i can't help but to whine.

yea sure, for what? they are probably better choices than me.

许多故事有伤心的理由。最后我的故事在你爱情里。。。我被遗忘。

yea. i was just a passing by? maybe. hopefully, there had been some positive effects.

if there weren't, hopefully it wasn't that negative. i apologise if there were.

wadeva.

i don't see it. they supposed to look for? potential person who'd they can spend their lives with?

since i'm not a potential person, i shall go look for potential objects that i can spend my life with. time to turn into a loser man. haha...

realities are as such. as i type, i juz encountered a good joke. counting back, now someone even wan to try to act as if certain events never took place. like sure bo? sure bo?

they enjoy lying to me though. telling me there is hope. there are others. it may be my warped negative thinking logic, but really, that's all i see is that i phailure. total phailure.

undependable fucktard. unfeeling bastard. selfish self-serving idiot. that's all i've been seen as.

is that really me i wonder? not impossible.