it's 4am and i'm waking up to ur perfume...

it's abt 12am and i'm still awake for i duno what (not quoting lyrics here).

at 1st i wanted to type quite a lot of stuff, but my lazy ass disease kicks in and i decided not to. in any case, i tink ppl shld read the freakonomics book. quite interesting. but last few parts a little lame la, it became quite unscientifically sound.

but this time... good for tinking. and as i think in the middle of the nite, i reverse back to many months ago, and these times, i was thinking about something, someone, some place etc. really. and i kip wondering whether i can stop myself from my dreams. rationally, i hav concluded the best possible solution is taking place, is manifesting. but my greedy self says, hey, there's an incentive for MYSELF (note it's only myself) for getting what i want.

but problem is, when i tink on another POV, things get messy. why i sae currently = best possible solution: if i get what i want, den, other ppl is and are getting what they don't want. tangibly, i'm not sacrificing. intangibly, i see myself as sacrificing. in lousier terms, i am giving up. haha...

but on another rational thought, it's better to stay as now. why? simply because it is prohibitively difficult to go get what i want. haha... maybe it's better to switch to substitutes. but quite obviously i won't choose an inferior substitute. plz. and it's hard to find a near perfect substitute..... so i duno. HAHA

but but but... i noticed my last few para began wif but.