even with the conviction and anointing of the Holy Spirit... it is difficult to fight against sin. our passions and lust win over us and we grieve the Spirit, and we hate ourselves for that... we hate our sinful nature...

but we are stuck in human flesh. i guess this is the sanctification... a person can see his own perfection, but yet the current state is just... weak and unable to be God Himself.

am i very much better than others whom i think are great sinners? not really. esp after being revealed such a serious lack of righteousness in my life. i guess... the Lord brings me to this state to know how to pray for others in their sin... their blindness to sin... and be their high priest... pray for them, intercede...

we are weak as humans but we have hope in our Great High Priest.