yeah, a house of an elder i see.

some of the family members try lah. we try to make it a family. each of us try in our own ways. but it's funny, at the end of the day, it seems like... they don't always coincide together.

festive season, and i m sitting here remembering the Lord is my peace. the song, 耶和华坐着为王，洪水氾濫的時候；耶和華坐著為王，直到永遠。

we all try, and then i look at the friction. and where's lubricant?? all i see is some reluctant giving way. and i, standing at the side, a helpless observer, unable to initiate much. or intervene even.

i don't like to purposely be a whatever beatitudes guy. what blessed poor in spirit. i'm not gonna act as that. but i keep getting turned back to this verse whenever i feel this way, and wondering whether all these emotional turmoil is worth it. all these tears shed for nothing cos i watch my family tearing at one another for nothing, or just stabbing one another because one has practiced more Christian liberty than another.

seems like there's some sort of an excess pride everywhere we go. 

i wonder what the Lord teaches about family. father teach the children? in the end, the father just passed his stuck up genes over to the first 2 sons, and his lack of sociability over to his 3rd son which culminates in autism. pls. and in teaching? nothing much about promoting love and righteousness, just expression of pent up frustration. it is of not much wonder why the first 2 sons who aren't autistic love to express the same in more creative ways.

one rather type on blogspot. the other? boasting about his Christian liberty after being set free from some "chains of legalism", and biting his own roots in the butt. pls, if God didn't teach him that since young he would even have any sense of righteousness, just by going to churches that play some clubbing, trance-infusing music?

surely... there's more of God's peace that can surround this situation. may the Lord be peace here Lord. come to fill us Lord with Your love, and that we can speak more of Your love, act more with Your grace... rather than bow down to the work of our sinful nature. give us the backbone strengthened by Your Spirit. thanks God for being faithful... listen to our prayer Lord... it doesn't have to be this way with You...