when adversity comes, i tend to do something.

it's not believe in self. not harming self. not taking it out on others. that isn't my main consideration, although i admit to doing this subconsciously.

i tend to trust god.

there's nothing much u can do, than to admit god is in control.

when we do this, we see the light. and then we know how to react thereafter.

the bible says, pray and u will receive the desires of our heart. let me juz add the disclaimer.

what is the desires of our heart? it should be god, god as the end, as our desire. the end of man, is about glorifying god. we pray the desire of our heart = pray for god's will be done. then u will receive it.

mayb it's the fact that i know god is in control, hence i heck reputation as far as possible consciously. subconsciously i still hav my egotistic ways. sadly. i'm human anyway.

i tink this is neater n cleaner bah.

if morality is defined by humans i will start to kill people now. many things once unacceptable are now acceptable. i tink killing people is oso acceptable. HAHA.

in retrospect, i shld sae sth.

some ppl are evil, hence they do good because they are evil. in a sense, they are evil inside. but to bluff themselves that they are actually "good" so as to fit in with society, they choose to b good. but they do it with mayb not sae evil to b fair, but self-centred motives. yes, that in itself mayb still ok. but some of these do good ppl. u can see from their lives are they really for the cause whole-heartedly? go to somewhere help ppl, den cleanse soul, afterwards u see them at a club spending money, or demanding from their husbands more money to live a materialistic lifestyle.

some ppl are good in their heart, yet they do evil. mayb it's cos, they are good, but they see too much evil about them. and they can't take it. hence they do the robin hood justice: they speak evil and do evil against evil ppl. they want to eradicate evil by themselves instead of letting nature kill off evil. that isn't the recommended way oso. because we know that the evil they will hav nothing good in store for them. no point juz opposing evil by ourselves.

sad to sae, no one bothers la.

naturally we live with a little cognitive dissonance and hyporcrisy in our lives and in our thoughts.

but i can't stand it when there are ppl who live in a dichotomy between their thoughts and acts.

esp i see, the act is evil, but deep inside that person values the so to sae "altruistic", thinks for society and works for greater good. these ppl may go ahead to put ppl down, never volunteer, first to leave where they are usually seen. but behind everyone's back they care for the family, live a simple life, treasure people close to him, and secretly do volunteer work. what for?

similarly i see alot of ppl they do a lot of good deeds but deep inside they are working for themselves. they love to help ppl actively, donate, do "good", stay as holy as possible. however, when out of "general public's" observation, they become 奢侈, childish, selfish, caring about their own interests. what for?

we shld try to live in a way where thoughts and deeds are nicely aligned. at least make an effort. to say, secretly caring with no one knowing is useless; secretly selfish while being openly altruistic is basically living life like Pharisee.

alot of ppl rebel for the sake of rebelling. wad's the use in rebel? leads nowhere. wad we can try to do is to contribute positively and think from others' perspectives. destructive thinking is destroying our mindset. is the cheap thrill in tearing someone else's argument apart so great? definitely it is. many go for it. but wad's the greater use in the end? nothing. say we are really oppressed. have u ever thought, instead of seeing u r oppressed, think about y someone wants to oppress u. does he have a reason, however lame it is? and why did he come up with such a reason for the oppression? only then, can we contribute positively. if not, we'll end up in the situation where 2 cows play piano to each other.

as far as possible when i disagree i try to have some proposed alternatives. these alternatives are meant to contribute positively to the status quo and hopefully bring about a positive change, than an overhaul which can prove destructive anyways.

have u oppressed someone before? if u have, then u can empathize better than me. cos i dun rmb oppressing someone overtly.

if u hav, u probably have ideas to break out of this bad mentality. and i dun think it is when a whole heard of ppl u've oppressed come rebelling back at u that u change.

i'm quite irritated by an irritating mentality.

there's this niggering mentality in s'poreans. whenever someone rly wan to do some politically correct stuff for their own future, they only get bugged down. same if that person is rly altruistic, he/she gets shot.

