i tell myself one more time, to carry on.

so what is hindering me? human tendencies. sure, the rational way to do things is clear - don't regret. once u regret, it may breed remorse, and it comes around to more regret. and the chain starts again in a slippery spiral into nowhere. thus, the clever, pragmatic way is not to regret. just learn from the past, live in the present, prepare for the future, and do the best u can wif ur current knowledge and experiences.

so why are we regretting time and time again, especially me? it's human to do so. we regret, because its our conscious and emotional reaction to some past acts with perceived or real negative consequences. we want to say sorry, we want to make it up for whatever misdeeds, perceived or actual, we have done.

but what if, we regret, and we can't do anything about it? 无奈。so maybe a hokkien song says it very well. 若无彼日的熟悉，心头也不这无奈. hmm, i seem to be digressing to what i have in mind. but unfortunately, i dun think i am being responsible about being explicit about it. hence, i have to type in a circumlocutory manner. in any case, we shldn't wander in a state of remorse. sure, guilt may overwhelm you, but question urself, have u really violated a moral code of conduct? pardon me being chauvinistic. but i dun tink i violated a moral code of conduct. so wad shit regret am i feeling?

hence, maybe i'm still sane. HAHA.