i will be very realistic. maybe it's the same topic, but i tink shld mention again

i know there are many people out there trying to ask me, why i never go and achieve more. i know with my working ability, i can get into council when i was sec 1 or 2. just that i didn't. i don't know why at 1st, but i just hated the idea of council. maybe i'm not so ra ra guy. but i think the main reason was that i don't want to be 虚伪，or on the other extreme, the person who tank all the crap. y i go there and waste time, although can get good portfolio? many ppl hu go council, dun deny lar. u wan to serve den sae. u got forced by teacher, ok i still can believe. but those who fake go in, sorry. u will not get my respect. but i tink most are like not purposely want one. probably teacher keep pestering them go. but then u choose, u still make decision. and if u are a bad guy, how do i trust that u go council do something good? so i also didn't want to face this situation, i din go council.

next, over academic achievement. i know i also can participate in this comp that comp. many ppl around me go many comps. but i never. i tink most of it is cos i'm lazy. and i dowan to do another proj without frens. i feel very pangseh. duno y. so i never. and because of laziness, i never go many competitions. many ppl sae waste. but i dun really think waste. i spend the leftover time having time to slack. shld i sae resting. why everyday do this and that slog ur fkin ass out for maybe a few more mentions in your personal statement? it may giv u an edge over me in the working world. but do i look scared? i may not get a high paying job as those who plp. but i tell u, i can face up to my conscience, but for u, ur money came from plp. and maybe less substance. we'll see. i will lose out. but so far i'm not afraid yet.

also about relationship with others. i take fren very seriously. many ppl are not my fren. only some are friends. some are good friends. other lumped under acquaintance. what is friendship to u? to many ppl, it is a way to show their ego and get their ego boost. when the other guy sae something plp, or ego boosting, they will sae o u're my fren cos u boost my ego. or some like to be with others who will niao them, will sae some bad ting about them blah blah. i duno y these ppl call ppl hu kar jiao them frens. pls la. get a friend at least who u can communicate ur feelings with, and where there are no ego boosting and competitiveness but useful criticism and correct praising. and also watch out u noe. 沟通感情重要，但是你要当心他是不是欺骗你的感情，还是真正想互相分享事情。简单讲，如果我跟你沟通不了感情，你永远做不了我的好朋友，而且如果你来找我的原因是要承着我的睾丸，我建议你去吸吸别人的脚。if your friend does nothing useful to you, is he a friend? and if friends cannot communicate effectively due to any problems, is this good friendship? well people have different view. so this is my view.

以上不是金科玉律，而是我的想法。不需要去跟随我的想法，没有用的。and remember i hate copyrights. dun hav to copy me fully, and dun pray to me as well. praying to me does nothing to yourself.