i'm brought up to think that i am lousy at sports.

maybe i really am. u c, i try to defy it for the past duno how many years. but, fail. hence, now, quite lousy la.

i'm brought up to think that i'm good at studies and piano.

duno how good i am. i try not to make it happen for the past duno how many years. but, fail. hence, now, quite good lo.

so maybe i'm supposed to focus on my area of comparative advantage. but, really, focus on them? music abit too late ba. but studies? i duno. yer noe, i've tried some interviews now and then. but i fail all of these interviews. why? mainly, can't plp. fail at it. + portfolio not zai enuff to they see, they know tok gong person that type. maybe i shld mug interview questions.

in any case, let's see what's ahead. i can choose to juz sleep for the next few days and rot. that sounds like a good idea. in any case, i'm not able to market any of my services, if they are even up to standard, in public to earn a steady money over the next few days. hence, if i hibernate, i might even be saving all those money which can be put to greater entertainment/use/charity at a later date.