jonj aura pls come back to me. y did u wan to change to 3 fingers? i tot u were happy wif 2 fingers? suddenly not enuff pleasure nid change position so suddenly use 3 finger?

heh. 2 fingers mastered. but it seems that this method will b reserved for the extra hook style. less aggressive hook will nid the 3 finger hook. but most advanced level of hook is gonna b those straight one. nid master, sensei, boss to teach me. nooooooooooooo. maybe shld joke. buy plastic which has flareeeee.

haiz. if i had the chance to invest more time in bowling. IF. now sch gonna start soon. looks like a good chance wil b during chalet, which i will turn into my personal bowling retreat. sorry frens, but u will c a fkin nelly. when was a sociable person? maybe during certain food events, and certain games. heh.

Michael Learns To Rock - Whatever it may take

nice song. it's to a person. but i shldn't sae hu. in case ppl wan hav weird tinking

erpz. any bowling tips for a noob 3 finger bowler? gg man. after making the decision to b a good boy and use 3 finger, epic failed. fail like crap. if u are reading here and u use 3 fingers to bowl hook, pls giv some advice.

i was wondering. how big are hooks? muz it b sexy one like wad i wan? heh. that one is the only type of hook i master. the fat hook. and my ball is actually made for the fat hook, medium oil lanes. dry lanes the hook will gg.

but well. why ppl cant become smart? rather than investing in 20 balls, they shld allow multiple drilling. then 1 ball can play on any conditions cos they are drilled such that the hook is controlled. maybe those nellies in bowling went to research. i duno?

we'll see in time to come. meanwhile, i hav decided to b humble, and join bowling as a floor oiler. and not a pro.

shit. fk shit eat shit cock shit dick shit smegma la. mouth cracking again. maybe due to 10 days not eating medicine? sian. now there are a few nice horizontal and vertical cracks. now instead of attracting i'm like repeling. let's giv up the dreams.

lao die has lost his ??, let's start a brand new story now, my cock.

was just wondering. that time someone said to me, if u are a scholar, ur mindset is very good. confirm will succeed. i wonder is that true?

from many ppl i heard, who are in jobs now, scholars all s2pid idiot one. hav all the degree, blah blah, phd, but fail. fail in terms of tinking hav these ppl, fail in terms of interpersonal, fail in terms of business mindset etc. all sorts oso hav. but the ting they dun fail is in money. cos of their qualifications, they get more cash than dog workers who are 20 times more creative, better in interpersonal skills better in presentation. after this i was wondering, why are they scholars? is this a scholar? so blur. of course we cant discount that there are good scholars around. but i seem to hear, scholar rise up faster, get more money, but most of them are not good leaders or thinkers.

many ppl wan to be scholar, so that they can earn much money. so they in sch now, they plp, do everything to impress uni to giv them scholarship. or govt oso. very weird. but i was wondering, why i was even asked to apply scholarship, when i never even bother to plp. of course, i wouldn't mind applying scholarship. the money i can use to pay many things like bowling, books, or wadeva cca it is. and i heard if gt extra u can make merry. the thing y i dowan to become scholar is cos of pressure from myself. i see so many scholar fail, ppl complaining of fail scholar but earning more cash and rising faster, i scared i am gonna turn into such a scholar. and get 看贬. and i will wan to prove myself as a true scholar. when i tell ppl this, they tell me if i scholar i will b useful, cos of this mindset. but i tell u, normal human will tell me le sot diao ar?

well, i wonder how u tink. how must a scholar think? sit down and earn money or prove that u are as useful as ur qualifications? irresponsible idiots will sae sit down and earn money after getting all the degree through scholarship. if u do agree with me.

i'm comin down with a heartache tonight,
only you can make it right,
If i can be with you holding you tight,
there will be no mornimg light

everywhere i turn i see your face
reminding me of a higher place,
everytime you smile, angels cry,
everytime you walk on by

i'm not the only one feelin lonely,
everytime you walk on by,
i try to say something, but end up with nothing,
everytime you walk on by,everytime you walk on by

i keep my cool, i pretend i'm not in
everytime you come too near( oh yeah),
I'm such a fool coz, this love is true
and if i don't tell you someone else surley will

everywhere i turn i see your face
reminding me of a higher place,
everytime you smile, angels cry,
everytime you walk on by


yar wad. never see b4 ppl feeling sian diao. i duno if i shld put here many stuff. better nt la. later got some idiot never c such thing b4 大惊小怪。but wad can i do? i know they say if u love somebody, u shld set them free. but it sure is hard to do. isn't it? well sometimes liddat one. too bad. work forward. but u too sian to even walk forward. heh. u tell me where can i find a person or place to bluff myself. bluff myself the world is all about balls and bowling. maybe like yao la. hoi ar sex is bad ar. i will find a method to reproduce for human without orgasm and sex. yes i'm sure. all animal nid sex then can reproduce. even frog muz cum themselves and shoot eggs. i duno la. when ppl mind is mess up u will type nonsense. hahahhahahhaahahahha

erpz. how's life boys. sian diao la nowadays. move house here there. move lioa go turkey come back immediately move again. make me feel as if i never throw enuff balls.

when i hav enuff cash my bowling ball inside u got c b4 skull ball? i put 1 j head 1 straight man head inside. ahh. good for health. hav a laugh during comps. that will b fun. if nid copyright i pay them cash can liao. ok that will b when i work.

lucky never tio shot in turkey. that is cos that country is secular. whew. politics and religion not 2gether. so u dun c ppl in white robes talking politics.

anyway if u wan to go to turkey, u may not find so interesting. maybe food. i didn't like their food actually. most la. cos all sour like worse than eating lime. the yoghurt, cheese this type of stuff all tasted worse than cheese. smegma. and then they eat wad. everyting soak in vinegar or olive oil. salad in olive oil or vinegar.... heh. i avoid all this. my staple food there was like wad. pepper. their chilli powder oso like tio soak b4 in that vinegar or wad.

another ting. u must b interested in like history, agriculture, and the abrahamic religions. that is christianity, islam, judaism. cos all the historical building there all concern this type of religion one. and some buildings are like for trader in the past to hide from bandit one. along silk road la. so they muz put buliding so they dun tio rob.

overall not bad la. all those buildings. but if u not interested in this type of thigns u may not like going there... but i will sae ok cos got those religion stuff.

u do sth, in the end u dun get much out of it. ppl sae, aiya experience ma. o yes. is experience very impt? juz look at sex. u go geylang, pay money, sex. ya. u dun get much. maybe an std. got use meh? u experience wad? sth useless like std. smart. haha. but sometimes muz b optimist la. i noe sometimes, wad attach to uni researcher. liddat then hav use. but u attach and then dun get deal i feel wasted. very sad. no money no job. how hua? up to u to decide.

i duno. i very pessimistic one. i dun like means i dun like. u may not like me. but i never expected me to like my pessimistic nature. hahahahahahhahahahahhaha

......... i never knew puke was so smelly. never knew seriously




anw, it's every man for himself

naughty boy. one day plp. next day den 翻脸. impressive. using mouth to win ppl so easily? nothing to do. it's good and bad in the sense. u shut ppl else mouth. but did u understand u s2pid idiot, what do u gain? tok tok tok win others, ya u may get cash. in the end u learn anything? o mouth very big means cash is flowing. is that good for health? maybe for u.

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anw regarding another topic. naughty boys eh. act smart then after that change mind dowan act smart. act pro liao then after that decide dun act pro then act s2pid. c'mon la it is difficult to deny knowledge. juz like some ppl, it is difficult to deny character. once u smart, means u smart. cannot deny isn't it? u try deny. after that in the end will fail one. u humble means u humble. deny humble and go boast? ppl will tink u siao gao. but of course, for certain negative character trait, u muz try to deny. good characteristic dun deny. ppl will tink u idiot act humble only. but u true humble then nvm, but u still muz sae, but not boast. for negative character, when ppl spot, ahhhh. what is ur reaction? we'll see. i duno wad to sae anw. cont another time, and if i do rmb wad i type.

terrorist naughty. naughty. attack here attack there. threat here threat there. i duno wad's wrong. but i believe islam is not so bad religion. isn't it? promise those ppl some virgins in heaven, brainwashing, and ta da. magic. let's go whack ppl. we'll see. i duno wad's gona happen, but.... hahhahahahahaaa. i duno wad's the future. but as christians sae, i may not know the future, but i know who is controllling. if it is god's will that i die, then bye bye lor. we cant do anything wad.

juz like commando drowning, can swim, everything. but suddenly drown. and maybe he's christian. then wad can i sae? too bad. seriously. god sae u die, means u die. heh. juz like if god happy, sae tmr ahh u shall heart attack. i can do anything? interesting eh

when was life easy? but unfortunately, if u c tings from different angle, u will noe. hu wins? maybe nobody. one becomes stupid, but ppl c as clever. the other is actually clever, but is seen as s2pid. giv u 1 example. there is a talent in humanities, can debate, talk, propaganda, everything. but unfortunately, he decide to pit his wits against this nel hu studies sciences, and not those theory one. those facts/convention type. then the nel sae all the stuff of facts, e.g. photosynthesis, wad acid-base reaction. the talent in humanities can do wad? nothing wad. there is nothing to debate here. and then the nel decide to xialan the humanities pro. and hu wins? humanities pro may be that type of analysis pro, he noe he nel oso can, but the nel beat him to nelling 1st. so the nel wins.

but the nel, s2pidly doesn't noe that he is s2pid. and xialan the humanities pro. so ppl see wa this nel imba sia. ximbal. but in this world, somehow, we treasure this type of nel more. naughty ppl, hav good life, excel in everyting. but well, one day if the humanities pro becomes more well-liked, and the nel is exposed, things may change. but in this world not so easy. duno why. the nel usually all very happy one. all very eng. very heng oso. somehow they will not b seen as idiot hu never care about others. well we hav many e.g. juz like young nels from a certain cca. nel nel nel, other ppl can do sth else, but unfortunately these other ppl 无用武之地, so they are phased out and then seen as lousy ppl. hahahhahahahhahahahhaaahhaahah

turn to channel 7 at a quarter to 8 u c the same damn thing it's just a different day and no one really knows but this is happening.

we come into this world, and we are all the same. or are we??? why do we need ppl to be born with certain characterisitics, which are apparently much more favoured? we love ppl hu plp. they succeed better in life. they juz do all those, fulfill all the criteria, plp, do this do that tok to teacher do big scale proj. isn't it? and then there's this bunch of ppl even worse. never do anything, open mouth, mesmerise ppl, and then get things. why? why we don't like those who slog their asses away, in the end ppl wif big mouth, or look nicer outside, they can win these hardworking ppl? very weird.

But the world is black, and hearts are cold, and there's no hope, that's what i'm told. yes, the world is black, we have the lucky, the smart, the talented, the tyco, the idiotic, the mouth. it is black because ppl can surpass other ppl by not doing anything. even i am black. i can surpass other ppl in music. some ppl surpass other ppl in wanking. i duno. some surpass in creativity. isn't it. where is fairness? ppl who ork hard may not get what they want in the end. and oso non-conformist oso difficult life. seriously. if u had been refusing to conform to things that you feel are stupid, u will understand. those who plp hav a much easier life, while u stand firm to ur values and beliefs and fail. agree?

wad is successful? using brain, mouth, be dog, ka jiao others, wank? i duno. wad is successful to u? for me i not sure. i duno wad is succesful. but i do noe fail. wad is fail to me? fail means a time to wake up and then start to work and get better. that's how u get better. u success all the way, and then confirm u will fail as person. cos u too successful u tell others they will sae idiot are u here to b funny wif me?

get slapped on the face, and u will udnerstand. that's how i learn. by getting slapped, by failing. dun aim success all the time. but i hav a problem. i like to put success the bar very low. is that bad or good? i duno. but it make me happy. but the problem is other ppl later better. then i will not happy. it's ok. the brain is supposed to work in a weird way. but i tink the problem here is that i'm typing incoherently, so i tink no one will understand wad i'm saying here. hehehehehh.

