i won't lie to anyone. i am saddened. because i never took the chance to do all the right things that God wants to do through me. and understand God's will from His perspective. i didn't. all i am doing is just expecting my own preferences to happen in my life.

Lord i just ask for more grace to be upon me as i continue to live... but let's just say i am sad now, and i believe that you are near to me, and that you heal the broken-hearted. you will heal me in time to come, i believe that. may your Holy Spirit work within me... and Lord i won't lie too that i actually still like her. and i ask that you will one day let her see Your love through my actions, that she may understand that she can demonstrate Your love through her actions too. Lord i thank you for all these that have happened and the things that you have let me see. just ask that you continue to be near me Lord...

i pray God, that you know what i want, and i can trust that you will provide me with what i need.

i know you won't be making a difference today. but i will keep praying for you that one day you will see... you have the power to make things good. you are in the position to.

i pray that you will take this opportunity. there is a beauty in your choice to. because it is what God has made us for. it is not an issue now about preferring or not. when it comes down to the final analysis, i think just ask, have i loved with God's strength? or am i running away from the choice to love? i'd rather you live and answer to God about this.

and you can rest assured whatever God loves me with i spare nothing from you, and i will love you with God's strength. be clear, i am not doing this on my own or for my own good. i believe God wants to display something thru this. and i hope you believe it too.

=)))