no future? u can always look on the present. u can always ask someone to give you the present. sometimes, stopping may be a good way to progress. sometimes, a halt may be a good choice to create extra space. tink about soccer. u run with the ball in front, but in front all defender. they all in good position to tackle u. since u are advancing, they will move back little by little. suddenly u stop. ahh. suddenly left and right got space. can pass. can make advancements. isn't it.

we shld all learn to make appropriate stop on the soccer field.

cool

for some entertainment?

my ball may not be the most suitable. neither is my line. my ball may not be the strongest, neither my line may fit my ball. my line adjustments may not be the most educated prediction, neither is my ball changes. but sorry. sometimes, feeling works very well. combined with a little bit of exposure & experience, a little thinking, and belief in yourself, and of course, luck. everyone may very well be a winner.

原来如此。

sometimes it's bad for health, especially when someone u noe has very good memory. it's not a good ting to have a very very powerful memory. wad we call hyperthymesia. u can't forget a thing u did since some age. can recall vividly certain details which seem unsignificant to most ppl on a specific day. it's not good to hav this type of boss eh? haha.

but as i recently usually tok, 冤冤相报何时了？even if u do remember bad stuff about other ppl, sometimes juz forgive them. it's good for health to forgive. rather than harbour fat hatred, and then when u c that guy, hey idiot wa ai hoot le ji liap. i'm sure he'll let u whack very willingly.

但是最近的确有点奇怪。有些事情很像无缘无故发生，分析也不懂为什么。but sometimes, do we hav to bother y? a minimalistic approach can be good for health rite. haha.

freudian psychoanalytic theory of defence mechanisms. not bad. why do ppl defend their stands, and sometimes submit to others? defence of urself. wad is an ego? every interesting qn. i wld sae ego is ur own pride mixed with your value system. a humble person can be egoistic, and so can the reverse be true as well. a very assertive person can be a living void, with a lack of self-esteem. when u are attacked, wad do u do? u will protect ur ego. the way u do it, depends on urself. ur value system. or, of course, u can always use the conscious mind to stop urself from making any extreme moves and cause unhappiness.

sometimes choosing the conscious mind to control and moderate urself is a good thing. however, sometimes it's good to allow urself to express fully. ego needs to be protected. it is one's pride. but the problem is this - if ego somehow breeds into a "i am living god" thinking, wa si le lao bei, wa si dua kia, i holier than thou. den. all i can sae, good luck to such a person. hehe.

save the world. everyone, shut ur mouths up. HAHA

it's not good to be found out.
it's worse to reveal ur underground activities.
it's worst to even start to get involved.

bad for health. underground taiwanese dealings shld b stopped, and anywhere else in the world. so i shld stop getting into my cash dealings and start doing things which i am expected to be doing. heh

真的这么惨吗？

maybe, it all amounts up to nothing at all. the world may end at 2012 wad. HAHA

how much shld u hate?

apparently i'm wrong. there seem to be some unhappiness that one will never forget, some hatred that one can never forgive the other person for.

is there a need to hate so much? i dun tink so. when u are not happy wif a person, analyse wad's wrong. den, if u are a nice person, tell him wad u tink he can improve on. why keep it all inside, unhappy, see him fight? got point meh? why not take a step back and improve each other? haiz.

some ppl may say, certain hatred are too big to forgive. then i got 1 remedy. juz shuddup and live ur own life, dun bother, rather than make trouble and spread trouble about this person. lousy attitude man most ppl, after buay song den go sae sae sae. if u wan to sae, u shld oso include how that guy can improve, and end by saying i'm an asshole and i dowan to tell him how to improve imo. rite??

bu ar, wa si bo tao nao kia.

sometimes i wonder. older=experience. so all the more, we shld trust them, listen to them. this applies to a very large extent. unless this person hasn't seen the harshness of reality, or is somewhat disabled, then there is a difference. we shld learn to trust ppl who are 1 generation above us. they will have more experience. unless they are younger than u la haha.

想用一杯latte把你灌醉
好让你能多爱我一点
暗恋的滋味你不懂这种感觉
早有人陪的你永远不会
看见你和他在我面前
证明我的爱只是愚昧
你不懂我的那些憔悴
是你永远不曾过的体会

chorus: 为你付出那种伤心你永远不了解
我又何苦勉强自己爱上你的一切
你又狠狠逼退我的防备
静静关上门来默数我的泪
明知道让你离开他的世界不可能会
我还傻傻等到奇迹出现的那一天
直到那一天你会发现
真正爱你的人独自守着伤悲

看见你和他在我面前
证明我的爱只是愚昧
你不懂我的那些憔悴
是你永远不曾过的体会

明知道让你离开他的世界不可能会
我还傻傻等到奇迹出现的那一天
直到那一天你会发现
真正爱你的人独自守着伤悲

bridge (nice chord change)

曾经我以为我自己会后悔
不想爱得太多痴心绝对
为你落第一滴泪
为你作任何改变
也唤不回你对我的坚决

chorus