no future? u can always look on the present. u can always ask someone to give you the present. sometimes, stopping may be a good way to progress. sometimes, a halt may be a good choice to create extra space. tink about soccer. u run with the ball in front, but in front all defender. they all in good position to tackle u. since u are advancing, they will move back little by little. suddenly u stop. ahh. suddenly left and right got space. can pass. can make advancements. isn't it.

we shld all learn to make appropriate stop on the soccer field.

cool

for some entertainment?

my ball may not be the most suitable. neither is my line. my ball may not be the strongest, neither my line may fit my ball. my line adjustments may not be the most educated prediction, neither is my ball changes. but sorry. sometimes, feeling works very well. combined with a little bit of exposure & experience, a little thinking, and belief in yourself, and of course, luck. everyone may very well be a winner.

原来如此。

sometimes it's bad for health, especially when someone u noe has very good memory. it's not a good ting to have a very very powerful memory. wad we call hyperthymesia. u can't forget a thing u did since some age. can recall vividly certain details which seem unsignificant to most ppl on a specific day. it's not good to hav this type of boss eh? haha.

but as i recently usually tok, 冤冤相报何时了？even if u do remember bad stuff about other ppl, sometimes juz forgive them. it's good for health to forgive. rather than harbour fat hatred, and then when u c that guy, hey idiot wa ai hoot le ji liap. i'm sure he'll let u whack very willingly.

但是最近的确有点奇怪。有些事情很像无缘无故发生，分析也不懂为什么。but sometimes, do we hav to bother y? a minimalistic approach can be good for health rite. haha.

freudian psychoanalytic theory of defence mechanisms. not bad. why do ppl defend their stands, and sometimes submit to others? defence of urself. wad is an ego? every interesting qn. i wld sae ego is ur own pride mixed with your value system. a humble person can be egoistic, and so can the reverse be true as well. a very assertive person can be a living void, with a lack of self-esteem. when u are attacked, wad do u do? u will protect ur ego. the way u do it, depends on urself. ur value system. or, of course, u can always use the conscious mind to stop urself from making any extreme moves and cause unhappiness.

sometimes choosing the conscious mind to control and moderate urself is a good thing. however, sometimes it's good to allow urself to express fully. ego needs to be protected. it is one's pride. but the problem is this - if ego somehow breeds into a "i am living god" thinking, wa si le lao bei, wa si dua kia, i holier than thou. den. all i can sae, good luck to such a person. hehe.

save the world. everyone, shut ur mouths up. HAHA

it's not good to be found out.
it's worse to reveal ur underground activities.
it's worst to even start to get involved.

bad for health. underground taiwanese dealings shld b stopped, and anywhere else in the world. so i shld stop getting into my cash dealings and start doing things which i am expected to be doing. heh

真的这么惨吗？

maybe, it all amounts up to nothing at all. the world may end at 2012 wad. HAHA

how much shld u hate?

apparently i'm wrong. there seem to be some unhappiness that one will never forget, some hatred that one can never forgive the other person for.

is there a need to hate so much? i dun tink so. when u are not happy wif a person, analyse wad's wrong. den, if u are a nice person, tell him wad u tink he can improve on. why keep it all inside, unhappy, see him fight? got point meh? why not take a step back and improve each other? haiz.

some ppl may say, certain hatred are too big to forgive. then i got 1 remedy. juz shuddup and live ur own life, dun bother, rather than make trouble and spread trouble about this person. lousy attitude man most ppl, after buay song den go sae sae sae. if u wan to sae, u shld oso include how that guy can improve, and end by saying i'm an asshole and i dowan to tell him how to improve imo. rite??

bu ar, wa si bo tao nao kia.

sometimes i wonder. older=experience. so all the more, we shld trust them, listen to them. this applies to a very large extent. unless this person hasn't seen the harshness of reality, or is somewhat disabled, then there is a difference. we shld learn to trust ppl who are 1 generation above us. they will have more experience. unless they are younger than u la haha.

