i hav no idea.

我心里有惧怕。我怕这次又是我的罪性在引导我的行为，我的举止，我的想法。我怕这次的迷恋又是为了自己的私欲而不是为了他人着想。

maybe not the time yet. i don't want to cause the wrong thoughts. i don't want to cause the misunderstandings. hence, i don't feel like acting.

maybe it's not the time. i should not act out of my own accord. but i shld act so as not to stumble others, so as not to wrong the other person.

conclusion i should not.

but still the flip side tells me, if i don't act, later go wif wrong person. den how? fucked alr? cannot rite?

mayb just shuddup la. shuddup and see. u can't control wad's ahead. just chill the fuck out. and don't create anymore chaos and sin anymore. that time burn not only oil tio burn burn until can't even see mother or father anymore. dafuq. u don't want to burn in that situation again.

so uncertain. God help me? i hav no idea. am i supposed to see it as temptation? or chance.

i don't know at all.

maybe by testing the faith? the confession of the Spirit? i don't bloody know.