lots of reflections.

but juz wondering, is there and obligation for a calculative and/or cynical people to turn genuine again, pure and uncalculative and not seeking personal gains?

honestly, i reckon, no obligations. for one, if this guy is able to rationalise and calculate gains for himself, he juz has to extend these calculations to others, then he can make the world a socially desirable equilibrium place. (pardon all poor english please). isn't it? he just nid to stop thinking only for himself, but look at other POV, think about it, and find a win-win situation. win-win situation does not hav to be created only by becoming a nice guy for the sake of being nice, it can be created by calculative freaks too. in fact, the nice guy may end up in lose-lose situations more often than not.

enuff of the crap tho. haha. i wonder wad's my problem wif expressing ideas coherently. wonder when i nid to take my SAT oso. no SAT, no ang moh. got SAT, not necessary muz go ang moh. wadeva la. see wad comes my way. if take on jan, means now gotta pia. and man is always lazy.