想用一杯latte把你灌醉
好让你能多爱我一点
暗恋的滋味你不懂这种感觉
早有人陪的你永远不会
看见你和他在我面前
证明我的爱只是愚昧
你不懂我的那些憔悴
是你永远不曾过的体会

chorus: 为你付出那种伤心你永远不了解
我又何苦勉强自己爱上你的一切
你又狠狠逼退我的防备
静静关上门来默数我的泪
明知道让你离开他的世界不可能会
我还傻傻等到奇迹出现的那一天
直到那一天你会发现
真正爱你的人独自守着伤悲

看见你和他在我面前
证明我的爱只是愚昧
你不懂我的那些憔悴
是你永远不曾过的体会

明知道让你离开他的世界不可能会
我还傻傻等到奇迹出现的那一天
直到那一天你会发现
真正爱你的人独自守着伤悲

bridge (nice chord change)

曾经我以为我自己会后悔
不想爱得太多痴心绝对
为你落第一滴泪
为你作任何改变
也唤不回你对我的坚决

chorus

but whatever it may take, however my heart breaks, i'll keep singing in the rain till u're back again.

ccb. juz shut up. sometimes, it's the best ting to do, it's a blessing to learn to shut up. so i shld learn to shut up. haha

nice one wenger. i totally agree with him. that's too bad world - elitism is good for health to a large extent.

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Arsenal manager Arsene Wenger has cautioned against raising the age at which young footballers can move between clubs.

The transfer ban imposed on Chelsea over their alleged poaching of Lens winger Gael Kakuta, now 18, in 2007 has prompted suggestions the system be overhauled.

"Look at the alternative. The player will be sold anyway," said Wenger.

"To whom? To agents. At what age? At 13, 14. Where will they go? Not to top-level clubs with top-level education."

“If a player goes to Man United, Chelsea or Arsenal it's all clear and he gets a good education. Fifa can come here and immediately I open the door for inspection to show them what we do and how we treat the boys. That's not the case everywhere. There are some places in Brazil where the boys do not have the same conditions or treatment we have here.

“If you have a child who's gifted at football, what is his best opportunity to develop as a player? If you have a child who's very gifted for music, you try to put him in a good music school, not in an average one. Why should that not happen in football? I've been long enough in the game to be convinced that the best must play with the best — there's no better education.

“[Cesc] Fabregas has not wasted his time here. We took advantage of a period of Barcelona that was messy, and [Lionel] Messi is a good example. Barcelona took Messi from Argentina at the age of 12, paid for his medical treatment and brought his entire family over.

“Messi is the best player in the world and a good counter-example of what Fifa is fighting against. In Barcelona he got a good education and was looked after medically. Should you forbid that?

Wenger also suggested that the influx of talent helps, rather than hinders, young English players.

"To expose your local players to top-world class players does not harm your players, it improves your players," he added.

"It respects one basic rule - the best to become better have to play better."

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if a young kid wif extraordinary talent in music is sent to the best sch for music, why not a very good young talented footballing kid who wants to pursue a better way of playing football go to man utd at age 12? or any other club wif good youth training?

let's assume this guy is english, he's very good, age 13. playing for div 2 club. suddenly top club see, wan buy. why cannot buy? u shld let the guy go and get better footballing chance. isn't it? when he get better, he will make it for england a team, and then contribute to country oso. similarly, let's sae foreign talent. frenchie tio bought by top english club. then trained well, become very good. he will oso contribute to his own country. his OWN country. while playing for the club as well. win win isn't it?

i understand. not enuff english kids to play for england isit? personally, i dun tink so. there is rather enuff english talent. defoe was from west ham acad. agbolanhor oso not bad. ben foster oso english, though not 1st team, but still good enuff for int'l. in my opinion, it's juz a mental block. sooner or later, more english young ppl will rise up on epl stage. BUT this will need all ppl to cooperate, let the best young english player go and train at the top, assuming that they will make it to top club's 1st team. a big assumption, but i tink ppl shld b optimistic.

we muz bluff ourselves that hc teachers are alllll very good.

look at a certain sch student. i go there teach tuition for my cip prog i am in. wah. student sibei enthu. but then wad happen? all this duno that duno, not say thye can't understand oso. but seriously. their teacher duno is wad. kia si lang ar. got 2 classes of student all sign up why? cos teacher too lousy, den sign up. in the end sae we teach better, the teacher like nv do anyting. i mean plz, if u go through sth. juz take some time to let ppl noe. den finish alr. instead of wad teach teach teach. cos nothing one. heh maybe i oso commit this crime la. but aiyo. student enthu but duno anyting, rly set me suspecting whether teacher pon.

nvm. now ai bowling 1st time in 5 day. let's see whether i will deprove. if never deprove, i chop my head off. and then celebrate wif it.

