原来如此。

sometimes it's bad for health, especially when someone u noe has very good memory. it's not a good ting to have a very very powerful memory. wad we call hyperthymesia. u can't forget a thing u did since some age. can recall vividly certain details which seem unsignificant to most ppl on a specific day. it's not good to hav this type of boss eh? haha.

but as i recently usually tok, 冤冤相报何时了？even if u do remember bad stuff about other ppl, sometimes juz forgive them. it's good for health to forgive. rather than harbour fat hatred, and then when u c that guy, hey idiot wa ai hoot le ji liap. i'm sure he'll let u whack very willingly.

但是最近的确有点奇怪。有些事情很像无缘无故发生，分析也不懂为什么。but sometimes, do we hav to bother y? a minimalistic approach can be good for health rite. haha.

freudian psychoanalytic theory of defence mechanisms. not bad. why do ppl defend their stands, and sometimes submit to others? defence of urself. wad is an ego? every interesting qn. i wld sae ego is ur own pride mixed with your value system. a humble person can be egoistic, and so can the reverse be true as well. a very assertive person can be a living void, with a lack of self-esteem. when u are attacked, wad do u do? u will protect ur ego. the way u do it, depends on urself. ur value system. or, of course, u can always use the conscious mind to stop urself from making any extreme moves and cause unhappiness.

sometimes choosing the conscious mind to control and moderate urself is a good thing. however, sometimes it's good to allow urself to express fully. ego needs to be protected. it is one's pride. but the problem is this - if ego somehow breeds into a "i am living god" thinking, wa si le lao bei, wa si dua kia, i holier than thou. den. all i can sae, good luck to such a person. hehe.