we s'porean are liddat. blady hell man. we kip quiet. and so we embrace non democracy in a sense. actually we do hav democracy. but it's expressed in a non democratic way. so of course, in the organisation which i so apparently muz be in, it is the same system. nehneh. as we can see, even b4 actual school start, there is loads of resentment. worse than that when the weimar republic signed the treaty of versailles.

probably my head works diferently from other human. so i'm going to b pessimistic about what is going to happen in the next few days to come. idiotic man.

seriously, ppl muz 祝老爹新年快乐，万事如意。

万事如意。操基败。最近万事可能没那么如意。但是，老爹应该要开始使出自欺欺人绝招，得到启蒙，得到 nirvana. 然后生命就会暂时好一点。

haiz. will u like anyone disturbing u when u are not so happy? probably not. maybe i shld hav practiced the policy. when not happy, disappear. but unfortunately in this case, i thought i shld not hav disappeared. it was some people who are supposed to disappear.

let me giv u an example. u dun agree wif teachings of christianity. u are with a bunch of christians toking about christianity, and suddenly u get pist wif one of the discussion. wad shld u do? stay there and try to tok some cok about it and become more unhappy, or disappear? i suggest disappearance. ur unhappiness may not b spread to the others. rather than u sit there and show ur unhappiness to everybody. and then everybody oso unhappy oso. i duno. but if i was in this situation, i will disappear from the gathering, and do sth probably more constructive rather than making myself unhappy listening to unhappy talk. juz like u are in a place where u are unhappy, and u have the right to leave. i rather u leave and everyone's life go on as usual, and not affect other ppl mood.

but of course in some cases cannot do this policy. juz like i unhappy wif that guy dat day. but i do not hav the right to leave the organisation, because the organisation has been relatively good to everybody. and it's only one person who made me unhappy. so i shld probably find a way for that guy to explain to me wad he was doing that day. pmsing everybody and acting cute.

a sudden philosophical thought came to me.

my current situation is like i wan cash to fund my bowling. buy this buy dat repair balls or wad. but then u noe suddenly i duno why i am to celebrate many bday parties, and we will nid to pay for cake. u c, on one hand, i love cakes and wan to pay for cake. but on the other hand, i nid to fund my bowling, which requires long term saving up.

shld u part wif cash for something immediate, or shld u not part wif cash and keep them so that it will benefit u long run? interesting. many ppl go for immediate goodness. shiok ar. play lan awhile. chiong this chiong dat. but then, after that find out no cash for makan, no cash go home. probably balancing is very impt.

probably i hav one or two explanations as to why ppl nowadays work alot and hav less time to think. if we come to a little more micro scale, s'pore and china ppl seem to be studying all day and muz have no life to succeed. but wad about the ang mohs? let's see a not so bad place like usa. they quite laxing, after sch can go around play play. mother ask them sleep dun do homework. even worse, britain or places like turkey. they eat a lunch nid take 2 hour.

the amount of time u hav actually hav to be affected by ur schedules, as well as how u wan to use ur time. sometimes, even if our schedule too packed, esp for s'pore and china ppl, i feel that we will have to take out time ourselves from somewhere. use magic or wad. shld take up time for imagination and creativity to happen, rather than thinking about wad is ahead later.

juz like the angmohs. they so easy oso can chat u up duno how many hours. maybe they free. but we hav to make ourselves free oso. even though gahmen hav set the farmers mentality in us, sometimes it is good to create time to reflect and make ur own philosophies and guiding principles, hopefully morally right. cos i noe there are some ppl wif personal guiding principles which are absurd.

oops. mormon is sort of allowed in s'pore...

anw life is still as bad. mental problems cannot be solved so fast, unless there is a free present in front of me. well, looks like life is bad. it is not easy. life may not seem as easy as a dick. i duno. for those people who have never tried such stuff, maybe u will not understand. i hope i was an innocent child in kindergarten, playing every day and no need to worry about future and life. but it seems that i cannot stay as an innocent child.

who started all the nonsense about education? who was the idiot who started to make people study many many things? (not referring to country policy, referring to who was that idiot who started to tell people to study everyting around the world and make everyone start study many things oso). if we had more time to think, reflect, and make philosophies on our own, i feel that this s2pid world will be better than wad it is now. if we had more time other than spending it on sch work, we could spend millions of hours more on talking to people, communicating rather than worrying eh differentiation how to do? who killed the chinese?

