the lack of failure, or the lack of tolerance of failure, is gonna b the downfall of s'pore.

our first leaders grew through hard times. they fought for independence, they fought against instability, they used strong-man means to get here.

today, our 2nd and 3rd gen leaders know no shit.

they are thriving upon previously built bedrocks, executing bureaucracy after bureaucracy.

there's no true efficiency, no "moral" good they are workign to. they are juz trying to "fit in" with where the money comes. ang moh good, because democracy; here adopt democracy throw away strong-man mentality. china a lot money, make alot business deal with them.

other country wan make money here? easy. allow foreigner come in here to work for other country firm cos their labour cheaper.

wad happen to identity? kena dilution.

this, nvm. but after the ppl know how to speak up, is gov't waking up, or are they still unwilling to "give up" on external ppl? 崇洋 they say. i say cocksuckers.

if u hav been through true hardship u know that u can learn more from the weak than the powerful. how hard are some of our ministers' life? some were scholars, leading the untested life. they were born to well-to-do families or at least families that were willing to let them pursue academics, they held on to scholarships, served in public institutions as LEADERS, or so-called "leaders", worked hard being YES-MEN, and poof, they became a minister.

was that a hard life? no.

today, they earn probably $200k a year? possibly more. i'm not too sure the exact figure, but nvm. how they will understand someone getting $20k a year? no way i'd sae. how to get them to understand and know them?

from unreliable (but to me believable) provenances, wad i know is that all minister in the cabinet supposed to clock time on ground before going on to hard policies. so? they take their time on the ground as masak masak.

take for example my dear SAF generals who switch over. (i'm juz giving a normal example, cos i din do a full understanding of their lives; it can be juz stereotype. read at ur own risk) SAF scholars. what do they see? if they are army, mayb still got in touch wif men when they are platoon commander. once after that, u can tell which one is a scholar OC, and which one is a farmer OC. which one is a scholar comd, or a farmer comd.

i tell a story of difference between scholar and farmer comd. farmer comd was when i juz post in. farmer comd din bother about the R&D of the unit as long as all the products and KPI are satisfied, and a considerably high standard of unit proficiency was achieved.

scholar comd once post in wad happen? talk cock about all the soldier fundamentals and PT. (i.e. wad happen is my chaokeng men once had great times to pcc but now no more chance to chao keng under his scheme) sae wad muz run every mon wed fri, muz closely monitor, less chaokeng, IPPT muz all pass. admin muz gd. wut? yes, he was doing the "RIGHT" thing. but did he fulfill more KPI? i daringly sae no. he was juz a ball squeezer cos of his scholar mentality: he din see how hard life was for any other person. i admit, it isn't difficult to b a man. but how about, it's a toll to someone who is a normal soldier. AND THEY NEVER GET TO UNDERSTAND THIS TOLL OF BEING JUZ ANOTHER PERSON.

cos they only know how isit like to live a path paved for them. the scholar path is laced with dolce and gabanna, red carpets.

and because of this, they think that a man wanted to end up like a man.

when they and any other scholars bring this into the gov't (SAF scholars worst from my cursory analysis because there's a hierachy system in promotion so it adds to the fact that the "top" will not understand wad the bottom actually feels; there's no need to "feel" the bottom if u wanna rise. u juz nid fulfill KPI), that's where all the insensitivity comes. they fail to see the need to understand bottom and at least empathize as a leader. let's sae at least giv a fuck about the bottom. they giv zero fucks about the bottom from wad we can (cursorily) see.

today i state sth. and when lao die sae sth, lao die usually means it.

if i become a scholar, i shall b a game changer. that scholar who does not seek to fulfill KPI and bare minimum and juz hav fun after that. i shall become a leader in my field who work for more than a myopic good. i shall try to contribute to greater good according to my standards (which may include wiping out useless fun at my workplace HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHA and replacing it with great thought).

if i become a leader, i shall be different. not for the sake of being different. but to deviate from the CURRENT norm of being so focused, so so absorbed by stupid, useless KPIs and bureaucracy.

this is my vision. a vision for a more thinking community 1st. hopefully, a better vision for the society and anything bigger scale than that.

we stand up for what is right and contribute to sth more than selfishness and carnal wants. stop conforming to useless societal realities. let's do it.