This world is not my home, I'm just passing through
My treasures are laid up somewhere beyond the blue
The angels beckon me from Heaven's open door
And I can't feel at home in this world anymore


Chorus

O Lord you know I have no friend like you
If Heaven's not my home, then Lord what will I do?
The angels beckon me from Heaven's open door
And I can't feel at home in this world anymore

They're all expecting me and that's one thing I know
My Savior pardoned me and now I onward go
I know He'll take me through, though I am weak and poor
And I can't feel at home in this world anymore

Chorus


Just up in Glory Land we'll live eternally
The Saints on every hand are shouting victory
Their song of sweetest praise drifts back from Heaven's shore
And I can't feel at home in this world anymore


chorus

nehneh. it's time to invest. i shall reach the bus number that comes to my bus in anytime. but well. it's all down to hard work.

dun jiak bitter, next time oso duno how to jiak bitter. now makan bitter stuff, next time u will be better able to deal wif problems that come ur way. for e.g. now i wan to do research stuff. if i research not success, then oso muz deal wif those problem. or my research already tio patent. i patent wad? my shit? so u muz deal wif problems. or shld i say noe how to deal wif problems.

it is time to invest. but i duno whether it's a good idea. i gona ask pro 1st.

some christians are greedy. or shld i sae they are told to be greedy.

unfortunatley it is the fact. for christians, the more ppl we bring to become christian, or we sae bring to christ, the more cash, gold, silver... riches in heaven we have. that's true. but some ppl like to bring fren to become christian cos of this. so tht u hav the reward. is this attitude correct? i'm not sure. but i feel that this is obviously morally wrong. u dun evangelise and bring ppl to church juz for the cash in heaven. tht is a very bad attitude. it's like i'm going to work at govt, even though i dun like it, and it's for the cash and so that i can plp the minister direct.

the right attitutde of this shld b more like cos i dowan my fren, or my family to die in hell. so i bring them to church, get them become christian. so tht they go heaven. but actually religion ins'pore is very sensitive issue. juz like in all countries. it is not easy to get a person to go to others religion. so i dun force christianity on ppl usually. sadly of course we hav nice ppl hu try to be nice and smart. but in the end are stupid, and they piss off others. heh. like the horsie fellow.

more bowling. shld i invest heavily? but i wonder if i join comps myself can win any cash back or not haha. it seems like some sort of a no future game to me. but well... it's all for the fun of it. we'll see in future wad happens. u c the jasmine yeong-nathan she muz kpkb den gahmen giv wad. $10000

originally written, a great and funny story. scored a c5 anyway. pro story. muz read. by original jokerhar. not me. i would never be able to write so imbaly haha

i tink it's some exam or test. the qn is "The new bus driver".

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"Alright kids, board the bus quickly, or else we'll be late," said an unfamiliar voice. As I boarded the bus, my eyelids twitched, as if they sensed that something was wrong. I peered at the man behind the steering wheel - he was roughly six feet tall, was rather hairy and had a scar on his left hand.

"Don't look at me like that. Uncle Ben has gone overseas. I'll be covering his duty till her returns. In the meantime, everyone sit tight and enjoy the ride," the driver announced to the students.

Something was not right. I knew for sure that there was something wrong with the bus driver. however, no one else shared my views and feelings. "Maybe it's just me and my over-sensitive brain," I thought.

Two weeks passed by. Uncle Ben still had not returned. Something was definitely wrong. Everyday when I board the bus, I still experience that same omnious feeling. I could not pinpoint what exactly caused me to feel that way. Nothing confirmed my suspicions, until that day...

"Students, we are now going to break off for the two hours of free time, during which you all can roam about as you wish, but," Ms Tan said. "Hurray!" our cheers interrupted Ms Tan. Ms Tan continued with a stern look, "but, the ranger has instructed that all students are to keep away from the lake located east of the swamp. Anyone caught lingering near the restricted area will be severely dealt with."

Curiosity got the better of me and I decided to sneak into the restricted area. I crouched behind a bush and when the rangers there were not looking, I crept stealthily under the fence.

After fifteen minutes of walking, I still spotted nothing. "What's so dangerous about this place?" I muttered to myself.

Suddenly, a thunderous roar filled the air. I quickly took cover behind a log. My heart started to perform paroxysms in my chest as i started to imagine from where or from what the roar had come from. My eyes scanned the area for any impending danger. Spurts of adrenaline coursed through my veins as beads of cold perspiration trickled down my face.

Minutes passed and I had already calmed down. I had already seen, or rather heard enough. Getting back on my feet, I felt a stream of hot air blowing against my neck. My heart froze for a second. I turned around and to my horror, a hairy beasat was standing right behind me, panting and saliva was dripping from his wide open mouth. He was six feet tall, and had an awfully familiar scar on his left hand.

Frightened, I darted right back where I cam from. The beast was right behind me. There was no way I was going to out run that thing. I clamped my eyes shut as I felt the impending doom nearing...

Bang! Someone fired a shot. It hit the beast's right arm. Blood spurt out from his wound. The beast let out a scream as a snarl of agony spread across his face. Clutching his injured arm, it disappeared into the distance.

I escaped the incident with nothing but a few minor scratches. I made a pact with the rangers to keep what I have done from Ms Tan and in return, I would keep what I saw to myself.

"The scar, where did I see it before? Could it be? I mean," I thought as I boarded the bus home.

"Quick, get up the bus," the bus driver interrupted my thoughts.

I felt the sensation of a spider crawling up and down my back when I saw the driver's right arm in a bandage.

"Oh, I fell and injured myself," the driver replied, with his eyes turning bloodshot.

I shivered.

ooo 1st time i saw a 4-10 split saved ytd.

u can achieve perfection, that is best. 最高境界。but tink about it. not all the time can achieve. so sometimes muz b like me. slap urself. tell urself ur not the best. there is much to improve. by doing this then u can improve. if u kip tinking that u can o b the best all the time, i tell u u can do that, juz dat in the end ppl tink u idiot, and u never self-improvement. and lose out. simple.

they sae the beginning of becoming smart, wise, intelligent, gain knowledge, is to slap urself and tell urself that u are stupid, blur cock, and that ur not the best. even if u seem to b the best. in that way, then u can start improving. ppl may tell u, u are imba. etc. but to improve, u muz tell urself there is much room to b better than now.

maybe shld start taking up some dialects. which is nearly impossible. but disappointingly we can see many ppl dumping chinese for the ang moh appearance. ang moh power? haha. well we'll see. but i duno. i duno whether i will become ang moh. but apparently very disappointing i tok to most ppl in english. but incidentally many gd fren of mine we speak singlish or chinese. which is not bad. weird stuff. many ppl celebrating cos no nid study chinese anymore. i oso celebrate. but forgetting chinese? i dun tink i will.

go china nid speak. go taiwan nid speak. go hk u duno cantonese then muz use chinese. go macau worse bo chinese means cantonese or u go act pro learn portuguese. can learn portuguese to tok wif ronaldo kaka ronaldinho robinho mourinho blah blah sia. den u go m'sia many places if u speak chinese it may be better, unless u yalam can speak till not bad. i duno but cos if ang moh to u is very sexy, then y not live in scandinavian country? u can go there learn all the high class languages. let's see. english over there more imba then uk english. den u go there learn french, swiss, swedish, dutch, norwegian, german. duno. up to u. for me i staying asian. maybe it's time to take up tamil, hindi, arabic, hebrew. haha

many philosophies gained. but wadeva. well. time to back to s'pore life. makan everyting back, throw heavy ball. hahahahahaahhahhaah.

heh. after reading mccain speech after hon put smb ask us read, i decide to b a gracious loser oso. well i am not main loser. i support ferrari, but unfortunately idiot hamilton win. but i shall b more gracious. i muz congratulate sth.

wad i read is that, of course mcclaren/merc they hav a research game theory place in britains. u noe game nellies, math nellies, etc. they sitting infront of com screen for the brazil race. they nellying there. and they suddenly find o last 3 laps raining. ho sei ah hamilton put wet tyre. i tink that time he was 5th that time, glock was 4th, and then vettel juz behind hamilton. so the nellies said, o let vettel pass, cos glock suay diao he dry tyres then raining forced to drive extra slow. so there he is. vettel pass hamilton. then i tink the final 2 laps the nellies sae, good. let vettel chiong pass glock, and then hamilton will also pass glock, and then he will hav 4 points and beat massa safely, rather than wan pass glock wif vettel right bhind later cause collision. so mcclaren got smart ppl playing game theory. heh. impressive.

but well wad can i sae. at the end of the day i hope hamilton one day find out he hav some problem. bang raikonnen 1 time, di siao raikonnen, at japan try to ka jiao but den fail diao. well. he may win this year, but i hope schumacher can go kik his balls and make it fly back to uk so that he will understand wad is wrong.

spoilt my mood b4 o level. that is so smart. idiot. u tink very fun?

fkin cb. u can call me s2pid or wad. i am pist to forced to apply for that s2pid moe scholarship ting. many will be so happy and celebrating. they are getting the fkin scholarship. idiot.

u tink get scholarship very big? i tell u no. i heard many story. my father kpkb his company inside all the scholar get all the big post, but they are STUPID. idiots. CAN'T SOLVE PROBLEMS. how useful is a scholar u tell me? and the worst ting. i hav a feeling there is some stuff regarding this ting. it may sae bondless la. but u tell me. bondless? MOE. u wan me to come back as teacher. how many teachers who are scholar fail? FAIL? as far as i noe our sch hav many useless teachers, and apparently they are scholars. apparently certain very good ones there are less. and those good one, e.g. teocc. nothing at all. no qualification. but they are good teacher.

well. anyways. if i do become a scholar, everybody, pls remind me not to be an idiot scholar who is s2pid and cant use my brain. juz look at gahmen. so many scholars there, but they come out wif s2pid ideas. i heard moe so screw cos they giv scholar the job and then they come out wif tings like gep blah blah smp blah blah. but then they weren't very useful. HEH. anyway i tink i'm unhappy cos i'm forced to submit by 12 nov. which is impossible. cos i'm away in taiwan. and i'm LAZY. LAZY to even write 1 page and fill in app and photocopy stuff, BY TOMORROW. fkin cb. very fun to b smart? yes, if u love to see the awards and scholarship. IDIOT. i did it once, i din plan life and got are interview. fk off man. u tink plan life will get u somewhere? well to a certain extent. but i will live a happier life cos i know i hav not planned my life nicely.

monopoly. is this the way to go? i tink well of course, in some tings. there muz b a certain level of monopoly. for e.g. smart ppl. elitism. this is sort of a monopoly. u noe. u hav this smart guy and then he's performing well in studies and u feed him more and then he become smarter and get sth good out of it. and then he oso helps others cos he's smart and help other to improve themselves. which is good. but then it's abit crappy to hav too much monopoly.

take and e.g. our tv. rmb last time, there were channel u and channel i. they were doing very well, called mediaworks or sth. and then they decide to join wif mediacorp. this is wad i call cock monopoly. from wad i saw, more like media corp losing and then decide to hey i giv u sth nice and den i makan u ok? and now see wad is happening to our tv shows. all not so nice. of course there are certain nice hong kong, taiwan blah blah drama serials. but can they attract the viewership of 真情？if u ever rmb, this show was very nice. but i heard there were some sort of a bribing going on and then they stop showing. irritating.

another type of monopoly is sport monopoly. u hav the biggest cash u sign the best player. is this good idea? i dun really tink so. ppl look for cash and they play cock football. is this good? money good to a certain extent. but if idiots like sheeks and romans and russians and oil and sex come into football, it juz become another fantasy football. oil seller try to fantasise o my za bor can fit soccer ball into her cb. got use meh?

i noe the use of the word monopoly here is wrong. but too bad saya vocab 三脚猫都不如。请大家原谅。哈哈

nehneh facebook not happy wif me. idiot. so slow. nvm. i'll find a way. and i tink i've already know how to settle it.

beware when u talk to the press. muz b extra cautious, extra plp, extra politcally correct. or else u're gone. like the wad za bor. spend money too much or wad. but i duno how true it is. but i dun care. maybe she juz sae sth suay den tio. cos reporter all liddat one muz tok juicy then got ppl read. it's a profession. so too bad. i duno.

see it, feel it, and draw. and smile.

i wonder is it very difficult to go and know a person i greater detail? do you prefer to have very little frens who u know very well, or many frens but u noe a shit about them, other than that they wank or do not? think about it. i tell u there are many factors to make ppl click, and one of the few factors is about introvert, and extrovert. notice introvert ppl prefer to noe less ppl, but they are closer to these. extrovert very nice to all, plp everybody. but many end up wif maybe no close fren. which is not very good. the type which is pro of course, in the middle. hav good frens and can make many frens type.

