as the world start to make its stamp on wad i see, i feel very disappointed. and at many a time, i feel like going to the dark side. juz become a merry-maker and hav fun and hav sex and hav wine. eat drink be merry. but is that right? it seems right to the world. i hate being holier than thou. but sorry. i hav to sae the world isn't right in this case.

do we have to behave like an idiot to b cool? apparently not. tink about the bunch of ppl who are highly sought after. they dun behave like idiots. they either behave like nuts and promiscuous, else they are nerds and geeks. and which apparently hav the better viewpoints? i will leave to ppl to comment.

but i hav to sae the world's moral standards hav significantly taken a dip. sex is viewed as free. once upon a time, it was sacred and reserved for marriage, heterosexually. now there's zoophilia, homophilia, botanophilia. disappointing. but again, it's not for me to sae. AGAIN. the world rules u alot.

but sorry world. i stand firm to my beliefs. i may make adjustments to "blend in" so that i won't stand out too much like a dick. but i will not turn into a fucker juz to become like the bunch of apparently cool bastards. yes. these ppl are aptly put as bastards - they dun seem to have parents to teach them right and wrong. i hate insulting them, because it make me seem i want to criticise their upbringing since 养不教，父之过. but i feel sad for their parents - most of them want their children to be wonderful people. not wonderful fuckers. but because of wadeva reasons and circumstances, they submit to wad is trendy, wad is sleazy and sexy.

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no point. seriously, no point. juz live my stupid and nerdy and geeky lifeless life. if ppl wan to see it as nerdy and geeky and lifeless is wad i doing, as i like to sae, so be it. does ur opinion matter to me much? i can sae, my opinion of u doesn't affect u. why shld i allow ur opinions to affect me? haha. it's so fun to play wif absolutism and relativism.

midnite toking sai liao. mai gong jiao huay liao.