knowledge is useful i agree. it helps us to understand things and build our thinking. but the price of knowledge now is that we have no time for our relationships. family, friends, dating, networking or for some even religion. do we hav much time for all these? dun talk to me about time management. if we were not needed to spend so much time on studies, i tink that relationships among people would have become better. also, we would have more open space for ourselves to think about our values and beliefs. rather than now, we need to be taught values which may not even suit us. juz cos the world prefer such values, many ppl adopt them. politically correctness. probably it came because people teach values, and others who have thinking different from what is taught, although morally correct, would become useless.

i noe a little incoherent, but if u do have any evoked thoughts, pls put something on that board on the left

now i c why mormonism is considered illegal in s'pore....

sometimes, young boy, dun tink u do something innocuous, ppl are not unhappy. sure it seems innocuous enough. but i tell u, i hate it. basically u're telling me: o baby i went to geylang 20times in the past 2 months. irritating. but it's ok, cos u seem to be cannot be opposed type, cos u're doing well, shining like a tharman head. heh.

anyway, humans are weird. in the sense that why do we feel awkward wif certain ppl? some ppl do not hav this barrier. but i do. to certain frens, i somehow dun like to bring up certain topics. i duno why too. i'm quite sure there are others who are perturbed by this also.

many ppl tell me to abstain. but it seems hard. hahahahhhhahaahahahahaa

in the beginning, u tried to warn me, i played wif a drug, it's gonna kill me. now i c. there is something probably more powerful than drugs for ppl living in monasteries. very sad.



why muz the use of drugs start wif an unhealthy experience, where i was cheated for the first duno how long? fkin cb. pls man. now wad happens? u look for higher class of drugs. it's a vicious circle, until holy matrimony comes into the picture to conclude everything.

le bo tao nao? nbccb. u tink mind control is a good magic card? i dun tink so my boy. in such a society, u control ppl, good ppl like me may not sae a shit about u. but others who are not as obeying as me? they will get unhappy. and so u love unhappiness my frens? use ur brain la. c'mon, u wan to lower problems in work place, u wan put deterrent, use deterrence. but how much has it worked? deterrence got work on n. korea? not to a very good extent eh.

now i c why ppl will sae irritating. i wonder why. it is very degrading. u tink i am an idiot? if u tink so, we shld hav police. we shld adopt police policy. get cisco come. it's the best idea isn't it? u wan good security, everyone good boy. oso can. make place become army camp oso can. then got those 3rd sg shouting at ppl, warren officer to tok cok over there. agree?

i do not like to tolerate policies that make humans become dogs, but unfortunately, i seem to be forced to.

i feel liberated. i wonder, if at the start of the hol i liberated myself, would i feel even more free? haha it's too late to apologise. but suddenly i feel as if the last few hr of hol left will be... better? maybe yes maybe no

gimme gimme gimme a cash after midnight.....
money money money, its so sucky, in a rich man's territory

so i say thank you for the money, the cash i'm throwing, thanks for all the joy they're bringing. who can live without it i ask in all honesty? what would life be? without a cent and a buck wad are we so i say thank you for the money.....
heh. that should be wad a pro expensive game player sae to his sponsor. without sponsor, i wonder whether any sane human being with a normal job will be able to fork out enough cash to play the game he is playing.

i might as well leave this world now. every thing about cash... it's becoming more and more true. last time i can eat wadeva i wan. now cannot. cos of sth that is sapping my cash. i duno which is the correct path.

it doesn't feel good to live off my mother oso. but i hav no savings on my own. except probably aroun $400, and some old notes that my grandmother left for us b4 she pass away. but i'll never sell them or use them unless there is a war.

anyway, it is oso not feasible for me to get a job while studying. i will b as good as dead if i do that. probably the only way out now is to get a scholarship. but i busted my chance. i shld hav plp-ed during that moe scholarhip thingy. i never predicted it. but wad's over is over. wad can i do? anybody rich enough to help? haha.

in life sometimes it is hard to understand everything. dun try to be smart. when cannot understand, b humble, and go and find out urself. if even u cannot find out urself, then ask around for help.

some people like to impose on others. hey 2day i going geylang. u oso muz go ar. or else u are fired from my company. u noe. it is not very good. i tink u sae liddat, if the person is a straight, he will juz walk away frm ur company. u dun even hav to fire him. it works the same way for many situations. hu wans to b forced or coerced? probably not many ppl. sometimes, we hav to force. but when the other party has reservations, u shld listen. but if u dun even bother to find out that guy's reservations, that's not very good of u.

so actually i wan to commend ppl who hav been listening to others attentively, as it is very impt.

