when adversity comes, i tend to do something.

it's not believe in self. not harming self. not taking it out on others. that isn't my main consideration, although i admit to doing this subconsciously.

i tend to trust god.

there's nothing much u can do, than to admit god is in control.

when we do this, we see the light. and then we know how to react thereafter.

the bible says, pray and u will receive the desires of our heart. let me juz add the disclaimer.

what is the desires of our heart? it should be god, god as the end, as our desire. the end of man, is about glorifying god. we pray the desire of our heart = pray for god's will be done. then u will receive it.

mayb it's the fact that i know god is in control, hence i heck reputation as far as possible consciously. subconsciously i still hav my egotistic ways. sadly. i'm human anyway.