let's just say, over the past few weeks, i wonder whether i've been praying in vain.

so vain. they don't see what i see, i don't see what they see.

i sit down in a wasted heap of energy and brain power. because most of my heart power has already been gone, invested in an area that is so questionable.

i believe God knows better, but at this point of time the future looks so shady.

n i m cocking up my daily routine.