juz as i thought i attained nirvana, i'm wrong.

i'm wrong. i proved myself wrong. and by that, i proved myself that i am a sane human, and i am not conforming to the freakin societal definition of a jc kid. as a matter of fact. juz go shit it seriously. why is it so hard to conform to a nice kid? being normal is a good thing. u dun hav to worry why u seem wrong. u juz chiong wif the flow, u go wif it. ppl do, u do. ppl eat shit, u eat shit. juz in the hope of emptiness, which is wonderful when u are young. so why can't i pursue emptiness anymore? heh. it will go back to the start. once u stop pursuing emptiness, u can't start pursuing it again. juz like many many other things.



anw on a more positive note, i did pick up a 2-4-10, and left no 3-4-7-10. but it was yu's turn to leave 3-4-7-10. and i found that my pin slasher hits like a truck on csc lanes. a monster trcuk to b specific. i reckon it will do on other brunswick lanes too. fun fun.