but i tell u, sometimes extroverted ppl should come and understand introvert. u tink u extrovert tok about sex very pro? i tell u, no. N O. NO. not nitrogen oxide. u all love masses, isn't it extroverted ppl. but is that the best thing on earth? to me it's not. it's juz a way to laugh at a person's ass or dick. who longer hu smaller hu bigger. hu fatter. i duno. but at the end of the day do u hav some ppl u noe very very well? i'm not sure. very weird. i tell u now, i dun like to b in a mass. and that means i tink 10 ppl i oso cant tahan. of course if go party, i understand. but u tell me, if u wan to hav good friendship, 10 ppl together make frenship? fk off la. more like gang bang or mass wank or mass sex. tink about it. u hav a wife. u sex her. 1 on 1. close relationship. u hav 5 men 5 women. orgy. got close relationship? dun hav. it's juz mass sex and ppl niao each other about dick size. pls la. i duno. if u love to hav many frens but no close ones, not my fault then. i cant control the way u are.

but spare a thought for poor introverted ppl like me. apparently we can see many introverted ppl following extroverted masters like little dogs looking for master. 主人，今天我讲的鸟话厉害吗？无聊透顶，讲话需要别人来叫你怎样讲鸟话？去面试就不同，但是讲鸟话每个人都可以讲。内向的人，你可能觉得你不能和他们好好交往，但是你有试过吗？没有就不要乱讲话。不要以为你有很多朋友你很厉害，有权威。其实可能一个真心朋友都没有，以后需要别人的支持帮助，看你除了疏远的家人之外，还有谁能来帮你？呵呵

彻底被拥有。但是老爹还不是很成功。即使这样，我办的不错了吧

bloody new blog skin. wan act cute wif me eh. dun let ppl select. sorry. i'm not that type dun allow copying type. cos when i read com i like to highlight highlight. so too bad. i decide to remove.

thanks alot to miniclip for this clip. very nice.

but sometimes i wonder y that mc cain go choose palin. my fren told me cos of za bor. dat time hillary everyone shiok. now got obama black. nid sth special. so mccain go act pro get za bor dat he not very sure about and work wif him. well. m si wa business.

fkin ccb. u tink wad. life planning will get u very far? i love playing the game of life. but i do see ppl playing the game of no life and winning me. very disappointing. the singapore society love life planners. i believe ang moh oso love life planners. just take kanasai as an example. i duno whether she is interested, or isit that she life planning. but i quite sense she life plan. nehneh. the game of no life requires to do good life planning which does not promise u a good life, but u do paint a wonderful road of cash for yourself, or else wonderful road of power and which means cash as well. young boy, u tink u all are better? i wonder whether i will show u wad is better.

anw if u are genuine person, u are passionate about everything, tell me that in my face, without the look that cos i am more successful and i am holding fkin more cold hard cash than u idiot. but if i sense any lack of proper ting in u, u can go and fk off. and shuff ur dick up ur arse. i tell u if urs is long enuff. not long enuff go order one from subway.

i may lose out. as i typed before. i may lose out cos i never plp. maybe i'm s2pid not to plp, and in the end lose out. yes, i am losing out on my future, i am losing out on cash, i am losing out on power and glory. but am i losing out on doing justice for ppl who do things according to passion? am i losing out spiritually? boy boy, i noe all of u easily can whack my butt off by showing me ur own s2pid cold hard bank account based in switzerland. and without any 洗钱。你性感，我不性感，但是谁是真正的赢者？如果你是真的厉害，我输得心服口服。但是你其实是一堆卑鄙无耻虚伪的一团 kanasai, 我为何跪下拜你？我跟你坦白讲，我宁愿拜 jonj, 也不要服从你这种 life planner.

losing out on society is one thing. facing up to urself is another. many dun agree with me. they sae face up to urself = plp, it means sucking up to everything, 做对自己有利益的事情。虽你去做你自己的判断分析。如果你觉得你是喜欢什么都作，变成社会的钱狗，而不是靠着优点长处而已做出一鸣惊人的事情，那我也无话可说。

there are many good things to remember. but there are bad things as well. i don't know why, but i prefer to look forward and work on what i have now. and not looking backward and working backward. u shld work on something that u have done or achieved, rather and look and sae, so sexy baby.

i will be very realistic. maybe it's the same topic, but i tink shld mention again

i know there are many people out there trying to ask me, why i never go and achieve more. i know with my working ability, i can get into council when i was sec 1 or 2. just that i didn't. i don't know why at 1st, but i just hated the idea of council. maybe i'm not so ra ra guy. but i think the main reason was that i don't want to be 虚伪，or on the other extreme, the person who tank all the crap. y i go there and waste time, although can get good portfolio? many ppl hu go council, dun deny lar. u wan to serve den sae. u got forced by teacher, ok i still can believe. but those who fake go in, sorry. u will not get my respect. but i tink most are like not purposely want one. probably teacher keep pestering them go. but then u choose, u still make decision. and if u are a bad guy, how do i trust that u go council do something good? so i also didn't want to face this situation, i din go council.

next, over academic achievement. i know i also can participate in this comp that comp. many ppl around me go many comps. but i never. i tink most of it is cos i'm lazy. and i dowan to do another proj without frens. i feel very pangseh. duno y. so i never. and because of laziness, i never go many competitions. many ppl sae waste. but i dun really think waste. i spend the leftover time having time to slack. shld i sae resting. why everyday do this and that slog ur fkin ass out for maybe a few more mentions in your personal statement? it may giv u an edge over me in the working world. but do i look scared? i may not get a high paying job as those who plp. but i tell u, i can face up to my conscience, but for u, ur money came from plp. and maybe less substance. we'll see. i will lose out. but so far i'm not afraid yet.

also about relationship with others. i take fren very seriously. many ppl are not my fren. only some are friends. some are good friends. other lumped under acquaintance. what is friendship to u? to many ppl, it is a way to show their ego and get their ego boost. when the other guy sae something plp, or ego boosting, they will sae o u're my fren cos u boost my ego. or some like to be with others who will niao them, will sae some bad ting about them blah blah. i duno y these ppl call ppl hu kar jiao them frens. pls la. get a friend at least who u can communicate ur feelings with, and where there are no ego boosting and competitiveness but useful criticism and correct praising. and also watch out u noe. 沟通感情重要，但是你要当心他是不是欺骗你的感情，还是真正想互相分享事情。简单讲，如果我跟你沟通不了感情，你永远做不了我的好朋友，而且如果你来找我的原因是要承着我的睾丸，我建议你去吸吸别人的脚。if your friend does nothing useful to you, is he a friend? and if friends cannot communicate effectively due to any problems, is this good friendship? well people have different view. so this is my view.

以上不是金科玉律，而是我的想法。不需要去跟随我的想法，没有用的。and remember i hate copyrights. dun hav to copy me fully, and dun pray to me as well. praying to me does nothing to yourself.

恶心。这种看丙。真是无耻。我这生命上从来也没有看过这么无耻的小朋友。原来，最近我的好朋友，你终于决定露出你的老鼠尾巴。对。老鼠。不是狐狸。因为狐狸做东西时，虽然卑鄙下贱，他们光明正大，不是在那里慢慢转圈圈。有时候，你要学会从洞里站出来，不要以为你的老鼠洞可以保护你一辈子，因为我总有一天会叫我的蚂蚁朋友把你的老鼠洞搞破坏。呵呵。如果你觉得你有所领悟，现在改过自新，还有机会拯救自己，避免你自己堕落成一堆大便，或者说一粒大便。但是如果你觉得你是世界上最有权利的小朋友，那你就继续这样做，我都不能阻止你，因为我在前没有什么权利。哈哈。

if you are good, u cant deny it. people can say bad things, but then u can just ignore because there are those who know u are really good, rather than those fake good one. however if u are bad, and you go and think you are good, then there is a problem with you. find out where to change your mindset now. rather than u wait until u start getting a job and then change. by then it may be too late. to apologise. to your ownself. and especially if now you have a job, and people all see you as bad and you know u are bad urself, do something to change. don't change, then u just end up as what u are now. a bad person. heheheeheh

wa. everybody spam make facebook. i duno y oso. maybe wan put their own picture on the internet.

it is easier for unreal brothers to hav unhappiness than real brothers.

unless ur family has something wrong, then not my fault. if you are brought up in a proper family, siblings should never have eternal unhappiness with each other. so well, ppl like to call every1 brother. but hu is a true one? just like the sibling one. sibling one u will never unhappy fully. but fren, some u sae brother u hav full unhappiness. u call this brother? i call this lying to urself and ppl around u

i refer to 2 sources before i wan to make any stands.

http://ug.china-embassy.org/eng/zt/jpxjflg/t219477.htm
http://www.apologeticsindex.org/f02.html

i believe some of u may hav heard of falun gong. or falun dafa. i saw these people like asking for donations or awareness of some humanitarian problem against the falun gong ppl hu practise it. ok let me be fair. i believe china, treating these falun gong ppl, is unfair, cos they torture, kope organs etc. but let me make this clear: falun gong is not a religious or spiritual ting: it's more of a cult.

it's this guy called li hongzhi who started it. he sort of make himself the main boss of this falun gong thing. and it becomes a cult cos all those believing falun gong muz duno some places chant his name blah blah. this li hongzhi guy believes the world is evil, and preach it, and only by following his falun gong thing then u can u noe, achieve some sort of a spiritual tingy. and u muz do something weird one. and the teachings oso like weird weir.

"The last of the 13 ''Basic Requirements and Points of Attention for Practicing Falun Gong'' contain some eerie words from Li: ''If you are interfered with by some terrifying scenes or feel threatened, just say to yourself: I am protected by my Master (??? i am protected by a human who is not beside me??). I am not afraid of anything. You may chant the name of Master Li, and continue with your practice.'' Although the statement is intended to reassure Falun Gong practitioners of Master Li's protection while they practice his prescribed exercises, they reveal two realities about Li and his spiritual disciplines. First, contact with spirit beings (i.e., demons) is a real possibility when one engages in Li's exercises....

aiyo. i dowan sae too much lar. later ppl come after me. but anw falun gong is banned in s'pore too, cos it is cult. it is this guy trying to make ppl believe in him, but in the end they may turn demonic, satanic. i hope none of my frens will turn to this cult. seriously.

i should try to refer to chinese and western sources before i make a very dangerous writing on a "religion", or "cult" or wadeva u call it.

saya memory abit kelong. wanted to comment on that jc wadeva u call it. toking or sth. i tink very lame. slp in the place muz get demerit points? so smart. pls la i try to keep awake all lesson doesn't mean i never sleep when i buay tahan eh? fren liddat ppl go home even more tired u noe. oklo if u wan stay as ur wadeva democracy but communism bt marxism but imperialism, yeah imperailsim. we shldn't 4get our decision head is a half farmer or sth. naturalised farmer? i duno. wadeva. anw my head i duno so well. i only can rmb about him is about wad take care of ur birdy. yeah take care of ur body.

anyway speaking about subject combinations. ppl all decide liao. i wan law, science, weird, guailan, quailan. and then of course got those wait choose subject one wait za bor choose type. and speaking about za bor will bring me to accent. later all go there will ang moh. i scared i go there lose china indentity. which is bad. ppl like me dowan turn ang moh one. but unfortunately later got za bor only speak english or tink english cool, speak china and hokkien si buay uncouth, sibeh 恶心。well it's up to u. as long as i and ppl hu speak chinese still speak in singlish, i dun really care. za bor tink singlish is not nice, wan stop me? sure. pay me money. but anw i may be the odd dick out cos i bo ang moh accent, not so zai zai english, while others all imba fluent engrish. saya engrish is all mix chinese malay tamil one, i duno wad i toking.

disappointing.

heh. young babes. u all very clever i understand. but aiya. chasing car ma. u noe. chasing car is kanchiong. but when u chase the car u noe cannot chase one so muz wait for it to turn back and bang u la. idiot. u chase the car u waste ur energy. y not wait the car turn back bang u instead. u c the car turn back and bang u then u hav enuff energy to zao diao if u never waste ur strength to chase the car. use brain la. hello.

anyway. i'm not such a smart person la. i noe i ask u all to become smarter. u all muz understand la. u c ppl sae live vicariously ma. 老爹已经老了，要明白，开始有点神经病。如果你们不明白我想谈谈的事情我宁愿你们不管我的东西。现在的社会开放，大家可随心所欲，蛮多事情可以做到你爽，可是我觉得大家做些事情前应该想想自己可能会留下的印象。你喜欢人家认为你头脑有病吗？那你就应该开始改改你的动作，不然人家以为你是另一个雨伞。and for example like me. i sae i not feminist, and not sexist oso. cos that's how i function. 但是如果你觉得你有病，也要别人觉得你的确有病，那我说的也没用吧。继续随心所欲。谢谢。

well. a little sad. i need more practice for chinese. but disappointingly we given that LT. irritating. wad a weird position to do stuff in. aiyo. i wan study my chinese properly u liddat tekan lao die. wad is this. sianded. might as well giv me the papers and i go home do seriously. the work rate could be much better.