hahahahahahaha. i tink i will suddenly change my mind. sometimes, win is win. but when u win, do u win all? of course when u kil the person u win all already. isn't it. but if u only win him in some martial art, u may not finish winning him in every way? maybe the other guy wank more than u in one day. so he win in this part. and then u win him in martial art. so sometimes, we muz understand. when u win a guy, doesn't mean u win fully. u muz learn from each other. that is better. the sharing of knowledge is better than insisting u hav won. so the world is evil cos we lack ppl who will wan to share knowledge. we hav more ppl hu are interested in winning over others and enjoy the shiok of winning.

well. anw i had new discoveries. but i tink not every human will understand. i mean. a normal human will not understand this whole blog. even i tell u, when i read previous posts of mine when i hav nothing to do, i may not understand every single thing that i write. cos most of the time, i type without thinking. i juz type wad is on my mind on that moment, without going through thought. except for these few sentences probably. so....

anyways, life can get difficult. i mean, if ur life isn't, probably u haven't lived on earth. or u are super optimistic. or u bluff urself. or u really hav nothing that is in ur way. if so, life's good. korean brand.

i juz noticed. abangs, u all muz b careful. there is 1 ting called atheism. sometimes, they like to borrow bible and interpret their own way. and then sae it is wrong. very smart. and this can convince millions of ppl that it is the truth that christianity is s2pid. heh. it's ok. it's fine wif me. my life goes on.

it is all about interpretation. they like to some parts of bible, supposedly not literal, they make it literal interpretation. then they sae bible fail. the some parts, supposed to b literal, they make it not literal, then sae bible fail again. so fun. such a game is fun to play with. u pay me i oso wan. but watch out. when will there b such an idiot to ask ppl to write bible? purposely one wad. to play wif human, c hu dowan to trust, den after that bb to those hu dowan to trust lor. so simple. but it's ok. cos if atheist wan to live their life without a god, it's ok wif me. juz that if they kip going around koran, bible and wadeva holy book and sae it is fail, that isn't very nice of them. heh.

heh. muz b very careful. i shall not launch my scathing attack too early. i hav to launch it abit more stealthily, or maybe i shld not even launch. but it's ok.

hahahhahhahahhahhahahahhaa. we will see who has the last laugh. it is me. cos most humans dun like to keep too cool. they like to be hot.

lucky sia man utd. can win by 3-0. haha. but it's ok. anyways, there is a chance to become top again.

young men, it's time. start to become christians boys. haha.

well. anw. according to my belief. it's either down or up. i duno. many ppl shun christianity cos it's too simple yet threatening. ahhaahahhaahhahah. i duno.

haiz. i'm too used to laxing life. nehneh. now u ask me to do wad. go back to study. gg.

to let my com run faster, i had to sacrifice appearance. everyting is no more look very nice alr. all back to basics. look more like a windows 2000 now. but seriously, i dun care. cos it's for my com to be faster.

hey all... any kind soul pls help in any way u can.

q1. my com has been around for 2 years or so, everyting getting slower. is there any way to increase speed? i noe gonna change new one anytime, but to sustain this period, any ways to make it faster? anyways, i running on 3 main drives, not like normal humans who use 1 drive. so u noe at the start it is already a little slower.

q2. is there a phone model, preferably something simple like nokia, which looks old fashioned but has new functions? i checked it out, one of the nokia i tink 5320. funny. i like. it looks old but new. that type. i would like sth not so skinny, and then looks old (which means no slide, no flip, no touch screen type) but got modern function one. got such recommendations?

test

for people who hate smoke.

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Parents who smoke often open a window or turn on a fan to clear the air of second-hand smoke, but experts now have identified another smoking-related threat to children's health that is not as easy to get rid of: third-hand smoke.

That is the term being used to describe the invisible yet toxic brew of gases and particles clinging to smokers' hair and clothing, not to mention cushions and carpeting, that lingers long after smoke has cleared from a room.

The residue includes heavy metals, carcinogens and even radioactive materials that young children can get on their hands and ingest, especially if they are crawling or playing on the floor.
Doctors from MassGeneral Hospital for Children in Boston coined the term 'third-hand smoke' to describe these chemicals in a new study that focused on the risks they pose to infants and children. The study was published in this month's issue of the journal Pediatrics.

'Everyone knows that second- hand smoke is bad, but they don't know about this,' said
Dr Jonathan P. Winickoff, the lead author of the study and an assistant professor of paediatrics at Harvard Medical School.

'When their kids are out of the house, they might smoke. Or they smoke in the car.
'Or they strap the kid in the car seat in the back and crack the window and smoke, and they think it's okay because the second-hand smoke isn't getting to their kids,' he said. 'We needed a term to describe these tobacco toxins that aren't visible.'

