in my n number of observations, i have realised that many people think that this world is a world of transactional relationships. WRONG. just think about ur family itself. did u deserve to be born in this world? hell no.

there's no such thing (from detached/enlightened perspective) about deserving better and deserving worse. but truth be told, many don't see it this way. they don't know what is God's love, they don't know what is truly unconditional love.

when i love, i try to do it God's way - i give unconditionally. yes, i am human, i may not be perfect, i can't give perfect love, i may look for certain transactional aspects. but truth be told, i try as far as possible not to do this - for what does 计较 bring me? nearly nothing. counting all these small things make us very miserable. but this is nothing.

i tell u wad is most miserable. that is when u give love, and the person does not accept it. i don't care about that person not giving back. like seriously. i don't care. that person just needs to accept it. can u imagine, ur parents make the best stuff for u, and u don't even accept it. how will they feel? they will feel fucked up right?

similarly, because i understood this, and i see how god loves us... my perspective has changed. i don't care about how much i am giving. i just give, and try not to think about the receiving part.

fking trouble is when they don't even accept. these ppl... not sure to be pist, not sure to be patient, not sure to be hopeful.

but if i love them, i shld hope, and hate the lies that are being told, and love the truth as it is.