大家，请小心你正在读的东西。今天，我又做到了一个理解问答。正是令老爹失望。那个女中又出一样的圈套，通过理解题目来搞女人主义。shld i sae feminist. 真是奇怪。要教，就教正确的社会价值观啦，整天在那里教这种歪主义，对你的女生有什么帮助？你跟我谈谈有什么好处。

要彻底的了解你自己，你需要设计一些目标。得不到的话，那你就没有那么厉害。但是，至少你知道你在这方面作的多好。

every1 chiong award. chiong 1.00. is that needed? okla maybe if to make urself happy is the reason, i would sae go for it. but if that 1.00 is to chiong for sth, and u purposely meng chiong, but u admit, then i respect. but this is a fine line between my respect and despise. i will despise those meng chiong, but in the end sae never chiong but still 1.00 type. this type is called idiot.

i nid money. if u tink u can donate me in any way, contact me

小朋友们，若你们要在别人的生命上留下一个深刻的好印象，你们不应该故意去做一些东西，让别人以为你是一个伟大的英雄。就如我认识一个人，他的目标真是有点恶心，他想让每个人以为他是一个厉害的人。无聊。这样做你只会在浪费自己的时间，想要怎样才可以让别人对你有个好印象。以前其实我有些过错。比如我要让每个人以为我是一个小丑。很好笑。现在想想真是觉得很恶心。每个人以为你是那种有病的人的感觉真是令我自己恶心，所以我就改改自己。

但是当然世界上故意要有一些人。很精彩。就像我说提过的那种生活在世界但是没有得到或经历过精彩的东西，他们就故意做事情来让别人觉得他们很精彩，很好玩。但是其实他们这样做，别人就会觉得他们也是头脑有病。那些故意要别人留下什么印象的人也不例外。小朋友们，有些东西应该顺其自然，不用故意来做些事情。不要乱为事情担心，小小事情就不爽，小小成就开喜酒庆祝。生命应该慢慢一点点来，不用一来就。。。太冲动。哈哈。

哇！研究了一会儿我发现我的生活真的太精彩了。想知道就找我喝杯茶或咖啡

今天老爹被提醒了几件事情。就是说耶稣已经赦免我的罪恶，赦免全世界的罪恶，所以我们也应该像他一样原谅大家，饶恕，包容，赦免等等。而且耶稣也只为了很少东西发怒，所以我也应该不乱发怒。哈哈。想让老爹不爽其实是一件很容易的事情，但是要跟老爹和好就没有那么容易。精彩。

其实生活如果没有挫折，哪里来找精彩。很多人很聪明。为了精彩，他们就故意整天不务正业，去寻找挫折。无聊。真是无聊。挫折其实是免费的，为什么想去寻找问题？很好玩啊哈哈。这样讲那么我也应该停止睡觉去寻找精彩的东西。但是小朋友们，你们要当心，当心你们中间的一些无聊人，或“牧者”，这些牧者很厉害，每天最厉害也就是挑拨离间，终日只会乱传大便消息，让人家听到很爽，然后大家就像狗似的开始向这些牧者一起挑拨离间。哈哈。看得多了。小朋友们，当心，不然掉进陷阱了，就无药可救了哦！！

saya is not very pro. now waiting nelly to come. but well nelly held up. so i duno. but anyway it's good to wait. u noe. baby i will wait 4 u. so i'll wait. but sometimes i never wait for opposite nellies. u c i dun mind waiting for nelly in the positive end. but i hate waiting for nellies who like to nell sceptic. aiya. duno how to sae. dun bother oso. haha

u noe pissing is good for health. u remove all ur urea waste from ur piss. it's good. or else later ur body inside full of the urea. bad sia. later when u bleed u smell/taste ur urine. den sae. wa siala i love it man smell like cum. wa. problem in body. good.

ass crap. wad do u wan to noe? idiot. duno wad i tinking den u can go and die. and dun let me noe wad u tinking u can oso go and die. both ways can go and die. blady hell. wasting time. y cant ppl hav brain? are u born clever or stupid? even if u born s2pid i was already good enuff, sensitive enuff not to tell u u are s2pid. nehneh. u tink very fun? nehneh. it isnt very easy u noe. i noe i'm very much smarter. many tings i never do. y? i dowan to show i'm outstanding. y? so that i dun anyhow overshadow u. u may b proud for me. but i tink it's fkin insensitive. and every1 in the world is asking me to go this go that. i never. maybe cos i'm lazy. yes and i never anyhow brag of results. nehneh. u tink very easy? everywhere i go i never sae anyting about results good cos it's s2pidly insensitive.

idiot. life muz b faced wif many idiots. so that there is some shiok in it. and i duno y. muz hav idiots. many of them. maybe i shld b the one who go and die. cos i'm always saying others die. so i die there should b world peace cos there will not b anybody criticising ur idiocy. and also i will not get so many ppl who call me idiot cos i never go this that this that. i tell u str8 in the face. i never go this that is cos i'm LAZY. and it's not my full passion. blady hell. and i juz duno how to put it and u sae i idiot. sorry. i face the world as it is. i dowan u to help. y i nid ur help? u only ask me go this that this that so that portfolio sexy. i will show u. no portfolio sexy can b good job oso. y not i juz join j become porn star can earn many money???? erpz. idiot. that one nid portfolio ar? o lao die ur CV so zai sex wif paris, britney, madonna b4. o so pro.

real and fake. fake and real. many ppl cannot find out wad's wrong. another one is the flawed view of human well-being. many tink well being is juz like oh i sae happy means happy. well. sometimes ppl sae happy is fake one. it's juz like a normal ting to sae. e.g. hi, how are u? ok. ok does not mean much wad. but well it's nice to sae ok only ma. but anyway. it's crap. i shall not tok too much lest i start referring to stuff. esp certain stuff. dat i shld not talk about, in case i destroy any wadeva, unhappiness.

but let's back to tok about the high pitch low pitch nonsense. many men of hci well they like to sing low. and from sec 1 many tink low is the way to go cos it makes me feel manly. yes man. when u get to sec 4, suddenly u tink high voice is nice, it is to be sought after, u try to sing high den u squeak. or cannot sing too loud. c'mon la when sing dun sing low and close mouth sing. u muz learn to open ur s2pid mouth, like letting ur za bor french kiss. later u french kiss never open mouth. well. wadeva. not for me to dictate anyway. so i shldn't tok too much.

i just called, to say, i love you.

yea i'm sure. anybody even knows who the hell is a stevie wonder? i very sceptical one. esp about hci choice of music, and about how they criticise singing. i usually very irritated. as a man, u nid to sing very low meh? juz look at chris daughtry, nickelback. u tink they sing very low? their voice deep only. but the pitch is very high. and many love breathless. but ppl duno that even 1 octave lower than normal they cant sing at all.

as in. u c many men, cos wan to seem very macho ma, so muz sing low low. wad a waste. and open mouth abit abit only. so that macho ma. but c'mon la. if u noe u good, and u wan to b proud of it, open ur s2pid mouth and start singing. and dun b scared to make mistake in public. den u will noe where is ur high part, when u hav peak period, when u best at singing etc etc.

and anw, many listen to song that are quite high wad. but cos they wan to make deep voice, den muz sing like low low. den they try to sing simple plan, nickelback, all sing low low 1 octave lower. but then lidat the sound bo lat. den er xin. but ppl sae macho voice very sexy. not my problem. high voice gay like dustbins. if u noe hu is a dustbin anyway.

诸位朋友，

who has an idea how to play uther? if u ever noe that guy. enfo ts one. how to use that weaponsmith guy? it has high potential. if it can somehow increase atk spd. but i duno how...

the world is messy. someone shld clean it up. but no one clean it up. so too bad.

老师问学生：
人生自古谁无死…你接下一句！
学生答：
人生自古谁无屎，
有谁大便不用纸！

老师很生气，叫学生罚站。
隔天，老师又问回同样的问题…
这时学生聪明了！
他答：
人生自古谁无屎，
谁能大便不用纸。
若君不用卫生纸，
除非你是用手指。

老师很火大，又叫学生罚站！
这时，老师看见窗外下着雪，
就遗憾地说：
上天下雪不下雨，
雪到地上变成雨。
变成雨时多麻烦，
为何当初不下雨…

学生又回覆老师：
老师食饭不食屎，
饭到肚时变成屎，
变成屎时多麻烦，
为何当初不吃屎…

就这样，老师当场昏倒！

even my head is spoiling. i duno when will i get it fixedddd

a few topics to touch touch on.

1st. wad is sociable and anti-social? many define in different ways. but well. if u find urself cant fit into another place, y u force urself to fit in?? so i dun fit in to places where the clique is already there. cos it's an act of extraness. dat's y i shall chaap into a conversation unless it interests me or wadeva. unlike some ppl. c me whole day shuddup means anti-social. wad a disappointment.

next. stress. sometimes shldn't get unhappy over lame stuff. which i am doing quite frequently. e.g. this young man who doesn't want to admit his mistake when i criticise him. wad a disappointment oso. c'mon la. if u dun accept criticism, esp constructive one, and sticking to ur own s2pid methods and making urself stand out like a dick, u will lose out. go and reflect, rather tink that o i'm juz going along wif the wave, the flow, the river. some say love, it is a river, that drowns the tender reed.

let's see wad will happen on batch dinner. i wonder how many ppl after dat will go beer. in town. or maybe go sex and pool. i wonder. just to show they are man, muz go and drink beer. well. cannot type too much. later i come under fire. and those lousy idiots. i wonder drink beer means very pro meh? drink champagne very pro meh? drink vodka very pro ar? i like my uncle style. ppl sae drink beer nice drink beer wad. he juz sae 我不喝酒。den he tio ask go drink some champagne. den he drink come back tell us sux and wad the hell. and sae walao 喝这样多等一下还要开车。how disappointing. going to drink means very man ar? let's see wad the world has degenerated to.

今天，老爹要用文字来批评其中一所吃马铃薯女校的理解篇章。而且这所女校也是一个名校。名校。对阿，名校，可是它里面给学生做的英文的理解篇章，令我很恶心。因为她们超 sexist. 对。我在想，你想干嘛？？你在这所学校要洗脑阿？灌输什么对的道德、品行价值观？恶心。记得过去几年又做过这所学校的理解，可是有时候读文章，虽然是有像平时吸取些教训，想法，但是读后我心里有种。。。怪怪的感觉。

我记得两个理解的篇章。第一个是谈到那些夫妇，他们照顾孩子应该有付出同样的时间，公平分配工作。这样写，可能没有什么错。但是我继续读下去，感得很奇怪。因为接着，它说这是应该的，而且什么那个女的需要比那个男的赚更多钱，所以那个丈夫要带着孩子去做工。而且在家里也是，为了要提醒丈夫，那个女的就挂着一个旗子，那旗子说夫妻要有一样的付出。equal opportunity. 你要讲的是不是男生作老公应该让位给女的，让她们去做工，因为她们更有本事？？

too bad. i may be very extremist. anw 2nd compre i did. about wad competitiveness between men. true. men very competitive. like to stay in groups so that u dun hav to be personal. but how true is that? there are of course nice ppl who want or dun mind getting close. not cos they are gay. cos they need ppl to listen to them . and trust. and then, y do i see many girls oso like to stay in groups? not only, when many girls get personal, they may pangseh or even a blackmail or backstab. even worse than men. men at least got some honour, some pride for other party. unless there's unhappiness. even if there is, we are more mild. women? more vicious in their assholic behaviour. erps. i'm not trying to b sexist. i'm juz pointing out there's a problem in that essay. and u let ppl read. so it's wrong. it come out in magazine, i dun care. but u shld not even put it as a compre. cos it will destroy mindset, esp when u kip teaching them that ***** power.

and actually that isn't penis power

do u live on the surface of the ocean, or at the bottom? some like the bottom. that's where everything is. some like the top. there maybe got plastic bag and paper cup and wadeva litter, but u get the plp of sunlight. so warm. anyway it's gonna turn cold in the nite wad. so where do u like? surface or bottom?

i wonder. wad do ppl like nowadays. the attention of idiots and dicks and ass holes, or the attention of nice people? u can have the attention of a million idiots easily. but wad about the attention and care and love of a nice person? PERSON? u mean u no nid ar. ok lo. since u no nid u can live with a million idiots, buy a few blocks of hdb for them.

i'm feeling much better now. church usually wad they sae is lame. but at least sometimes it makes sense. have beened relatively stressed for the past few days cos of ppl around me. on the verge of a keesiao. but 2day i was reminded of sth.

abit no link the following verses. 2 chronicles 20:9-12:

9 If, when evil cometh upon us, as the sword, judgment, or pestilence, or famine, we stand before this house, and in thy presence, (for thy name is in this house,) and cry unto thee in our affliction, then thou wilt hear and help.
10 And now, behold, the children of Ammon and Moab and mount Seir, whom thou wouldest not let Israel invade, when they came out of the land of Egypt, but they turned from them, and destroyed them not;
11 Behold, I say, how they reward us, to come to cast us out of thy possession, which thou hast given us to inherit.
12 O our God, wilt thou not judge them? for we have no might against this great company that cometh against us; neither know we what to do: but our eyes are upon thee.

