男人玩，平时不是乱玩。当然有那种乱玩的人。

我并不是。我一玩，就是玩到底。如果只是试一试，我会讲试。

如果玩竞争，你要小心。

i can see clearly now. wan settle, settle la. wad wan to testing play play wadeva. den sae so. dun act as if wait for ppl to give 1000%. that one dangerous.

now anw even if i give 100% no point la. haha. my 100% can't match ppl 3%. for wad? i juz nid to bide 10 years, and u try.

u try again. u confirm can see difference plz.

but i wun blame myself, i wun blame others oso. this type of thing machiam invest. u invested and then after that the stock market crash u wan blame hu? the investment adviser? knn lo, ur money still disappear ma. similarly, if invest u get great returns, wld u thank many ppl? not many ba. u probably use it to bless ppl near you nia.

真懂得爱，真的会了解体谅，会放下，会放心，会有信心。1 John 4:18 oso say, 爱无惧怕？

that's the point. if i am alr being worried, then wad am i doing? probably it's a self-interested type of giving. which is lame. yup. LAME.

let's stop the monologue here for now.