dafug?

if someone goes with the "societal correct" trend, e.g. help ppl, do something gd, work for gov't, what's wrong? totally. so u mean it's only right to sit on reserved seats, talk loudly on phones, to show that u are "cool", and it is wrong not to dye ur hair into a nice colour? and it is wrong not to have pre-marital sex?

and everyting else that is "morally/societally correct" is not to b condoned?

i'm seeing quite alot of this attitude. and i tink, many ppl above age 21 are still immature.

pardon my immaturity if i am. but this is what i c.

saw a v long cny msg sent by few ppl. haha... i realised those idioms were actually repeated so that they can form a long long snake... twas better if i din actually read whole thing and assumed the idioms were actually so numerous HAHA

the people in s'pore willing to declare that sex is more than a commodity... probably i can count it on my fingers.

dun act around me. who dares openly tell off ppl who tell u that we shld seek sex like freebie? near 0. honestly. i've made my stand tho.

but he that hath ears, let him hear.

who bothers? i'm sure at this point of time many are enjoying themselves in pre-marital sex, fondling, heavily petting in beautiful positions. mayb even homosexual wise. orgies.

yummy.

forbidden fruit is sweet.

many can't run away from it. we juz love forbidden fruit.

look at scandinavian side. or even american or european. high birth rate for developed country. but why? there can b even more than 50% children born outside of wedlock due to gov't policies that encourage children to b born even outside of wedlock.

but i tell u, that's because u r weak. humans r weak.

if u're strong, n more discerning... u noe wad to follow.

u can sae this is stupid, but look at how the population grew in the first place.

i noe the standard counter-argument gonna b time change so how our morals muz change too.

up to u. u compromise. i choose not to and i choose to b seen as an idiot (or in the future oso can.)

i may not fully agree with the white paper.

but i'm telling, there's no fkin use brooding over it. and my blood is boiling after seeing most s'poreans become super turned off because of one reason - gov't loves foreigners.

yes, gov't loves foreigners, and i feel the dissent. i agree with the dissent. we love ang moh. we have been 崇洋 since the bloody start. i tell u, as a s'porean, do u support dick lee and stefanie sun and jj lee?

fuck u, no. u're s'porean, and u tell gov't not to love foreigners when u hate ur own kind, esp jj lee?

how they gov't not love foreigners when obviously most s'poreans love foreigners?

s'pore quality is bad. SO? ARE U MAKING AN EFFORT TO IMPROVE UR FKIN QUALITY?

don't talk about nation-wise lei. talk about urself.

are u making an effort? say u are. and then u complain cos ang moh kena chosen. SO?

SO? so u're gonna cry. totally, we need less of these fkin losers.

and s'porean (at least of my gen) grow up with this loser mentality. u score badly, die alr. u did badly, die alr. every single fuck shit die alr.

how about, u kena beaten by ang moh, u fkin set up ur own firm and make it bigger than ang moh wif a s'porean name. AND EMPLOY ANG MOH juz to fulfill ur supremacy. (if u wan supremacy that is)

can u wake up, before u talk about gov't unfair hence kena competition and no jobs and shit? if all s'poreans have great quality, a never say die attitude, a willingness to improve, there will b hope.

today wad i'm seeing, s'poreans say die at earliest opportunity, think they are entitled to a job juz because "they hav certain CV, fulfilled CIP hours, great karma" over others. fkin 目中无人. when u are inadequate urself.

and fkin hell, don't expect ppl to help u when u don't even hav the element of wanting to help urself. u are waiting for ppl to spoonfeed u.

human imagination is fertile.

we definitely came up with ideas of many millions of years ago there is life and stuff.

in objectively studying these things, we have to leave out everything else, including our religious beliefs. is that the "true" way to obtain knowledge?

is it?

then consider me unthinking. HAHA.

so u're telling me the unthinking person can't practice thought?

i'm not sure.

what is ur end? where is ur end?