我想逃避现实。

i am starting to break down mentally. over the amount of tings to revise 4 exam.

acs boy u're a great duellist. but u can never beat me.

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well i believe many ppl noe about the boy that toking about duno wad dun name the station hci. well. i dun really care wad u name the blady station. but anw there are many tings ppl sae about u haha. fun

one guy responds: The late Rev Oldham built ACS for poor urban kids . Today he would be turning in his grave.

yea wad's wrong wif these kids nowadays? it is quite obvious most kids from ang moh school all got more cash than chinese school. 虽然说最近很多华中小朋友都在挥金如土，甚至不是那么有钱的小朋友，但是大体上，那些红毛小朋友，或者说吃马铃薯长大的都比较有钱。其实有点儿无聊。我们为什么因为这种无聊的事情闹到那么大？哈哈。那个红毛小朋友也是的。没事找事做，要吸引别人的注意是不是？让老爹给你一个很好的建议 - 你在互联网上载一些照片，尤其是那些黄色、色情的，你跟一些男的女的山床等等的照片。这样你招徕的注意不是更厉害？人家都会跟你老实讲你是最英俊的小朋友，或者最无聊恶心的人。哈哈。人家不用去讲你的学校，别人的学校，别人的家境等等。省时省力。一干二净。哈哈哈哈

the world is bad. hahahahhaha. so u shld be bad oso. the world doesn't want to look at u. so do u look at them back? no nid one la. just those hu want to bother u den u bother about them lor. haha. i bad person la. no chioce. 你跟我讲，谁不是坏的？多好的人，也有坏的方面嘛。

i am compelled to do abit of toking about ppl. very irritating. is not like it's free in the world for every1 to listen. for some ppl, getting others to do tings 4 u is very difficult. or to even take ur offer. but for others, they can just fart, and then ppl will sae o my baby, god save the king, we nid to action now and do as he farts. well. there is nothing free wad anyway. so for ppl like me, not so good wif ppl, i must make extra effort when asking others to do tings for me, or even accompanying me i put in extra effort so that i will not disappointed, and the other person oso not.

another ting which is not easy for me. some ppl are very good at toking in front of a crowd. this is sth that i cannot do properly. or even getting many ppl to do sth. e.g. getting a support of 50 ppl? not so easy for me. cos i dunno how to tok appealing to everybody, as in as a whole. some ppl cos they duno how, but they like to do, in the end ppl dun like that guy. e.g. some teachers, they are supposed to teach, and some enjoy teaching. but unfortunately these ppl duno how to express themselves such that student will like to listen, and in the end every1 lose respect. sae lesson boring, teacher teaching nonsense, teacher teach cannot understand. etc. no choice. sometimes, it's not a magic that u can suddenly noe how to do emceeing, mass coordination, or even get a person to listen to u. wad are u best at? mass, or get person to listen to u?

for me i cannot do mass. and i oso dun like mass. many ppl like to be in a mass. cos there will not be good frens in a mass, and then there will be competition. they like to show they are the best in a mass. useless bastards. u tink show off power = very powerful? heh. ok lor. and for some ppl i oso dun like to be around, esp these ppl hu like to show power in a mass, and in private wif u oso dowan to admit sux. cos they are liddat in a mass, i cannot overcome the barrier of competition wif these ppl. so i dun like to b with them. i prefer small grp or only another person. liddat there can be no competition barrier, and only the speaking of true feeling. and not 虚伪 feeling.

blah blah. 睡觉睡多一些，不然一开学就没有精神了。而且有那些无聊透顶，中日来下别人，讲开学过不懂几天就考试，讲他已经读了不懂那一项目等等，令别人慌张六神无主。连老爹也被这些人有所影响。但是大家，请小心，不要因为他们这样，你想给他们看你多厉害，而没有去温习功课。他们要早紧张是他们的事，你有信心是你家的事情。有些东西是由你来决定，不要每次看到别人就有样学样，你这样做只会显露你愚蠢的性格，给人家觉得你是潮流的狗儿。

sian. i nid mental help. haha. although i always sae other ppl nid mental help. suddenly i nid. due to weird pressure. difficult to explain.

i was never a linguist, and i duno whether if i can become 1. so this stops me from being the philosopher. but it does not stop me from giving ideas.

u c in life, there is something called fair. but in fair, there must be unfair. here i will state a few examples. maybe it's repeated, but nvm. 1st e.g. there are ppl on earth that are good in maths, good in science, good in language, good in humanities, good in sex, good in cumshot. but this is not a fair distribution, if u factor in the thing called hard work. people who are good in maths only, must work hard to become good in language. similarly, people who are good in languages must work hard to become good in maths. but this is not exactly fair. language is more of a talent than maths. maths is sth that many can do if he does maths 24/7. to learn a language is harder to learn than a maths or science, esp bio where mainly memory work can bring u to a better than average level. so it is unfair. u good in language, and then u spend ur 24/7 doing maths and science, but u dun hav to study language, since it cant be studied and in the end u get better grade than other ppl. at the end of the day, depending on wad sort of education system, if u tok about s'pore educations system, u good in language, then life is so fair for u. but if u good in science and maths, then this ed system u will sae sux, cannot let u fulfill ur potential.

next e.g. ppl can be good at acting, some ppl good at working hard and efficiently, some ppl good at talking. a best person will be one that work efficiently, but can talk very well also. this will be owning. but unfortunately in our screw up world, on the surface, most ppl will look up to a s2pid person who can talk very well. rather than a person who works very hard but cannot sell himself or even advertise abit of his own prowess. some even better, able to manipulate ppl's mind by use of literature online, hard copies, wadeva. ppl who cant talk, but work very hard, they will hav a very disadvantage over ppl who are convincing. so, within another fair place, there are unfairness.

there are little tings in life that are fair. not only concerning work life. concerning recreational stuff there can be unfair oso. just like if u play soccer, u may not have the best technique, but u work hard, u can become a player of a certain standard. some people have the vision and thinking, but without technique, they may look like idiots. while those with the best technique, but they dun hav brains, they will be seen as gods in soccer. there are some idiots like this, think that cos they can dribble 10 ppl in 1 go and score, they tink they are the best players. but unfortunately, that is an attribute of a s2pid player. if a smart tackler come and find this guy, most likely this guy will go crazy and shout vulgar at that smart defender. but unfortunately, all s2pid football fans will sae the defender is a noob, while that dribbling guy is a pro. sorry, good technique can bring u fame, but brains will bring the winner out of u. but the winner may not be recognised for free, so it will depend on the intelligence of ppl watching.

even sex is unfair. here i'm toking about str8 sex. that means only 1 man 1 woman. can fair meh? usually 1 person is in control. missionary man in control. lapdancing depends on hu doing. usually the woman. then ppl will sae 69 very fair. but i tink no. 69 where got fair. the person la ji bai oso so difficult. muz open until clitoris. and then not fair on the person who is on top or below oso.

so where is fair in the world? haha. u can bluff urself sae the world very nice to you, but at the end of the day the world isn't so nice la. but u muz learn to live with the world. or else u fail.

i just remembered to tok about shiok over that biotech fair. at last after blady 2 years of doing work now i get some award. and i duno where's the cheque. but good ting is i get to feel the blady shiok over winning that cao scgs group. which incidentally got some girl from my church. but i dao her one. i care sia. dat time win liao den some more kope our procedure. last time they only do wad measure zone of inhibition come win me. ok lor. this time wif extra marketing heng get a merit. just that i was pist wif the s2pid honky judge. if it was other more s2pid judge it would be better. that honky was the worst person i've ever seen as a judge. and the other idiotic guy oso. the indian woman lived up to her name by being a judge and saying some cock, but that's nice haha. aitc. muz follow the trend. but the honky really pist me off. nehneh. well, at least got revenge over that scgs grp and then win merit. haha

老朋友，你发什么神经？不会给我那个作业叫我今晚作。偏偏要霸占我那一两小时的时间干你的东西。无聊。搞到老爹无法好好利用明天的宝贵时间。而且，你的态度可说是令人恶心，可恶。最近发生什么事情？真是的。连交待一些事情也不想交待好，一点点事情就怒气冲冲，用恐吓计逼人听你。这是一个很大的冒险你知道吗？我相信多数你的学子会考得理想的成绩，但是在这过程中，你可能牺牲别人怎么看待你。。。

anyway. i would like to address duno how many topics. 1 is about ns. since chan tok about it during ihc lesson. u c i tink now many ppl are tinking i'm a s'pore radical. actually not so true. if s'pore wan to keep up defence, it shld start telling muds to go and study harder for army stuff, rather than telling muds to b the saikang warrior. upgrade them. and they shld stop getting top jc ppl become officer, or at least get less jc ppl become officer and get smarter yalams to go and b officer. this would upgrade everybody. and those smarter jc ppl after army can go and make their big big cash. isn't this a good contribution? dam lame. i don't mind serving 2 years, and i dun mind doing sth stupid during army. as long as i dun go there and do extra hiong stuff. cos i'm not siao one. some ppl so happy go commando. for me i duno. i dun tink i shld. i not so power person one. and make sure if u wan commando u are mad one.

another ting. i dun tink ppl shld complain too much about serving 2 years in the army. it's sort of u noe contributing to defence. i dowan s'pore fall under wad indon, malaysia etc. china den too bad la of course. but m'sia and indon, bo hua sia. so shld serve. and anw our s'pore army usually not used for defence wad. it's for plp jobs. which is very good. u c they hav problem we donate cash, we donate human army ppl go over. juz hope that when i army no disasters and i send over can liao. but s'pore system of plp shld b good enuff to save us for some time, so i tink serving in the army nvm la. as long as i dun lag too much in study as za bor can lioa. as i said, if we allow yalams to upgrade, then i dun see the problem. like my bro last time got a clt, now is some duno wad ndu pro kia or wad. but he abit siao one la. dat's y ndu.

i tink s'pore kids shld not sae army waste time etc. i tink shld go there and tok enuff cock, learn more nonsense and go out. cos that's like some of the times can tok cock even though it's shit u are doing. but it's abit screwed up la the system. dat's wad i dun like. they have a total s2pid system inside, cannot tok too much cock to bosses or wad. dat is very lame. cos as a good boss u shld be talking more to the small ppl. den this is good wad. erps. but wad eva la. i tink s'pore kids shld not have the mentality that ns is totally useless. there's at least some use to it. and esp when u dowan to get dominated by m'sia or indon. seriously.

http://haemophiliacs.blogspot.com/

this is a blog made by my bro's fren. shld i sae acquaintance. incidentally it's yang cheng's brother. he's haemophilic, so well. dunno wad to sae. later very insensitive.

but as i said all the time we shldn't discriminate. even if that guy is lousier, has a brain problem, we shld all give chance to them, allow changing time or wadeva u call it, let them fit in if u're comfortable. if not dun xialan them i tink it's good enuff. some ppl always tink cos they better, they smart etc, they start to xialan other ppl. that is a act of a loser.

