i juz need 1 thing to survive. well of course, from my religious viewpoint. i probably already have it.

but there is one main thing that i want to increase my sol.

and from this want, comes most derived demand.

other things that i want, are probably extra necessitites to feel extra shiokness.

unfortunately, sol usually stays stagnant.

come boys. now we hav 2 choices. bluff ourselves that life is good. or juz face/enjoy our bad and unidealistic lives.

there is hope.

but sometimes, there is none too.

as far as ppl value me, there will be those who devalue me. similarly, as far as ppl criticise me, there will be those who see otherwise. as yu saes, this world is relative. human cannot b absolute. no matter how absolute, u'll still b relative.

and the ting about relative is cute. that is why there is hope, while there is none. one sees u hopeful. another sees u as a useless shit. where u put urself is impt. sometimes in this world to succeed is about optimising urself. at least, sometimes. not all the time. u nid to get to optimise. do i work better under criticism? better by building on wad i hav and encouragements? consider all factors, and get to be a better person. hard to do eh.

i dun hav so much time to waste to explain certain simple facts in life. go find them out urself. HAHA. 2day i shall b bad. maybe when i hav better mood i may exprain? another time la. now. shld take a quick aestivation.

aestivation is actually quite like hibernation. different from slp. a little misconception. but it's ok. it sounds rly nice eh. like mastication. i wonder how many ppl noe about mastication. it's a nice term for something which happens during ingestion.

sometimes, we shld give some presents in our lives. it's good. ppl want presents. unless it's from sot kia. esp when ppl ask for present, we shld do something and give them. heh. but euphemism aside, how about when ppl ask u to give up ur position when you and another person are equally competent, equally smart, equally genius? haha. this may worth a thought. but if i were in place and no money and face at stake, aiya. for good measure, to uphold the relative peacefulness of everyone's life, maybe, it's a good choice to shuddup and sae okla let u la.

of course we muz watch out. if ppl step over our heads. simple. shoot them. since it may be a signal from them that they want to be shot.

你总是 mug 到 nua, mug 到 nua
独自一个人读书到天亮
你无怨无悔的读着那科目
我知道你根本没那么坚强
你总是mug 到 nua, mug 到 nua
把所有问题都自己扛
读书总是简单考试太难
不是你的就别再勉强

夜深了你还不想睡
你还在想着考题
你这开夜车到底累不累
明知考不到优秀成绩

只不过想好好读几科目
可惜它无法给你满分
多余的牺牲考官无心疼
你应该不会只想做个好人

噢算了吧
就这样忘了吧
该放就放再想也没有用
傻傻等待也考无所成果
你总该为自己想想未来

check it out! sung to the tune of 心太软

bad for health:

1. accusing other ppl, with that guy's notice. or poisoning the well with the person u trying to poison knowing wad is happening
2. putting words into other ppl's mouth oso. why not let the words come from ur own mouth? can train mouth muscle, so that u can chew the beef better. esp that type the tendon sibei chewing gum type.
3. trying to turn into a ghost and take control of another body, be it living, sane, insane, non-living, humane, inhumane, active, inactive.

thus, thou shalt not kill. else u will b a murderer. even if duno how to make peace, den juz sae, 我不知道。不要去装聪明，胡言乱语。thus, to ensure u dun do much things which are bad for health... take a nap. and sleep. and aestivate. and hibernate.

聽 海

nice song, u can find the man version around too.

if i can rewind back some time and make some changes, maybe i shld learn about the conservation of quotients very young. so that i may be in a better state of mind, body and soul from a very young age.

ang ki guai.

some people wait a lifetime, for a moment... like this? maybe many ppl nid to wait a lifetime for a moment like that. some are lucky, wad they tink, wa. suddenly appear in front of their life. lucky ppl.

but are lucky ppl better off? to some extent yes. easy life. happy happy. 得过且过。easy man. but sometimes because of this, they hav unlimited wants.

hard life ppl? they face challenging times. they get stronger. but doesn't mean they are happier as well, as they gotta face hardships which can turn one sot.

ai kun liao. tmr wake up early. and clear head. good for health.

si liao si liao... i feel stress sia. 对身体健康不好。

b4 test liddat. bad sign. bad sign. feel stress = not good. means if go in got higher chance to underperform. haiz. let's hope got way to cure such state of mind soon.

go easy on my conscience, cos it's not my fault. i know i've been taught to take the blame.

bo bian liao. nid play toto liao. hope for the best.