Third-hand smoke is what one smells when a smoker gets in an elevator after going outside for a cigarette, he said, or in a hotel room where people were smoking.

'Your nose isn't lying,' he said. 'The stuff is so toxic that your brain is telling you, 'Get away'.'
Dr Philip Landrigan, a paediatrician who heads the Children's Environmental Health Center at Mount Sinai School of Medicine in New York, said the phrase third-hand smoke is a brand-new term that has implications for behaviour.

'The central message here is that simply closing the kitchen door to take a smoke is not protecting the kids from the effects of that smoke,' he said. 'There are carcinogens in this third-hand smoke and they are a cancer risk for anybody of any age who comes into contact with them.'

Among the substances in third-hand smoke are hydrogen cyanide, used in chemical weapons; butane, which is used in lighter fluid; toluene, found in paint thinners; arsenic; lead; carbon monoxide; and even polonium-210, the highly radioactive carcinogen that was used to murder former Russian spy Alexander V. Litvinenko in 2006. Eleven of the compounds are highly carcinogenic.

The New York Times. featured in 2days mind your body

army efficiency was wad i expected. but impressively, some tings do change eh. haha. 2day go c my bro enlist. found out they change some of the stuff. nothing much. but anw

they change the grey army singlet, into some brown one. heh. grey one looks more cool to me leh. the army there. funny. also, gone is the nabei shoe. that black and white one. haha. for those army enthu, stop buying that nabei black and white. buy the new one. now the nabei they wear is mainly white, less black. looks more comfortable than the black and white one anw. haha. more modern style, can run faster liaozz. anw the no.4 they wearing is like not the stripe. they start wearing pixel one liao. doesn't look very cool, but well no choice. they sae change means change. but still no. 4 la they research research sae less easy see, then ok lor haha.

wonder wad's up so far wif sar21 and m16. but the debate is still on baby.

came back frm chalet earlier. tmr c my bro enlist. heh. muz take some oath or sth. how impt is ns? many ppl hate it. but it's impt for s'pore. actually, i am proud of being in s'pore. it is safe, etc, gov't doing relatively well u hav to admit. we dun hav much conflicts here and there, as in major ones. but i was wondering, if speaker corner open up, if someone go touch racial subject, wun it gg? haha. time will tell anw. i dun hav to judge yet.

later at the ferry terminal scarly see all familiar ppl sia. and i duno how much time i muz waste at the ferry terminal. is it later they treat u lunch or wad? haha. not sure. but we'll see.

shitz. fm crash on me. nooooooooooooo. my team is gone. nehneh. wonder wad's wrong oso. that team alr imba liddat liao then decide to crash. kek sim.

failure of system: no tangible aim. wad's the idea wif the percentile marks method in o level?

e.g. my main fkin concern. the higher chinese. seriously. i may speak chinese. i may b 华语酷 cock talker. but the thing is that, there is no aim whether i will get b4. cos the marks is by percentile. which is weird. cos u muz fight wif others in the society. and not like aim for a score. which is very very very hard to accept. wad's wrong? there is soemthing wrong. u c, normally a1 is 75%. so u try to aim 75%. but if u get 75% of score, u may not b guaranteed a1. i wonder wad's wrong wif ppl. they shld set the grade there. it is more fair. then ppl can aim for that grade.

yes, by doing the percentile thing, there can b competition. but compete for wad? b usain bolt? it's not. this is studying well. how well u study, why u go compare wif other ppl? why not aim for a nice number? the smart ones will sae aiya no problem. sure bo? i wonder wad's up. maybe other ppl up in the higher seats hav their own policies. but i dun understand their thinking.

u may sae i unhappy cos i 4got 1 part of summary during the test. heh. once in a lifetime. no turning back. but by doing this, u are making ppl like me feel irritated after the test, worrying whether u are better than wad some percentage of the whole s'pore cohort who took this test. lame shit. wad can i sae? nothing. wait till i rise up there, and u'll hav to shut up. and we'll see whether that is even possible, considering ppl alr start to plp now.

happy new year. let's hope it will end up happy. i am happy wif 2008 though. even if it was quite unexpected that i will be happy. haha due to a few reasons lar.

but really, there is a problem wif monasteries. both gals and guys sch. in sec sch. muz hav many many many more opportunities for us to work wif opposite sex ppl sia. haiz. spent last 2 days having like much more interaction wif gals than i had other than wif my mother. seriously. dun believe me? come to monastery then u will understand. i dowan comment too much lar. scarly ppl tink i siao later.