wa peng you. let me ask u. are u changing for the better or for the worse? 对阿，我承认，这里有言行自由，但是你认为你的选择正确吗？突然间变成那么奇怪，宪法古怪，言行举止变那么多，真是令老爹担心。虽然你家的事与我无关，但是我看到你这种变化我也担忧。

suddenly, try to become very sexy, very man, imposing ur power on others. u tink liddat very power meh? make u a better person meh? 还是你现在在准备改变成吃马铃薯的人？如果此句是对的话，请你不要再令周围的人担忧。让老爹送个机票给你，去哪里都好，不管伊朗，伊拉克，美洲，南美，算我送你过去。。。个览哦，我几时开始送人几千块的东西。但是我认为，大家要当心，而且，帮忙劝劝周围的朋友，不要让他们掉进不务正业的陷阱，恶域。not that i want to sae, i feel very perturbed by some ppl they lose themselves in the music the moment they own it. or shld i sae nowadays more applicable is they lose themselves in the dance nonsense songs the moment they can hear it and then never regain their control. can regain control good. but cannot, then well. it is disturbing to me, even though their business not for me to care.

i wonder y ppl like to look for superficial relationships. they like to show power power, but still wan to remain fren. wad nonsense. and some even worse. they wan good relationship, but they abuse the good relationship and power around. and in the end they never care about others, juz abandon the good relationship for superficial so that can go around power power and dun care about other ppl feeling. awww. so sad.

but unfortunately this is life. it's nonsense. u can only find no nonsense with a few ppl only. as usual. the world is black, and the hearts are cold. but there's something only love can do

刚才一些精彩的事情发生。第一，走火入魔。winterbells each bell 5500++. yea i noe the gay sht got 75000 per bell. but a non nelly like me achieve 5000 is very good

next, when i go home frm hd house after swim, was toking to this half blind guy. weird stuff. never tok to one b4, some more dat guy so uncle. i thought i was a nice person sia, help blind ppl wait bus.

den juz now watching china vs china. all quite nice. but actually b4 dat i was watching some men q-final croat guy vs swede. not bad. very fast change direction and ball very fast oso. shiok. only i tink the women final can match dat. s'pore all those so slow actually compared to men. not dat i sexist but i tink it's the truth. some tings that women better than men are like only those sync diving swimming and dancing and wad gym stuff. haha.

大家，我们应该学会包容。如果我们不会包容，社会就会像一粒大便。从小，我就跟比我笨的马来人长大。我跟他们学会怎样踢球。虽然他们不是什么聪明的，我没有埋怨他们，讲他们笨，没有用等等，因为他们有他们的长处。但是一些人，很像是没有与较笨的人交流沟通过，终日觉得自己最聪明，最厉害，已经达到最高境界，不会包容比较笨，或者说没有用的人。这种态度真是令人失望。就因你是其中一个最厉害的人，不代表你就是最有权利的对吗？有时候你们应该去想想，虽然你很聪明，能做很多伟大的事情，可以引人注目，但是你是否有准备一个可以多多学习的心理吗？

as an elite, it is up to u whether u wan to understand or interact wif the s2pid ppl. but y u cant even accept these ppl in the society? i feel extremely irritated wif such tings. e.g. some kids tink they come hc then tink they big liao, no nid to giv their yalam neighbour a dam. wad nonsense. can't tolerate them cos they brown colour or they s2pid? so disapppointing. also another one. worse. elitism of the elitism. in good sch lioa, but only tok to those who are smarter, and dun bother about ppl hu are more s2pid and tink they are useless. erps. how far can u go my fren? okla, since u are liddat, den let me tell u la, u best, u power, u smart, u pro. alot of ppl chiong u eh cos u look very nice. but unfortunately, 老爹我如今看穿你的那个恶心的心怀，发现你其实是那么缺乏包容之心的小朋友。如果你连自己的比较笨的朋友都不能接受，我在想，以后你出去做工，你会有什么下场？哈哈。恐怕一天你坐上高职位，接受不了笨的同事。。。海水不能抖量，人不可貌相，但是我说，出到了别的地方，你真正的性格就会渐渐的显露出来。哈哈哈。让老爹看到了你的真面目，我真是心满意足。为什么，你不要早些显露你的 style? 那么老爹就不须要等半年才彻底的认识你。

anw those hc idiots watching ladies closely, watch out. ur eyes are enjoying fully, but i tink once u find out wad is happening, i hope the situation not too late. haha. so sad.

now i c. well there are nice ppl around in the world. but behind their nice personality it's nonsense sia. dangerous. 一人两面. scary. in front pro pro can study. behind actually fake one whole day dunno wad doing.

aitc. as quoted from an i: "i like the way u told preston hey i'm with the indians".. pro. but unfortunately u c some ppl dowan to open up haha. well shldn't look at bad side of tings. now everyone chiong slack so it's much better. but of course historical baggage shldn't b forgotten haha. this is fun. i mean it's the game of life.

anw sentosa is like much better now. recommend ppl shld go there and chiong that skyride and luge tingy. it's like got shiok man. and i wonder how the wolfe boss can go on that ting i tot he may hav destroyed the tight corners haha.

also, i going to m'sia from the coming mon to wed. 3 days. let's see whether 狐狸会显现尾巴。或者应该说，狐狸下显现更多/全部尾巴。

真是令人伤心。不只伤心。是失望。想当年，她待人处事是那么好的，但是来到这里，她就是偏偏要做老板。你以为你是布什？布什来这里，我可能还会待他像个大人物。但是你是什么？你是来这里旅游的小朋友哦。小朋友。对阿。你是个小朋友，不是布什。有很大的分别。虽然你在美国被视为一个很聪明，很厉害，有魅力的小姐，但是你知道什么是谦虚，谦卑，谦逊吗？而且你来老爹的地盘，你有资格做老板吗？第一次踏出你的北美洲，为什么浪费这个机会，不要浸入我们的文化呢？觉得这里的人不够高级、斯文，你就开口说吧。老爹这个人喜欢别人讲我的坏话，所以我才知道怎样改变，采取行动纠正错误。

2ndly, u dun hav to start tinking that i am still a young gullible kid hu doesn't understand anyting about the world. if u tink so den fine. it's ok. but anw i tink u are the idiot inflexible young lady hu is trying to come here and impose ur ass on my dick. but unfortunately i suddenly not interested. y? cos u tink ur pussy too high class for me. and i get pist over dat oso. as a reminder, i tink u're the one hu is not opening up ur eyes to see the world. and u're wasting ur time here. y dun u dun come here, since u tink u're the best and no nid to learn? fren, u are coming here to learn, and not to sae hey that's my idea. for ur info, that's OUR idea, not ur fkin idiot idea. u tink wad, come from ang moh discussed = ur idea? fren, cannot believe s'pore got better quality brain than u ar? i tink even ppl like the worst of the worst student can come up wif best ideas that are better than urs. juz take an e.g. like yu. u c he may look idiotic but suddenly he can come up wif the smartest tings. and u blady elitism kid come here and try to own me.

i b nice s'porean. i shuddup. but unfortunately, fren u 得寸进尺。and that is so disappointing. juz cos i shuddup doesn't mean i dowan to sae anyting or duno wad is going on. it may not b exactly in ur mind, or purposely sae to make me feel bad. but i can tell u, i believe nobody has ever told u u are a 废物, if u dowan to open up urself to the whole blady world and allow other cultures into u. u tink ang moh sibeh dua ar? wa ka le gong, le mai tink u are wad ji smart. u liddat all i can tell u is well, u may still be sexy and nice and appealing, but u'll only appeal to ur blady ang mohs and not the whole world. 要顶着我的睾丸，向我学华语？先还钱。cos u tink i am poor cos i dun hav laptop rite? so i'll take the cash but not teach u anyting, like the nigerian scams.

以为你因为有钱，地位高，聪明，可是你还没得到炉火纯青的程度。连老爹现在也不敢讲自己炉火纯青，你凭什么去讲你是最厉害的小朋友？有人说，成功是一个很没用的老师。对阿，失败是成功之母，但是如果你整天都是成功，就会到她那种目中无人，目空一切的境界，堕落成一个被人看贬的败家子，社会的渣滓。你还好，你长得美丽，每个人都在看你，觉得你性感，要 plp 你。真是幸运。how i hope the ang moh society will become sth like wad we have, and so we'll have less of these blind ppl in the world. i cant believe it man. it's the first time i've ever seen such a shitty attitude. now seeing this i see that there are ppl out there ten times better than idiots of the quality of huever u tink fit.





anyway, 在此我要指出一个很卑鄙无耻下贱的小朋友。这位大人看到了那个性感美女，就跟她 socialise. 聪明。乘机吃吃豆腐，聪明，高招。i wonder whether u hav ur rubber ready. scarly 搞大肚子，我想看你以后怎么在地域生存，面对世界。哈哈哈哈哈哈哈

ladies are here babies. haha. but they lousy sia. morning swimming tio sunburn haha. lazy to type liao

虚伪。我们活在的社会里不缺乏虚伪的小朋友。有时我不明白为什么那么多人喜欢在别人的面前做一个“好人”，可是你自己的这样做的目的是为了给人家以为你是一个认真能干的人。奇怪，你连自己的朋友面前也不要做你自己，在你的家人面前我在想你是什么样的人。比如有一个小朋友，我已经跟每个人讲他是一个无聊透顶，但是他每次有事要人救命时，就来捧着我的睾丸。哈哈。如果你只来捧我的睾丸，不要紧，可是你每个人的睾丸，老师学生朋友都不放过，在每个人面前都是那虚伪的样子。你这种行为要人怎样相信你？？过着这样虚伪的生活对你自己有益吗？你临死前对得起自己的良心吗？可能我要在你的死之前播个记录片，给你看看你每个虚伪的行为举止。到时，你不要说我没有提过这个“话题”。呵呵呵。

bluntness is also another thing ppl muz face. i cannot take bluntness, so i believe it shld b moderated. but unfortunately some idiots cant b bothered to phrase their bluntness properly, and it becomes a habit. i sometimes purposely become extra blunt. but that's to wake ppl up. some ppl prefer to blunt so that they can let ppl feel unhappy, and when they c ppl unhappy they feel shiok. nothing to do eh boys? waste ur time tinking how to make ppl unhappy to feel happy after seeing that. yeah this can open up many discussions. but i lazy to continue.

hope u all dun mind. but as far as the bible is concerned, we believe that one of the biggest sin is knowing about the gospel (which is come believe in christianity) but not doing anyting. and then, there is some parts which toks about some stuff.

Romans 6:23
For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord.

罗马书 6：23
因为罪的工价乃是死；惟有神的恩赐，在我们的主基督耶稣里，乃是永生。

有一点极端，但是这是我叫你们来教会的其中一个原因。我不希望你们都下地狱。

sometimes the act smart ppl giv others the wrong impression of wad christian is about. i'm sickened by this attitude. and then when nice christians try to do tings, others take them as idiots like those smart ppl. irritating. u c i sometimes wonder y christian cannot sae tings, but typical atheist can sae o u blady christian there's no god c'mon believe in science it proves everyting baby ya there's the evolution and then there's the brain so there's no god. den christians will try to sae o that's not with the belief. then ppl will not listen to christians anymore cos they are not toking to wad most ppl are toking about. very disappointing.

but anw if u are atheist, den so be it also. but y ppl like me believe in christianity is not cos i'm greedy. some ppl are greedy. they believe in christianity cos it confirm u go to heaven. well that's the important part but that's not everyting to me. i hav many tings to tok about. but i shall not tok too much here scarly u'll tink i'm some blady idiot. and as i hav mentioned there are this bunch of atheist confirm gonna come and sae hey c'mon i dun feel a god around. and i hope this does not happen.

and seeing all this i now understand y middle east so unhappy. muslim and christian share same holy land and places which is that place in israel. and there is jerusalem, temple of the rock etc etc. and those rivers also in the area like euphrates and tigres. and then israel oso richer so every1 is unhappy. muslim not so rich, israel got their fren from us and europe to support and then so they fight but israel kip winning. and no one kar jiao israel but all the palestine etc kip tio xia lan by ang moh. so it's juz a nonsense in there la. i'm happy to b in s'pore where i can choose religion freely, and ppl promote racial and religious harmony. dat is one reason y i believe we shld not despise other race. alot of ppl coming from big schools all racist. these are the nonsense of the education that we shld eliminate.

compilations of great songs in the src

if u get there b4 i tew,
dun giv up on me,
i'll meet tew when my chores are through,
i dunno how long that'll be
but i'm not gonna let tew down
darling wait and see
if between now and then
till i see till again
i'll be loving till

huh,
hway.

till the day my life is through, this i promise tew...
we had joy, we had fun, we had seasons in the huhn.
but the huhn and the hway like the seasons hav all tewed.
can't believe that i've been tewed again
i thought this love would never end
how was i to know
you never anwar.

bored. 缺乏灵感。当然嘲笑别人不对，但是我偶尔会嘲笑那些对我来说有病的小朋友。这样可以给大家笑一笑，心情轻松愉快。

kids let's address an issue. it's s2pid u may tink. hey u so pro u still come tok cok. isn't this a very normal phrase to sae? u all are not opening ur eyes. 睁开眼睛，也请你们顺便用头脑想想一些事情。

1st u muz understand that there are the pro ppl in the world. and there are the nub one. the pro work little bit can get the job done. the nub work very hard for the same job done. dat's life and u hav to accept it. sometimes i get very disappointed wif ppl in the sch. esp those ppl hu are not getting the good result nowadays. u c they will start to sae the guy wif good results o so pro. and then some ppl oh cos u study very hard and 24/7. and some will sae hey u so smart den u sae test hard in the end get so good result, u bluffing me or wad.

young kid. hello. a person get good mark for the test, doesn't mean he didn't find the test hard rite? let's sae u good in sex, u sae o ytd sex was dam difficult, den in the end result was good and u got baby. and then u c the person tell u hey u dun hypocrite la. so pro in sex sae sex difficult. it's the same way. let's sae u good in maths. u sae the maths test hard. in the end result get back o 90% or higher. den ppl around u confirm will sae hey u dun bluff me la u sae test hard. cb hypocrite nbccb fkin idiot. ahh. hu's the idiot now. a person hu get good result muz mean he din find the test hard meh? nehneh. blady idiots of the sch. only noe how to sae other ppl, but never analyse anywhere other than surface and maybe 1nm deeper. okla one yoctometre deeper. yes? as i always sae. 你应该是还没有病入膏肓，还能对症下药，或许应该说改邪归正。希望你能把眼睛开大一点。这样就能看得更清楚。

yes i'll show u wad real love can do.

