every girl i know friend zone me.

every girl i chase says leave me be.

every guy i know says i 神经病

forever alone 是我的病

so the only person i can 100% be sure that loves me is god, as long as i love him. similarly, as long as i love something more than god, then god will probably fuck it up for me.

humans... i really wonder. every person has a different goal. if everyone sets their hearts upon the same aim, i believe great things can be done by a whole community, a whole group of like-minded people. great things can happen. it's juz whether ppl wan to find time and look to god together and get some guidance from there. everyone prefers themselves over god.

hence, god lets everyone be themselves. in the end, they will get absorbed by themselves; the more they get absorbed by themselves and wadeva they prefer over god, the more they want to be absorbed by themselves. from my reflection and interpretation (this one go and discern urself, dun believe me anyhow), hell is not about hellfire human burning wad shit.

god enjoys ppl burning? maybe he is sadistic to some.

to me, hell is a situation where a human prefers themselves over god. human get absorbed by wad they enjoy more than god. then they seek more of it. the more they seek of it, the less happy they get because they nid more of it to get satiated. think about money. a person wants money more than god. he find $1. not happy enuff. find $100. not happy enuff, wan fight for $100000. then still not enuff, wan more. hell is when u get absorbed in all this. when this happen, u feel the "hellfire" - u wan more of it, u can't find it, u feel miserable, fked up beyond all recognition. so did god create hellfire? i not sure. but i'm sure this can be the hellfire we ppl hav been talking about.

the other choice is there. choose god. god alr promise u, put him as centre of life, things will always be k, will b optimistic, will hav hope even in the shittiest of situation. u tink god like to mindfuck ppl? mayb he wan to mindfuck. i duno. but does he enjoy seeing ppl go find their own hellfire? i dun tink so. he has created a beautiful pathway for humans to go, but as human, we choose to act smart ma...

and end up in hellfire.

hav i ended up in temporary hellfire before? i guess many of times.