weird.

i tink it is rather unhealthy, i tend to blame not others but myself for many lousy results and situations and failures. sure, maybe there are times where i really screw up. fine, then maybe it's correct to blame myself. but then sometimes, i prefer to blame it on me instead of the real cause for certain problems and failures.

well another random idea. let's take mercury for a case study. mercury, a heavy metal, when entered into one's body, stays there very long. same for other poisonous heavy metal ions and particles. sure, the body may try to remove it slowly. very slowly in fact. hence, it shld b rather appropriate to say that these heavy metal ions will stay there quite permanently, and one is not able to remove all of it UNLESS for some reason they cluster somewhere, and u juz chop off that part of ur body.

assuming ur body only has mercury traces now, due to coming into contact with it through job or an accident or pollution. what if, someone asks u to remove all of these mercury ions and replace them with manganese? is that possible? (on the assumption that this person will only be appeased if all mercury ions are removed)

or isit more likely that a person does not mind the mercury ions in ur body, and shuffs u with manganese? i don't know.

this happens often enuff tho. surely, i am able to change my loyalties once i am convinced it is a great idea, and that it will work out great. unfortunately, ppl will not believe that we are able to change our loyalties quickly, claiming that u are just another person who can't make up ur mind. how about i offer an alternative viewpoint. sure, u may say such a person who switches loyalties quickly cannot make up their minds. but how about, it is the doubt that u invoke in him that make him unable to make up his mind? haha, hence, if u are some sort of an employer, don't doubt an employee who has made up his mind quickly too early. if u wan to play safe and use condom, ensure that the contract will have clauses and compensations to u if that guy is really some idiot who cannot make up his mind and stay loyal.