小朋友，要来找我的麻烦，没那么容易。我会跟你算清你的账。况且我看到你的时候，我未必会不爽，发火，而我会搞得你很尴尬。因为我其实不会说话，所以你讲的东西我可能不会给你你想要的答案。随便你吧小朋友，要跟我玩，我希望你会喜欢这个游戏。

i wonder wad's wrong wif the world. it's black.

now there's another person threatening for suicide right in my house. nehneh. tok about wad prelim later lousy suicide. later a level lousy suicide. cos got a girlfren smarter than me, suicide. wad shit is this man. once upon a time, u never watch ur fkin ego, and then in the end turn like this, who's to blame? but i can't sae it's urself. scarly cos of that then u sae suicide.

watch out. u may see me going mad 1 day.

现代的老师，有哪些是这正因为热爱教育而来教书的呢？我坦白说，我们都很幸运，在华中的老师虽然有很多上课没有幽默感，可是多数的老师愿意帮助学生成长。不相信我你可以跟其他学校比一比。问题就是你要不要跟那个老师沟通：很多学生因为没有跟老师讲话或问他一些问题，而就认为这个老师是个外星人。因热爱教育而去教书的人真是很难找。很多人读完了书，想要当博士，律师，医生，搞创意的东西，因为这些工作的薪水很高。做老师虽然赚的钱是很低，如果热爱教育学者，你哪儿会管钱？

当然，我要谴责某些现代的学生。很多学生很像在家里没有受过什么道德教育，连尊敬老师都不会。也有一些很像没有被父母骂过的学生，真是无聊。他们以为现在新加坡是较高等的发展中国家，有人权，一被老师骂或说些不顺耳的话语，就立刻冲到朋友那儿讲老师的坏话。你以为你是谁？受西方红毛人影响就不需要尊师重道？？我不是要你把老师的话当成金科玉律，但是如果你把老师当成老师，至少当他是你的朋友吧。

lao die u look quite down with ur big sad eyes and ur big fat frown. the world doesn't have to be so grey. yeah. the world doesn't have to be so grey. sometimes it's time. should not see the world as an oppressive place, then it will b a nicer place.

试想想，如果你跟你自己讲，其实这个王八蛋是个好人，每天念这个句子，你就会自然会被自己洗脑，开始觉得那个人真的不是王八蛋。可是对我来说，我是病入膏肓的怪人。我对你们一些小朋友的印象已经定了，根深蒂固，要改也难。我当然希望自己可以“改邪归正”，可是太难了。为什么这样呢？哈哈。那应该是与你们的行为举止，态度想法等等方面有关。只要我极力不能接受一些部分，那么在我眼里，你就完了。

其实在此我要承认，我其实是个蛮幸运的小朋友。我不是说像个很正常的人，如果你有跟我有足够的相处，你会发现我的思想与很多人不同，但是很幸运，我能信任的人不是说很少。反过来说，我很同情那些很多朋友但没有可以信任的朋友的人。他们很容易就可以找人陪伴他们玩耍，但是可能要干正经的事情，或分享心事，他们无法做到，因为他们之间没有那个。。。感觉？信任感？

you will never be happy if u live ur life without trust and in dangling by telling ppl whom u dun trust confidential stuff. dat's why i always sae 睁开你的眼睛看看周围的人, in case u get cheated of ur feelings. 欺骗感情是个很大的罪恶，而且这也是个很容易做的事情。小心。beware of such ppl out to cheat. or s2pid until they duno that they're cheating on u. the key to good frens is by good communication, by establishing a healthy communication with the other person, i believe u shld b good frens. but if there's very superficial talking between u two, might as well not call urself even frens.

perturbed. i feel perturbed. i wonder. if u enthu ur cca, it doesn't mean that u can get lousy results and get a good position in ur cca.

小朋友们，你们比我还厉害，有领袖的料。但是去想想，你们要做领袖，而且是华中的领袖，可是因为只想要做领袖而不在乎自己的学业，你没有资格做个领袖。你以为因为你天生就有领袖的质料，你就自然、免费的做上领袖。哈哈。这是你自己做梦。免费？我的免费是指不读书就能做上大职位的人。如果你以为每天跑步等等方式提高自己的体能状态就能把你培养成一个英明仁爱的领袖，那就随便你吧，因为其实你与我本来就无关。

对阿虽说是与我无关，但我也要讲讲一些看法。u c i sometimes wonder because of the cse, how many ppl would choose to go and not choose to go. i wonder. scarly some ppl sae, o baby our cca team spirit, we'll fight evenly for good positions, let's all chiong cse. or because of some s2pid ppl around, they sae let's all chiong non cse. den cos of some ppl dowan to spoil their own future, they choose to go cse but in the end tio zam like an ispark and maybe even tio treated like j and yu. and maybe even legend. hahahahhahhaha. only time will tell my prophecy. whether it's correct or wrong i duno. but anw it's not my business oso. if i get bothered, it means i'm not acting according to my standard operating and oraling procedures. so i shld not get too involved. this is life. it's about politics. wad's the politics for on this page's url. erps.

where is the love? i think very much love is gone. of course at certain times of ur life it's good to b blind to some tings. like when there's no love in the world, if u choose to close ur eyes on this issue, u will tink the world is still wonderful and penisful. yea every1 living in penis and hymenee. that's nonsense. love is gone due to ppl not loving, in any society. so i wonder those humanitarian ppl i wonder how they are able to live the whole life as humanitarian. i dun tink i will b a humanitarian. cos i wan to enjoy life. but anyway, i dun tink i shld b touching on religion on blog. very dangerous. i wonder why atheist are always allowed to speak their minds about religion. they sae, hey boy, faith is shit cos in this world science has proven everyting. bible sae world only over 6000years, nonsense. cos i do carbon dating and it's cos duno how many billion years ago blah blah. and hey boy, c'mon believe that evolution then hav human. blah blah. sometimes i feel i as a christian i hav little sae in this. cos it's all about whether u wan to believe, and to submit to sth that is non-scientific. and u all blady proud ppl nowadays will never understand that cos u only tink u can submit to urself. haiz. let's not sow discord as far as possible. where is the love? u c. this is one main conflict in the world.

请听上帝的话语：
约翰福音 3：16
神爱世人，甚至将他的独生子赐给他们，叫一切信他的，不致灭亡，反得永生。

。。。。

the world is black. and the hearts are cold. and there's no hope, that's wad we're told. quite true my frens. well maybe it's cos my bro fren juz suicide sia. some more this person only play dota, is some muscleman, was one of the senior spec of my bro's batch. life is fragile. but anyway

Tell me what's wrong with society
When everywhere I look, I see
Young girls dying to be on TV
They won't stop till they've reached their dreams
Diet pills, surgery
Photoshopped pictures in magazines
Telling them how they should be
It doesn't make sense to me

Is everybody going crazy?
Is anybody gonna save me?
Can anybody tell me what's going on?
Tell me what's going on?
If you open your eyes
You'll see that something is wrong

I guess things are not how they used to be
There's no more normal families
Parents act like enemies
Making kids feel like it's World War III
No one cares, no one's there
I guess we're all just too damn busy
And money's our first priority
It doesn't make sense to meIs everybody going crazy?

Is anybody gonna save me?
Can anybody tell me what's going on?
Tell me what's going on?
If you open your eyes
You'll see that something is wrong
Is everybody going crazy?
Is everybody going crazy?

Tell me what's wrong with society
When everywhere I look I see
Rich guys driving big SUVs
While kids are starving in the streets
No one cares
No one likes to share
I guess life's unfair

Is everybody going crazy?
Is anybody gonna save me?
Can anybody tell me what's going on?
Tell me what's going on?
If you open your eyes
You'll see that something, something is wrong

要是我有一百万，我要坐飞机，我要游世界。飞机降落时顺便把你的家搞毁了。哈哈。对阿，顺便把你炸死。我要炸的人，他们的思想是那种比我极端 100 倍的那些无聊透顶，终日只会在那儿嫌东嫌西或不务正业，而在为他们的一个没前途的愿望深深思索。可能现在你会开始讲我才是那个无聊的，但是你看周围的人，在网络上的，你自然会看得出谁是那些无聊的，真正终日不务正业的那一小撮人。我可能可以救那些愿意改邪归正的人，认为我不是对牛弹琴的应该是没问题。可是至于那些病入膏肓的，你们可说是无药可救。要帮你们也难。。。

boys u muz noe urself. if u noe urself there is no problem talking. just like how i can talk to others. if the tings u sae are not urself, u cant elaborate properly. that's a big truth. y u wan to tok about tings that are not urself, and then when the other person sae sth from himself, then u tio stun cant talk, and b at the losing end? wad's the use? no point wad. but boss, if u are toking from the heart, then i have nothing to sae. y dun u mit wif me and we consult jonj for our position of the day? haha. that will b fun. but unfortunately u are only a appetizer. there are many main courses waiting for me boy.

from the heart, i'll promise you that i'll b there, i'll be there to fk u. from the soul, i'm showing you all i feel, all i'm feeling. and i'm feeling inspired cos my world juz flipped and turned upside down and i turn around, say wad's that sound? it's my iron dick....

u noe invoker has a skill called emp. very good. emp good. one big ball there then suddenly burst. shiok. u noe? a big ball and it bursts. fun. and there's the ting about the ghost walk. u see the invoker very sexy, has balls and can cat walk. i like. and he shakes his whole body in a nice movement like a side penetration when he shoots the ball. very good.

but anyway my dear young men, u c u all dun understand the world. i only understand about making love, and not like some of u all, only know how to sae hey shitty u nehneh idiot. hey hello. wake up ur idea man. i know u love ur balls and i love my balls. but if u love to press r to make deafening blast and make everyone shut up, it is not possible in the world cos i have a mouth and i control it and unless u musking tape i cant talk. but i still can make noise. even wif my dick i oso can. juz make it hard and whack the wall wif it.

alex ferguson is smart. but i'm juz like him. he's smart and i'm smart also. we're smart in our ways. haha. the game is fun to play kids.

