as a commissioned officer of the saf.

but it kips me wondering. i very big meh? i'm still a dog of my boss. haha.

but not every offcier see it this way. some think they are big. like so? big is big. but remember, u know little. so i really despise those ppl (last time, or those holding on to old school thought without new age rationality) who are in training institutes or units who giv others a poor quality experience and time.

i shall try not to be such a person. everyone must maximise the use of their time both in work and in reflection and in play.

我懂了她/李圣杰

mayb. same singer, permutating the possible situations
我懂了她，不要我为她牵挂，她说天空很大要自由飞翔

手放开-李圣杰

dat's right. it's impt to know certain methods of behaviour.

honestly. i can try to prove every single thing in the world. (keyword: try.) definitely. but the problem is, after showing, proving and demonstrating with examples, will u believe, accept and know what i proved? i am quite skeptical. haha. hence, i tink i shall only do a partial prove. partial prove. how partial is partial? problem is, hard to quantify stuff here. hahahah... find out more in time to come. in any case, be prepared.

男人流泪比流血加倍心疼。

but why? i don't know. when i use naix, it's a good reminder. when i open wounds, i will lifesteal even more. when someone use naix against me, same thing. he will lifesteal me oso.

我做得不够吗？possibly. mayb u hate cold reading. haha. of course, who wants to be under control? but once again, think about it, freedom isn't free when there isn't some form of limitations.

i'm worried. i'm insecure. whenever certain events happen, my long-term memory is activated. yes, i think that's the dangerous part. the long-term memory. some things will lead to a reminiscence.

anw, i'm not so sure of my personal ability oso. to certain situations, definitely i can retain my rationality. but when the environment changes, the time changes, some other forces come into play. do u nid to mind? haha. like really la. if yall gave a shit, pretend nth is there. once u reckon there is something, it's like ghost. u'll always think there is a ghost.

it's robbery, i'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me

Those who drink to drown their sorrows should be told that sorrows know how to swim. Men are from earth, women are from earth. Deal with it.

I envy dogs because.. they always try to put their head between some girls legs, and they pet him!

hai. wad more can one do on a stony afternoon other than training one's vision in filtering out the white light from the computer screen and focusing on the important stuff that are black and other colours other than white? hahaha... and also trying to train one's typing speed? some are studying videos, some are studying texts, some are studying how to use the functions of their handphone more efficiently, some are studying the taste of the cigarette, some studying their eyelids...

yup. that seems to be an intellectual way to describe what people do on such an afternoon. at least it's not as bad as getting deployed under the hot sun for training. at least i'm here filtering out white light from the screen and hoping my eyes don't get tired from it in an air-conditioned place. interestingly, i'm wondering hu comes to read this site.

lots of reflections.

but juz wondering, is there and obligation for a calculative and/or cynical people to turn genuine again, pure and uncalculative and not seeking personal gains?

honestly, i reckon, no obligations. for one, if this guy is able to rationalise and calculate gains for himself, he juz has to extend these calculations to others, then he can make the world a socially desirable equilibrium place. (pardon all poor english please). isn't it? he just nid to stop thinking only for himself, but look at other POV, think about it, and find a win-win situation. win-win situation does not hav to be created only by becoming a nice guy for the sake of being nice, it can be created by calculative freaks too. in fact, the nice guy may end up in lose-lose situations more often than not.

enuff of the crap tho. haha. i wonder wad's my problem wif expressing ideas coherently. wonder when i nid to take my SAT oso. no SAT, no ang moh. got SAT, not necessary muz go ang moh. wadeva la. see wad comes my way. if take on jan, means now gotta pia. and man is always lazy.

o. so the previous post was no. 800. that spans over about 5 years. not bad la.

was juz wondering. a few things that we utter. "sir! we take up the challenge. to lead, we dare. to excel, we will. to overcome we must!"... a voice will echo "good! my very best to each and every one of u"

for some reason or wad, this thing has been in my head. yes, i agree, i take up the challenge. to lead, i dare. ok fine. (cos it doesn't mean i will really be a good leader but i juz dare to lead ppl and move ppl) to excel we will. when i sae this, i abit hong gan. excel. now i in wad vocation? i honestly sae, i am not SME in any of the things in this vocation. siala. and then, do i look like an outstanding leader? my goodness. how to excel we will. lastly, to overcome, we must. this one ok. np. i love mindfuck one. overcome challenges is good. but there's a bit of a catch. to overcome my problem wif being a excellent leader? this one abit difficult.

why is ur second son such a failure?

really, did u teach him the right thing? i guess about there, that's about wad u cld hav done.

but the problem is... he really got learn the rite things bo??

really leh, he's damn fked up. he claim, he attempting to improve. but only stuck at attempting to improve.

so really, pck sae, use ur brain. like seriously. use ur brain. on top of that, use my ears, mouth, eyes, hands, legs properly. if not, haha. i really wonder wad the shit is in store for me. now i see why. i hav a problem. like seriously, i hav a problem. which is that, i hav a problem and i'm probably not doing anyting effective about it.

jiak ba bo sai pang. hence i am kaypohing around.

more i see, more i disappointed. i wonder, y i nid to expect so much from myself. if i got choice, i wan go play sports. play until i sick. totally. but too bad, my niche not in sports, it's in things i find sick of doing, but for a reason i excel. things i not sick of doing, i never excel. good joke.

suck my thumb. maybe not. suck thumb, sit down, no change done. how about, be the change? woots.