HAHA

Try to throw the picture out of my mind
try to leave the memories behind
Here by the ocean
wave's carry voices from you
Do you know the truth
I am thinking of you too

....

The love we had together
just fades away in time
And now you've got your own world
and I guess I've got mine
But the passion that you planted
in the middle of my heart
is a passion that will never stop
ABD(up)EF#ABD(up)F# AF#EDE DC#D ....


from someday by mltr.

sianded. pw sibei ka jiao.

even as i dance across the floor, and everyone is calling out for more, somewhere in my heart i feel alone.

is it worth it to be achieving everything, and end up wif a mountain of cash? in another way, is it fulfilling to everyday be some altruistic guy, and have nothing for yourself? it all boils down to personal satisfaction. do you derive satisfaction in making urself the best? or do you derive satisfaction watching others happy?

seems like many nowadays choose both. they want themselves to be the best, while at the same time they will do things to help others. BUT. sorry. for certain ppl, they aren't so holy. why they want to help others? because it's soul cleansing to them. be fair arh. SOME ppl arh, they do community work for soul cleansing. u noe wad i tell these ppl? if u hate doing community work, plz seriously, go help urself 1st. ur main aim is to help urself to look better as a altruistic chap, rather than actually whole-heartedly help ppl.

next. perfection doesn't seem to be present in the world. but why do we still strive towards it? haha. tink about it. we shld learn to be less expecting of ourselves, and work together to greater good with greater efficiency. look at the birds. "When birds fly in the right formation, they need only exert half the effort. Even in nature, teamwork results in collective laziness." not bad eh. be realistic. "dreams are juz like rainbows: only idiots chase them". sure, u can set good targets. but when u dream big, plz wake up and slap urself at the same time too. to keep ur dream in check, b4 u will 走火入魔。

gong jiao huay. nehneh.

tired days, though hols. haha. never slp enuff even though it's hols. play game, study, play bowling. aiyo. idiot. when are u gonna get a rest? hahaha. i duno seriously

MLTR - The War Is Not Over

suddenly mltr sings an inspirational song out of all the love songs! not bad sia this one.

i reckon it's a resing anw, but it's ok. nice song.

and there came to pass, that two foolish old men were to meet. one was with 2 women drinking, another was alone, albeit drunk. and for no reason, the man alone approacheth the man drinking, speaking in tongue, thou art worse than a prick. lo, the man drinking was incensed, and push he the alone man down to the ground. as loser as he was, he took forth a chair and slammed on him. and my friend telleth me, let us not participate, for they are foolish, and there will be no outcome. alas, there was no outcome.

a short summary of wad happened after i was watching show at a place somewhere in s'pore a few hours ago.

and there came to pass a man, who was deep in thought. and the wise man said unto him, thy thoughts not put into action are as good as pulp not turned into paper. but this man angered, and saith unto the wise man, thy words have i shuffed up my butt, so that i may carry on doing nothing. for doing nothing is productivity compared to evildoing.

but sometimes there is a problem eh. u duno when ur idea is good. or when this idea put into practice may turn out good. or sometimes they sae, u shld do someting. but wad if u tink of something bad? can you do? probably not. or something u perceive will breed harmony, but when u carry it out, effects are disastrous. worth giving it a try? haha i duno. calculate costs and benefit then hahahaha

idiot. gamble gamble. in the end oso losing end. looks like taking no gamble is good. but that's wrong. u take no gamble, u gain nothing. u gamble too much, u may lose too much oso.

is the status quo good? heh. i duno. dat's up to u to sae. but as they sae, man is. greedy. man is selfish. man wants progress. wants change. status quo usually is not preferred. so ppl will try to make progress. and one of the fundamental way to progress is to gamble. but fail liao, then blame hu? i oso duno. heh. solve ur own problem, scarly can't solve then how? i oso duno.

start? or wait for someone to start?

if u start, ppl may not be infected. u wait for someone to start, no one may start. good problem.