小朋友们，不要听老爹，就不要听。对阿，又不是我的损失。我只是浪费一点口水，但是你如果不要听老爹传道，你的损失惨重。哈哈。不相信可以问一些人。愚昧人当心：你们插的洞是不对的洞，要插就去插别人的，最好是异性的，这样就不算虚伪，因为你们终于会找对的对象。而且你们应该睁开眼睛，看看世界，而且去留意一下世界上的种种游戏。你看完了，而且详细分析研究研究以后，才来制造一个新的游戏，让大家玩。这样才算是聪颖。

马太福音 5:9
使人和睦的人有福了！因为他们必成为神的儿子。

罗马书 12:14
逼迫你们的，要给他们祝福；只要祝福，不可诅咒。

u noe i love invoker. u noe dat hero? yea. invoker. he loves to invoke. with a click of an r button and magic! invoked! and u get a new spell, sexy, not sexy etc. but so sad u noe. nowadays ppl like to invoke the wrong feelings into others, and then so that can invoke the response that they want. giv u an example. a young man, tries to make a person pist. i mean this happens very often. u make a person pist, so that u can see him pist and laugh at him. so fun. i mean u dun do that? i dun tink so la. every1 does that, just that which extent u're toking only.

i hav to respect invokers. as in those that invoke anger in others. i respect. cos they can invoke anger and know that they hav supporters with them who are also interested in invoking anger but just they have no balls and dun dare and nid a master to start. salute man. they can invoke the wrong point, but then every follows the wrong point. dog and master hypothesis again. wad can i sae? there are s2pid ppl in the society. i mean 80% of students nowadays are s2pid and/or have no balls to stand up for justice freedom and equality. they stand up for losing sarcasm and uselessness and making nub excuses, and crack good jokes.

小朋友们，为什么要这样？要打扰别人，以后看好你想打扰谁哦。哈哈。你觉得我会给你看我的睾丸吗？不可能吧。我的很值钱的。看到了，你会瞎眼。无聊透顶，要玩我？没那么容易。我警告你们，要跟我有仇恨的话，小心。我是没有那么容易赦免你们。呵呵。跑吧孩子，免得我发现你是什么人。我会紧紧地克你们。哈哈哈。

我最喜欢的事情：指桑骂槐，指鸡骂狗。真好玩。

i wonder. y every1 meng fhag. read the word fhag. wad does it sound like? now see this. FHAG. isn't it worse? i mean it sounds like faggot wad. now every1 tink i faggot rite. well if u dun like it this is the truth. okla u wan make it for honour and glory ma. but now u abbr it, it sounds like wad? fhag. fag. wad do u use the word fag for?

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if i had power i would be ruthless. i would be a useless person. i will do a suharto. makan the cash, split it among my frens, and let the useless ppl die. but then i will help the poor ppl. the useless should die. those with the wrong head shld die. so dat means i shld die oso. fun.

我就是想不通为什么一些英俊性感的小朋友不会发觉他们的想法真的与别人不同，但是却不想去改变这种思想。明明知道自己周围的人跟你的关系不是很好，而且你也喜欢看贬别人，不为别人着想，到了这种地步你也不想改变自己的心态。咳。我看你应该是完蛋了，我的老兄。你只是很幸运，没有人感跟你找麻烦，因为他们这样做你就会用权力压扁他们。一天我比你还大，你给我小心。看到你我会做个伪善者，请你喝一杯茶或咖啡，顺便挖苦你。希望那时你会不爽，向我骂一骂，然后我可以把这个精彩的断片录下来，送给你的上司，给他知道你的真面目。

a drop of methanol makes pure ethanol denatured ethanol.
a drop of iodine is enough to turn a quarter of a piece of paper dark blue.
a spatula of MnO2 is able to speed up the decomposition of H2O2 like mad.

小朋友，你们小小的动作可以引起很大的反应。你可能以为一些话语随口说说罢了，但是在别人的眼中，他们也能以为你再侮辱、诽谤。当心自己的动作，否则一旦你发现你跟每个人的关系表面肤浅。

前事不忘，后事之师。这俗语讲的没错。如果我们看看以前的事情，反省、考虑、思索，一定会发现一些地方可以吸取教训。据个例子。比如曾经你因为的当时处事太过冲动，而搞得很多人对你产生不满，有去想一想，你可能会发觉原来我真的是令人讨厌，而且也被别人诅咒。那你就应该去反省，不要呆在那儿，继续想，哎呀，不要紧，因为有那群崇拜我的狗儿。哈哈。有些人真的是这样。当然，一小撮人对你的印象一定不会改变，无论你去说什么，他们也不管，无动于衷。但是你有去跟那些会对你的态度改变的人讲讲吗？



虽说你的事情与我蛮无关，但是如果你没有不断的去解决这种印象的事情、对症下药，一天你可能发现每个人早已疏远了你。。。哈哈哈

left with some stubborn fonts that dowan to change colour.... other than that i tink this site is mostly done

well. after retiring from ncc officially i juz want to share some minor and major stuff online. this is very dangerous. but i dun really care alr. since every1 is tinking there's nothing wrong. i shall put some controversial stuff. if u tink so den y not correct on somewhere?

sometimes i wonder why ppl see me as not so enthu in ncc. i mean being a person in ncc u muz hav made some frens. and cos of the some frens i feel that it's nice being in ncc. then of course very unfortunately there are ppl more celebrated for this and thats. e.g. i hav many badges blah blah. at the end of the day do i care about ur badge? den some ppl also sae they like to wear no. 4 etc. i admit there are some ppl confirm dun like, cos their one too small too big etc. but i tink it's s2pid to proclaim o i like to wear no. 4. cos you can't describe properly. i like to wear no. 4, but i never go around saying. ppl will only see u as an idiot. some tings u juz hav to shut up about it seriously. i dun go around sae i love no.4 wad. it feels so attention seeking to me. dat's another ting i learnt. shut up at the 关键 times.

i only care about how true is the frenship. and this is why i sae some frenship can never be real. i can see very clearly for myself who my good frens are, frens, and acquaintances. i mean u oso hav to see clearly for urself. however, at a younger age, dat means as a cadet, i would sae let's be blind. dat's wad i did. i told myself ok every1 is a good fren. because it is good to get many contacts first. but now cannot alr. the situation is totally different. dat's wad i found after a few years in ncc. i open up my eyes, i saw so many danger. be it danger in my batch, danger in the juniors. i saw many dangers. be careful my babies. true frenship is difficult to forge, while fake frenship is easy like a piece of shit. for me, at this point of time, i have already opened up my eyes. wad about all of the others? are you willing to open up your eyes? haha.

another one that is more impt than only opening up your eyes. is about plp. i learnt to never plp in ncc. it will never bring you anywhere. u can actively be involved, but never plp so that u get involved and so u'll look more sexy. dat is the most s2pid ting to do. and those at the top, never get plp. if u succumb to plp, i'll be the first to giv u a good ass fking. succumbing to plp is despicable. and the guy hu plp is also as despicable. why u plp? will it help u? plp will only turn into a drug. plp once, den u hav to plp twice and so on. cos u cant stop, unless u suddenly change image which can be difficult. without plp, i've managed to be promoted. personally i didn't expect some of us sect ppl hu hav been practising the extremist doctrine of sect 秘籍 to get promoted, since it wasn't the norm. not sae i was the most involved person also, and all of us didn't bother to plp, but some of us got promoted in the end.

lastly as a hci person and then involved in ncc, i've learnt to be more discerning than ever. that's one of the biggest lesson to learn oso. very soon u'll understand wad is critical and creative thinking. i tink caring thinking? erps. dat's under critical and creative tinking. but anyway i've learn to be critical and discerning. very impt skills in life. some people are not critical and discerning. they are just following the crowd or following the boss. which is the most stupid ting to do. if u follow the boss when the boss is out to use u as a dog and/or waste ur time, why u listen to the boss? tell him, hey idiot, u power? u can go and hav sex somewhere in geylang. i like certain people. u all are discerning enough to tell where's the loophole and not treat one person as some genius when he's just another nerd. and u're critical enough to see the character of a person. very good. u may not be 100% correct, but at least u get the 40-50%, that's alr very good. i mean i can't guarantee a 100% since there are limitations, e.g. knowing the person well enough is the most impt factor. discerning and thinking person. someting i learnt that is very impt from ncc. as well as some parts of thinking, i hav to thank the few months i've been wif the soccer coach. although he very much toking about sex and soccer, but there are some lessons i've learnt from him.

every1 like to honourable mention ppl. so i oso like to honourable mention a few ppl that hav been very nice to me during my ncc life. why? there is a communication. communication of something dat i really cannot describe. duno how to describe. wadeva.

first i wan to honourable mention sect ppl. 我们有个 specially written 秘籍. powerful. we practise it for very long, and i hope the next batch would write their own. (reveal some parts: how to make sexy trapezium, how to make sexy quads, how to be a shooter during camp ok enough revealing) especially jonj, for going for football often and we tok more than football sometimes, also during the route march when we carry 10kg extra and no one saw us? erps. and i tink i shld honourable mention all of u, including part d ps and aps, for enjoying the music i make haha, even when it is quite shitty i may make u all shut ur mouths.

then i wan to honourable mention my proj members. although sometimes we hav ncc stuff but well we still hav good time in the lab, even if there are times when we are sick of doing so much of those lab work.

honourable mention to ja, we learnt swimming together in a crash course. fun... also to weijing, cos of ur sexy divine powers in silence. also aaron, for providing fun and ra ra

next, i wan to honourable mention those who go home wif me 2gether. i tink u all endure alot of 老爹 nonsense when wif me, esp for yu and alfred. and for yu, i tink let's cover marathon dist 2gether? erps haha.

lastly i wan to honourable mention 2 juniors, yangcheng and gordon. my eyes opened early, i knew u both had something special. even though at the start i thought u all fake, but after knowing u 2 better, i was sure u both would become some leader. as i always sae, there is no definition for leader. anyway u are lucky to spot me and yu running sia. impressed.

i'm no hitler, i cannot do magic propaganda, and i also believe propaganda is the worst ting to do although it must be present. all i can sae is after a few years in ncc, i've learnt many tings, some can describe some cannot. as usual, it's all a combination. i learn tings in ncc, and being an ncc person in hci i learnt tings oso. i won't sae i learnt everyting in ncc, but without ncc i tink i would be very shallow. e.g. by having npcc good frens and some other good frens in other cca, i tink i am able to open up my eyes properly. but without ncc, my eyes wouldn't be as opened as now what i am.

i just remembered. nellying for basically nothing is useless. it's just like nellying dota. does it bring u to the wcg? erps.

what is frenship to u? wad a joke. when many ppl are asked, they dun define it. i can't define it oso. unfortunately. but i noe the basis of a proper frenship is the communication of feelings. and this isn't present in many people nowadays. why dowan to communicate feelings? it's a joke that when many ppl aren't doing so, they still call others their good frens. if they call themselves frens still ok. calling these people ur good frens? u're blinding urself. open up ur eyes kids. look at what is happening. acquaintance or fren? hi.

讲真的，我不喜欢做君子。所谓“君子一言，驷马难追”。讲一句错话就完蛋了。哈哈。有时候人们说的话是可能是一时的气话，冲动等等。但是当然有些人令我很伤心。他们每次看到性，听到性，讲到性，而且自己想去做那个那个，他们觉得自己很有权柄。无聊，你会说脏话就是你很成熟阿？是哦。很多现代的小朋友的父母很像没有好好教育孩子，他们一开口没事做一定要讲脏话或有恶意要侮辱别人的话。令我很失望。为什么要这样？

有其他的人还好一点，比较容易谈得来，但是他们的缺点就是没有注意别人。他们可能会较了解一些人的心理，但是很可惜没有为比较不俗的人们着想。世界是残酷的。有时小小的错误选择，别人就会当你是一堆垃圾。对阿，我也认为一些人是垃圾，因为他们的思想行为举止令我很恶心。我每次怀疑他们的父母有没有教过他们。养不教，父之过。呵呵。

哎。为什么这个世界要那么残酷呢？其实阿，我在此也不敢打太多东西，恐怕给每个人知道我的一些极端的想法。给你们一些阴险的恶者知道的话，我看我一定会粉身碎骨。但是我要提醒大家，当心周围的人。我们说：君子之交淡如水。你去想想看这句话到底对不对。睁开眼睛看看世界！做个聪明的人！

anyway with regards to those people going for clt course. USE UR BRAINS. tink of wad u wan to do 1st. dun go there and then decide to become a dog. if u're going to take ur rank and leave, i respect this decision. but if u're going there to get cadet captain, u make sure u dun b a dog of muds and the smart organisation. u are a hci kid. as far as possible go and make a change and challenge something. u noe y it is a smart organisation? i tink u noe. cant sae too much oso wad. later i 伤坏你的玻璃心。well. it's the truth. i really tink as a discerning and critical thinking person u shld hav become after ur years in hci, go there and make a change. tink about it. do we get extra cca points by getting awards in courses, or wadeva? smart organisation isnt it. even npcc and st john participate in many more comp, we never even get much going shooting comp. smart organisation.