不知为何有种怪怪的感觉。

everyone's hi and bye-ing, and i just feel like as if, did i miss something in these few years staying in a residential college community?

i don't really know why my better friends are probably the fellows and master and not the fellow students. why is there this weird rift?

maybe because i did not find the place that really engaged me at a deep level, intellectually or spiritually. or was it that i was lording over people for the longest time and never really took time off to intentionally connect. i don't really know. but the amalgamation of issues make me feel a little, idk. messy?